Friday, September 29, 2006
BY THE WAY, WHO WANTS TO JOIN MY 'SPEAK PROFOUND ENGLISH CAMPAIGN' IN A BID TO IMPROVE OUR ENGLISH MARKS. (WHICH HAPPENS TO BE L1 FOR OUR OH-SO-FAMILIAR L1R5). I PROMISE I'M NOT MOCKING THE GOVERNMENT'S CAMPAIGN. IT'S JUST SOMETHING I THOUGHT OF YESTERDAY, WHILE DAZING MY DAY AWAY.
Using profound words in daily speech has been proven to improve our dwindling english marks tremedously. VOLUNTEERS ANYONE? hee. VOCABULARY SPONSORS ARE WELCOMED WITH OPEN ARMS.
ENROLMENT AS OF 28/9/06 : ONE. (AND IT'S NOT ME!) ^^
WHERE'S MY WALKING DICTIONARY! PFFT.
I whispered
at 11:41 PM
It should be a happy day, I should be happy. RIGHT. And yet I'm not exactly feeling my best. No it's got nothing to do with my results, I've got everything I've wanted and more. Perhaps it's indirectly linked to results. It's difficult trying to be humble about it. When people ask for your marks, you can't possibly not answer them, though I would love to and pre-empt all these catastrophes that have inevitably ocurred. When you answer, you try to be humble and say that you didn't really do well and you end up passing off as insensitive. Either that, or you say that you've done well, and you sound as if you're showing off. WHAT THEN AM I SUPPOSED TO DO. It's a lose-lose situation. Perhaps it'll be much easier if all of us kept to ourselves and didn't ask for results in the first place. Maybe we're all being too frank with what we feel about our results, to the extent that it sounds like we're trying to put someone down, when in fact, it was never our intention to do so.
I think I'm just angry at myself for not possessing humility and inner peace to begin with - something that I've always yearned to have. Being secretive about things isn't going to make anything better, yet confrontation when it's the last few months that we're spending together isn't exactly the wisest idea ever. Well at least nothing was thrown at me today. I'm just sick and tired of it. The world is unfair, I know. I probably don't deserve whatever I got, but I did and I can't do anything about it, can I? All we can do at the moment is, comes to terms with it and DO SOMETHING ABOUT IT. Say, how about we GET OVER IT AND START WORKING FOR THE MAIN, MORE IMPORTANT OBJECTIVE? It's not too late to start a clean slate. And I thank Eugene for telling me that too. (: PEACE.
"The higher your authority, the more humble you have to be."
- Eugene, who got this from somewhere which he can't remember exactly. LOL.
I whispered
at 11:10 PM
Thursday, September 28, 2006
I SUCK AT AMATH. I MADE MYSELF GET MY FIRST B3 ALL BECAUSE OF IT. !@#$% I just want to know what I got for physics practical now, so that I'll know what my L1R5 is exactly. Thank God my chinese isn't that bad, at least I have it as a safety net. I don't know if RJ will take me in, considering all the other better students that are aiming to go there! It's worrying. I know I initially thought that I'll do really badly for prelims because I hardly studied enough and for that I should be satisfied with my results. It is after all human nature to expect more. I know I expected to be taught a lesson for being so complacent about going to do well for prelims. It's not supposed to be this way!! Now I'm going to be much worse! I need to pysche myself that whatever I got was the result of sheer luck, and I can't expect to do as well if I don't work hard. Only then will I be able to motivate myself to do better. Getting these marks was exactly what I've always wanted and now that I've SOMEWHAT attained that, I guess I have to convince myself that I should and must do much better. It all began as if it were a dream, now it's turning around with the TWO SUBJECTS I SUCK AT MOST, being the deciding factor for my L1R5. I just hope I would be able to score well for physics practical. That's the last thing I'm asking for now.
Actually I've wanted to apologise for being insensitive to many many people. I know I'm pretty much unable to control myself when I do well and tend to blurt out nonsense. For that I sincerely apologise. Also like I said, the only way for me to motivate myself is to say that I didn't do as well as I feel I should. If saying that has hurt anyone in any way, I'm terribly sorry. Hopefully, you'll forgive me? I promise I'll make a conscious effort to be more sensitive in the future.
