Friday, September 22, 2006
I'm happy happy happy today! Retreat was seriously wonderful. I feel so...PURE AND HOLY. (: AND we asked for forgiveness from so many people that you didn't even feel self conscious or whatsoever anymore. You just went up to them and everything seemed all right after that. We literally let bygones be bygones. It was really an indescribable feeling. I felt uplifted, like I became much lighter, literally of course.
The sharing was great as well! The speaker was so inspirational! I teared, as usual, probably because I just can't stand seeing people cry. I'll really cry too. Not because I can relate to what they're going through, but it just hurts me to see people cry. WEIRD, BUT TRUE. I've seen it happen so many times!
I'm really grateful for this retreat. Who knows, after many years I might still be carrying around this burden all the way from secondary school, thinking that there's something wrong with me because I made so many people angry to the point that the friendship didn't last. HOW SAD THAT WOULD BE! REALLY THANKFUL THAT THE ORGANISERS CAME DOWN AND CONDUCTED IT (: I feel so much happier. Whatever it was that was troubling me yesterday seems not that bad today. Hopefully things will get better!
YESTERDAY
I was so darn worried about getting back emath (which was today), but I'm satisfied! :D I shouldn't have let the news about getting back emath paper ruin my would-be perfect day! I guess I was unusually emotional for some unknown reason. Probably a culmination of events. I seriously felt like breaking down. Maybe the pressure of getting into a good school has just begun rubbing in NOW. I know it's a bit too late though. Had I felt that way earlier I would've been able to be a lot more driven than I was during the prelims. OH WELL, let's just hope and pray we'll do relatively well and the school will moderate moderate moderate. HEE.
We had a career talk yesterday! I must mention that OUR SPEAKER, was and is the best speaker among the rest.(doesn't this sound like some IJ CHEER? *wonders*) NOT ONLY was he good looking (stop laughing Sam!), he was really interesting. NONE OF US FELT BORED. AT ALL. AND AND AND, EX-RI AND RJ STUDENT. AHEM. IN LAW SCHOOL NOW. HELLO? Freaking smart! Sam and even listed out the possible schools he was from, before he told us. SHE WON. !@#$% Actually he really does have the very RI GUY kind of qualitites. OK! sorry rambling off again. YEAH, SO I'M WORRIED BECAUSE I DON'T KNOW WHAT I WANT TO BE NEXT TIME! I've always thought LAW, but recently I've been thinking that I'm not cut out to be one. SO YEAH I'M LOST NOW. =.=
I apologise for the really long post today! Hope I didn't bore everyone? *winces* TOODLES THEN, before you all fall asleep! XD
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