Friday, September 29, 2006
It should be a happy day, I should be happy. RIGHT. And yet I'm not exactly feeling my best. No it's got nothing to do with my results, I've got everything I've wanted and more. Perhaps it's indirectly linked to results. It's difficult trying to be humble about it. When people ask for your marks, you can't possibly not answer them, though I would love to and pre-empt all these catastrophes that have inevitably ocurred. When you answer, you try to be humble and say that you didn't really do well and you end up passing off as insensitive. Either that, or you say that you've done well, and you sound as if you're showing off. WHAT THEN AM I SUPPOSED TO DO. It's a lose-lose situation. Perhaps it'll be much easier if all of us kept to ourselves and didn't ask for results in the first place. Maybe we're all being too frank with what we feel about our results, to the extent that it sounds like we're trying to put someone down, when in fact, it was never our intention to do so.
I think I'm just angry at myself for not possessing humility and inner peace to begin with - something that I've always yearned to have. Being secretive about things isn't going to make anything better, yet confrontation when it's the last few months that we're spending together isn't exactly the wisest idea ever. Well at least nothing was thrown at me today. I'm just sick and tired of it. The world is unfair, I know. I probably don't deserve whatever I got, but I did and I can't do anything about it, can I? All we can do at the moment is, comes to terms with it and
DO SOMETHING ABOUT IT. Say, how about we
GET OVER IT AND START WORKING FOR THE MAIN, MORE IMPORTANT OBJECTIVE? It's not too late to start a clean slate. And I thank Eugene for telling me that too. (: PEACE.
"The higher your authority, the more humble you have to be."
- Eugene, who got this from somewhere which he can't remember exactly. LOL.
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