I shall applaud myself for being so damn horrible at doing AMATH. *claps*
QUOTE OF THE DAY: "Remember, how ever well you do, there will always be someone better than you." - HOW VERY TRUE.
I whispered
at 2:53 PM
Friday, September 22, 2006
I'm happy happy happy today! Retreat was seriously wonderful. I feel so...PURE AND HOLY. (: AND we asked for forgiveness from so many people that you didn't even feel self conscious or whatsoever anymore. You just went up to them and everything seemed all right after that. We literally let bygones be bygones. It was really an indescribable feeling. I felt uplifted, like I became much lighter, literally of course.
The sharing was great as well! The speaker was so inspirational! I teared, as usual, probably because I just can't stand seeing people cry. I'll really cry too. Not because I can relate to what they're going through, but it just hurts me to see people cry. WEIRD, BUT TRUE. I've seen it happen so many times!
I'm really grateful for this retreat. Who knows, after many years I might still be carrying around this burden all the way from secondary school, thinking that there's something wrong with me because I made so many people angry to the point that the friendship didn't last. HOW SAD THAT WOULD BE! REALLY THANKFUL THAT THE ORGANISERS CAME DOWN AND CONDUCTED IT (: I feel so much happier. Whatever it was that was troubling me yesterday seems not that bad today. Hopefully things will get better!
YESTERDAY
I was so darn worried about getting back emath (which was today), but I'm satisfied! :D I shouldn't have let the news about getting back emath paper ruin my would-be perfect day! I guess I was unusually emotional for some unknown reason. Probably a culmination of events. I seriously felt like breaking down. Maybe the pressure of getting into a good school has just begun rubbing in NOW. I know it's a bit too late though. Had I felt that way earlier I would've been able to be a lot more driven than I was during the prelims. OH WELL, let's just hope and pray we'll do relatively well and the school will moderate moderate moderate. HEE.
We had a career talk yesterday! I must mention that OUR SPEAKER, was and is the best speaker among the rest.(doesn't this sound like some IJ CHEER? *wonders*) NOT ONLY was he good looking (stop laughing Sam!), he was really interesting. NONE OF US FELT BORED. AT ALL. AND AND AND, EX-RI AND RJ STUDENT. AHEM. IN LAW SCHOOL NOW. HELLO? Freaking smart! Sam and even listed out the possible schools he was from, before he told us. SHE WON. !@#$% Actually he really does have the very RI GUY kind of qualitites. OK! sorry rambling off again. YEAH, SO I'M WORRIED BECAUSE I DON'T KNOW WHAT I WANT TO BE NEXT TIME! I've always thought LAW, but recently I've been thinking that I'm not cut out to be one. SO YEAH I'M LOST NOW. =.=
I apologise for the really long post today! Hope I didn't bore everyone? *winces* TOODLES THEN, before you all fall asleep! XD
I whispered
at 5:59 PM
Wednesday, September 20, 2006
PRELIMS ARE OVER, PRELIMS ARE OVERRR *SINGS* YAYYYYY! (: But guess what, we have homework! PLUS PRACTICALS TOMORROW AND FRIDAY. OH WELL. I'd rather have those than exams anyway. So tomorrow, we'll be back to feeling like a part of the school. RecentlyI feel like the sec fours are soooo isolated. lol. like a separate part of the the school, because all we ever do is have exams, study and go home. We don't even stay for recess! THERE IS NO PRACTICALLY NO INTERACTION WITH THE REST OF THE SCHOOL. OMG, we're getting back results next week. From what the teachers have been saying, it doesn't sound good at all. I HOPE IT JUST REFERS TO THE MINORITY. Highly unlikely, but one can hope right? IT'S SO HARD TRYING TO GET A SINGLE DIGIT! I WON'T BE GETTING SIX, I KNOW. I SERIOUSLY DON'T DESERVE THAT ANYWAY. IF I DO GET IT, I'LL BE SOME GENIUS. COS AFTER ALL I PERSONALLY FEEL THAT I DIDN'T DO ENOUGH. HARDLY DID ANYTHING. HAHAHA, I SHALL WATCH BLOOD+! THE SERIES IS ENDING SOON! (:
OH YEAH, SOMETHING REALLY EMBARRASSING HAPPENED THIS MORNING! LIKE THE BUS DRIVER MADE JIANHAO AND I GET DOWN COS WE WENT UP THROUGH THE BACK DOOR. OOPS? We were desperate anyway, we didn't want to be late for our papers. Well, I always thought that something like this would happen. I seriously didn't feel it was right from the beginning, but I never said anything. GOOD THING IS, WE LAUGHED IT OFF. HAHAHA. AND SERIOUSLY, if the people actually moved in, everyone would have made it up the bus. I guess some people are just completely inconsiderate. Maybe schools should have a rule that students being late because of the inefficient and overcrowded buses should and can be excused. It's really not fair. HMPH.
