Wednesday, August 24, 2005
Hee hee! aren't u guys surprised to see my post here? lol. i noe it's not after exams yet but i felt like i needed to pour everything out at the moment. well i'm just freakin stressed. thank god that the CAs are finally over after a whole term of pure torture having five tests in a week, every week. damn mad. it's no wonder i've lost myself amidst all the 'excitement' . =.=" oh yeah wanna congratulate seren, Ali-cia, Germs, Meng Jung, Joan, Nicky and Jocelyn on being the new prefect council. U guys sincerely deserved it! (:
In a matter of what a few weeks the sec fours will be leaving! argh. gonna miss them! thank goodness for msn; and the wonderful invention of phones by Alexander Graham Bell. good for you, dude. haha. guess what ms Shanthi cancelled trng all of a sudden. I've yet to noe of the reason but i will soon. *evil grin* was so peeved cos of it. but wonderful Zee came up with the idea of having fun on our own without coach and the rest of the team. GO ZEE! we had loads of fun! haha.
Argh. everything hasn't really been gg well. I noe i've drifted away and all that, but i dunno i really wanna get back with them but.... i just dunno. i really miss the times that we had, that was just sheer pure fun, always listening to me and even giving me the weird looks. haha. thinking back bout it, it was great but i guess it's time to move on? or not. nowadays i've just really afraid that if i get back with them,
someone else will feel that i have left them out. there's this element of fear in me now. I don't wanna lose her as a fren but i wanna get back with them! they probably think that i've forgotten bout them and all that. but i can promise u it's not true. even after everything, they are still my bestest frens that i have/ had (?) sigh. what should i do?
On top of that i've been failing at every damn thing i do. i haven't exactly done well for anything at all so far. I've even lost my knack for shooting (if i ever did have any) argh. i guess it's time to change my position but then again i can't do well in any position, not even when i'm Goal shooter. this second half of the yr has really been trash. like i broke down after stupid A math cos i knew i was gonna fail. again. rahh. and the thing is that my mum doesn't noe bout my marks. so when she does i'll be dead. like really. she doesn't take explaining, it's all lame excuses to her. better prepare my tomb. haiz.
I've been so darn busy i haven't really got the time to sit down and have a talk with
them. I have a feeling that they're all facing sth at the moment, or was. and the worst thing is, i'm not there for them! even though we're just a few steps away, it's two different worlds? being in different classes is tough. i thought that it wouldn't really be a problem, but it is. silly me. And i really wanna email gill and Nicole but... if i do, i'll start writing a super long one and it's gonna take me forever to do it. really deprived of my likes at the moment. shucks. i realised for 'fruits basket' i'm 6 volumes behind and for 'love for venus' 2 volumes behind. grr. stupid exams.
but i guess i have to wake up soon.actually now. cos i don't have very much time left. FY is just round the corner. blah. really wanna do well. hope God will at least give me this grace. please?
I miss P&W sessions. in need of major healing here. :(
and hmm. u've been missing in action for quite a bit. getting sick of me, huh? wells, what's new ne way. no surprise. continue with what u're doing, i'll get over it. i'm just a blardy attention seeker ne way. :P
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