OOH ANYWAY, BLOOD+ has finished loading. TOODLES! (:
I whispered
at 12:29 PM
Thursday, September 14, 2006
YAYY ANIME IS LOVEEEE. (: I've finished watching FULLMETAL ALCHEMIST and GUNSLINGER GIRL. I'M SUPER HAPPY NOW. It's been so long since I've really watched anime (THANKS TO EXAMS). AND AND AND, BLEACH IS AT EPISODE 96 or something like that. I stopped at episode 81! !#$% PLUS, I tried watching FATE/STAY NIGHT from like where I left off, and I can't remember very much! My computer is seriously running out of space for anime so I ended up watching them off youtube. WHICH TAKES FOREVER TO LOAD BTW. ): BUT IT'S OK. I MAKE GOOD USE OF WAITING TIME, BY STUDYING PHYSICS. SO SMART AYE. -GRIN. YAY I'm so accomplished! I've finished ten chapters of physics plus, TWO ANIME SERIES! I LOVE THIS SO-CALLED ONE WEEK BREAK MORE NOW! :D PHYSICS IS EWWW BUT ANIME IS LOVE! SINCE STUPID FATE/STAY NIGHT DIDN'T WANNA LOAD, I SHALL WATCH BLOOD+ INSTEAD. *skips off to watch more anime* TOODLES!
QUOTE OF THE DAY: 'HE LOOKA LIKE A MAN' -MS BUNNY SWAN <3
I whispered
at 4:03 PM
Tuesday, September 12, 2006
WHYS THERE NO ONE ONLINE NOW! OH WAIT, EVERYONES HAVING STUPID PRELIMS. IM BORED TO TEARS! JUST WHEN I WANNA HAVE SOME FUN, EVERYONES NOT GONNA JOIN IN. *WAILS* AND FRIENDSTER IS SO BORING NOW. WHY? COS EVERYONES BUSY STUDYING. *CURSES* I WANNA WATCH ANIME! LIKE LIKE...OMG. YOUTUBE! -GRINS. MY SAVIOURRRR. *RUNS ALONG*
I whispered
at 4:08 PM
I'm back! :D YAY papers for this week are over! SIX DAYS BEFORE THE LAST FOUR PAPERS! *dances* I seriously think I screwed up my physics practical today. There goes my chance of hoping to redeem my physics marks. Guess I just have to work that much harder these few days for AMATH AND PHYSICS. Not my most favourite subjects, but ahh I've gotta put in some effort.
History was all right I guess. SBQ was quite unexpected, IT WAS RUSSIA (AGAIN!) HELLO? WE HAVE HAD LIKE FOUR EXAMS SO FAR AND RUSSIA HAS COME OUT THREE TIMES? THANK GOD I REMEBERED SOME STUFF FROM THAT CHAPTER, WELL THE SOURCES HELPED A LOT TOO. SEQ WAS....NOT TOO BAD I THINK. At least I studied on of the chapters that came out. Didn't have much choice so I did JAPAN anyway, considering the fact that I didn't manage to study WARTIME CONFERENCES and THE ROAD TO WAR. OH WELL. HOPEFULLY I CAN GET A1 for SS/HIST. REALLY REALLY HOPE SO. I'll be really good after that! I PROMISE. Like I'll study and not procrastinate so much anymore! JUST LESS THAN TEN FOR PRELIMS WILL MAKE ME THE HAPPIEST PERSON ALIVE ALREADY. Actually, the end of exams makes me the happiest person alive cos, hey! I survived this! -grin. BUT YEAH, DOING WELL MAKES IT ALL WORTH IT.
EMATH WAS NOT TOO BAD. EXCEPT THAT VECTOR QUESTION! MY GAWD, I spent so much time trying to figure it out! I think I'm gonna die for that question and the transformation question. I was just so confused during the exam. POOR ME. AND AND AND, I BLAME IT ALL ON INSOMNIA! IT TOOK ME TWO HOURS TO FALL ASLEEP! I ended up sleeping at around two instead of twelve, which is already bad enough. Well, I was trying to revise history before bedtime that's why. I VOW NEVER TO DO SIT UPS BEFORE SLEEPING, COS I TRIED IT YESTERDAY AND I COULDN'T SLEEP AGAIN. =.= But maybe it's due to stress or something. HAHA. LET'S GO HAVE FUN FUN FUN. ARGH ANYWAY I WENT TO SCHOOL YESTERDAY FEELING SO SICK AND MY HEAD FELT....EMPTY. I THINK I LEFT MY BRAIN AT HOME THAT'S WHY I COULDN'T DO SIMPLE QUESTIONS LIKE VECTORS. PFFT. IT'S EMATH FOR GOODNESS SAKE! The whole paper is 100 marks and I choose to have insomnia on the night before it. RAH.
BUT in the end it was fun because during the break before history paper, I was feeling super high. I swear laughing is an aphrodisiac. The slightest things made me laugh so hard! Audrey and the rest kept saying that my face was so red. OH WELL! *covers my face* I had this little 'fight' with WANCHING, and my fingers ended up hitting her watch! IT WAS SO PAINFUL I TELL YOU. I pretended I didn't wanna talk to her after that. LOL. THEN AUDREY ASKED US TO SAY SORRY AND MAKE UP. SOUNDS SO PRIMARY SCHOOL CAN. HAHA I'M SO SLEEPY AND HUNGRY NOW. SHALL NAP AND HAVE LUNCH! TOODLES!
Cause I've got you to make me feel stronger
When the days are rough and an hour feels much longer
I whispered
at 12:28 PM
Sunday, September 10, 2006
RAHHH the holidays are over just like that! its not fun anymore! school starts tomorrow and PRELIMS TOO. Well re-commences anyway.
All these weird thoughts keep flooding my brain:
-what if the chapters i studied dont come out for SEQ?
-WHAT IF THE CHAPTERS I DIDNT STUDY COMES OUT FOR SBQ? (well I pulled it off during mid year, who is to say it will happen again?)
-WHAT IF I CANT REMEMBER WHAT I STUDIED. THAT IS THE ULTIMATE NIGHTMARE FOR ME AYE. *starts to panic*
I LOVE HISTORY. I REALLY DO. ALWAYS HAVE. I JUST DONT LIKE MAO AND CHINA. GORBACHEV ISNT SO BAD ONCE YOUVE READ THE CHAPTER. LOL. GLASNOST AND PERESTROIKA. *dances around* HES QUITE FUNNY ACTUALLY. ENCOURAGE THE RELINQUISHING OF POWER OF THE SOVIET UNION SUBTLY,THROUGH THESE POLICIES. But not subtle enough aye? Cos MELLIE FOUND OUT HIS SECRET! HE DIDNT NEED THE SATELLITE STATES WHO WERE HOGGING RUSSIAS WEALTH AND RESOURCES, SO HE CAME UP WITH A PLAN TO GET RID OF THEM. *EVIL LAUGHTER*
I SO NEED A LIFE. (cant you tell? Ive resorted to deciphering historical leaders and their devious plans!) BUT I NEED A PROPER KEYBOARD NOW. I THINK SOME BUTTONS AINT WORKING. Plus, everytime I type apostrophe, some weird word search thingy appears. Notice Ive not used it at all in my contractions? the arrow buttons arent working too. THIS IS GETTING ANNOYING. haha I should like get back to history: CULTURAL REVOLUTION. GOD SAVE ME.
I whispered
at 5:09 PM
Tuesday, September 05, 2006
HELLO! Really sorry for not updating recently, studying can be so boring. I'm currently at my uncle's house and i'm not supposed to be online/using the computer lol, but I didn't really realise how boring certain chapters of history can be! Anyway, my friend told me that he had a dream about me this morning (cause he slept at three, it's hardly called night anymore is it?) Well, it was funny/weird and I won't go into detail about it. If you're someone close to me, you'd probably already know. If you're close to me but you don't know yet, I probably haven't found the chance to tell you that's all. Don't fret it!
I'm like in the room now, with the air conditioning on, it's so so cold i tell you. haha. and i'm gonna bore everyone talking about exactly what i'm doing at this point of time. =.= OH YES! my uncle brought me out for dinner on sunday night, and he bought me shoes! not really shoes, but like wedgies (or is it called wedges? lol) and pumps! (: yay yay yay. happy happy. Sadly i'm not going out anytime soon (STUPID EXAMS!), so i won't be using them now. I guess they'll be stashed in the corner at the moment! Ok, i can't believe I'm such a procrastinator! I can't even study history properly and it's probably the only subject I can score the best in, or study the most for. I think I should study but WHERE IS THE MOTIVATION WHEN I MOST NEED IT!! *cries* I so wanna do well! ): FINE I shall go study! TOODLE-LOO! -grins.
I whispered
at 2:22 PM
Saturday, September 02, 2006
These few days have been the best! slack all day long, watch tv like nobody's business, come online and chat chat chat. SO FUN! why can't it be like this everyday? haha. i've not even touched my books until erm last night or something when I needed to rush my tuition hw. Then I realised I had not enough time, so I ended up staying up till two and still didn't complete it. oh well.
Since I have practically nothing to blog about, I shall reply to tags! (: It's been such a long time since I've done that! HAHA. I'm sooo deprived right.
GRACE: hello! It's no problem! (: just don't think about it so much yeah. If you need to talk about anything, just let me know! <3
NICOLE: haha. sorry bout not updating. just been rather lazy and having too much fun to actually sit down and blog. lol. for some strange reason, the posts that you updated on your blog this whole week? I couldn't see them until today. so I had like one whole chunk of stuff to read about. PSST. If anyone buys you "BRING IT ON: all or nothing" MAKE SURE YOU LET ME WATCH TOO!! -grins. so cool so cool! LET'S ELOPE TO AUSTRALIA!! :D btw, you really have WEIRDOS tagging on your tagboard. haha. who cares about them anyway!
LYNETTE: HEY THERE! It's no problem! thanks for offering dear! (: you're so sweet! LOVE YOU TOO! <3
HUISHIAN: XIAOSHIAN!! (: YAY I love going home with you! haha. thanks dearie, so sweet of you to try and comfort me. I forsee myself getting 54points for prelims already. lol. It's no use. too late haha. I, ON THE OTHER HAND, forsee YOU doing WELL! haha. (: study hard all right! Don't worry so much, considering how hardworking you are, it's a given that you'll be doing much better than me. HOHO. <33!
OLGA: YOU CRAZY PRINCIPAL OF ERM, OCS! WATCH OUT FOR ME! COS I'M GONNA TAKE OVER AS PRINCIPAL! OR EVEN BETTER, AS BOARD DIRECTOR! HAHAHA. I'M A BETTER COMEDIAN THAN YOU ANYWAY! HEEHEE. TAKE CARE! I'LL LINK YOU RIGHT AFTER I'M DONE WITH THIS POST! (:
OK, I'M DONE NOW. YAY "LOVE TO KILL" is starting in....35 minutes! RAIN RAIN RAIN! <3 sigh, my heart throb always and forever! sadly he dies. OOPS? not supposed to say that but I think people already know! oh well.
Let's waste time chasing cars and just forget the world.
I whispered
at 9:37 PM
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