Monday, November 27, 2006
I just looked through stuff from like SEC ONE TO SEC FOUR (which I'm about to discard) and MY GOSH IT BRINGS BACK SO MANY MEMORIES! I can't explain how much I'm grown over the past four years. AND AND AND I just found a present that my ex-best friend (? this isn't for me to decide) gave me like in SEC TWO for VALENTINE'S DAY, expressing how I'm her best pal in school and all. THAT REALLY MADE ME THINK: WHAT THE
HELL HAPPENED BETWEEN SEC TWO AND NOW? WHICH DEVIL MADE ME THE 'couldn't-care-less-about- anything-except-studies' KIND OF PERSON?
THEY WERE MY EVERYTHING AND NO ONE ELSE COULD AND CAN MAKE ME AS HAPPY AS THEM, BUT LOOK WHAT HAPPENED. I think I single-handedly ruined whatever we had. Well done Melissa, they've moved on without you. It's all because I never did put enough effort into maintaining the friendship. AND SUCH A HYPOCRITE I AM, WRITING ABOUT HOW I BELIEVE THAT
WE will always keep the friendships in IJ even after we've left. YEAH ACTUALLY I BELIEVE WE WILL. EVERYONE EXCEPT ME. It's come to a stage where I'm even AFRAID OF HER. Afraid that everything I do turns out to be something offending to her. This so isn't like me. I'm confident, not insecure! GREAT. It was partly because of her that I HARDLY approached the clique/talked to them. I KNOW DURING RETREAT EVERYTHING WAS FINE, LET BYGONES BE BYGONES RIGHT? SOMEHOW WE FORGAVE EACH OTHER. BUT I CAN'T FORGIVE MYSELF. FOR LETTING SUCH A WONDERFUL FRIENDSHIP BECOME HOW IT IS NOW. EVEN after being your friend for FOUR WONDERFUL years, I've NO PICTURE OF YOU AND ME. That says a lot, really it does. AND I WANT THE ONE WE TOOK AT PROM, NO MATTER HOW BAD/UGLY IT WAS. I know you won't read this, but it's better to let it out isn't it? You've changed so much in all facets it scares me. I like how you are now, really. BUT I never told you that. You've become stronger
Evelyn and I'm happy for you.
AND WITH THIS, I dedicate this song to you. IT WAS ONCE OUR SONG and yeah, I miss you. The lyrics are uncanningly apt here *laughs*
HILARY DUFF - COME CLEAN
Let's go back
Back to the beginning
Back to when the earth, the sun, the stars all aligned
'Cause perfect didn't feel so perfect
Trying to fit a square into a circle
Was a lie
I defy
[Chorus:]Let the rain fall down
And wake my dreams
Let it wash away
My sanity
'Cause I wanna feel the thunder
I wanna scream
Let the rain fall down
I'm coming clean, I'm coming clean
I'm shedding
Shedding every color
Trying to find a pigment of truth
Beneath my skin
'Cause different
Doesn't feel so different
And going out is better
Then always staying in
Feel the wind
I'm coming clean
Let the rain fall
Let the rain fall
I'm coming...
Let's go back
Back to the beginning
YEAH. LET'S GO BACK, BACK TO THE BEGINNING.
SUSHI FESTS WERE THE BEST. CORO NTUC HAD THE BEST SUSHI.
I whispered
at 3:30 PM
Saturday, November 25, 2006
(: Last night was GARDUATION NIGHT '06 and it was fabulous! I had simply so much fun and laughter to put into words. I just need to say MR CHAN is the funniest/best physics teacher! LOL I just teared so much from all the laughing!
So right, for those who have no idea about what happened yesterday, SIX PEOPLE were made to go upstage. They were supposed to dance according to the different music the DJ played. MR ARMSTRONG, MR CHAN, VICTORIA ANN LAI, ADELE GOH, 5N GIRL AND MICHELLE TEO WERE SABOTAGED TO PARTICPATE IN THIS. SO the participants were blindfolded and throughout the activity, the EMCEE quietly made each participant go back to their respective seats until finally MR CHAN was left on stage. POOR UNAWARE MR CHAN CONTINUED TO DANCE ACCORDING TO THE MUSIC. The best part was how the EMCEE imitated different voices of the other participants just so that MR CHAN wouldn't realise that the other participants weren't on stage any longer. IT WAS HILARIOUS! I'm quite sure MR CHAN knew he was the only one on stage but he just played along. How very sporting isn't it? I have to mention that MR AMSTRONG is an excellent dancer! AND VICTORIA was so very daring! The entire thing was interesting.
Well, the speech that VAL, AL and I made went rather well actually. (: AT least they desired effect of being inspiring was achieved? Some people actually came up to me to congratulate me and told me that anyway. thanks! The food for the night was average but the fish was GOOOD. YUM. As for MS IJ, (thank God Jieying went up instead. I would've died up there) WE LOST TO 4/1! (MAY I ADD AN 'AGAIN'?) Everytime we lose, we lose to 4/1. It's really not surprising anymore. We took many many pictures last night! And I'm very glad that we took a 4/2 pic and most importantly, a 2/1 picture! It was great seeing all my ex-classmates and being together with them again, EVEN IF it was just a few minutes. I must admit that EVERYONE looked fabulous last night. AND I PROUDLY ATTRIBUTE THIS TO THE FACT THAT IJ GIRLS DEFINITELY KNOW HOW TO DRESS UP.
I immensely enjoyed myself and WITHOUT A DOUBT, I'm going to miss IJ LOADS AND LOADS AND LOADS AND...you get the point. But like I said in my speech "DON'T CRY BECAUSE IT IS OVER, SMILE BECAUSE IT HAPPENED" What other way to end these excellent four years except to have a good laugh and enjoy each other's company once again? I am truly thankful that I came (went?) to IJ. I CANNOT FORSEE MYSELF IN ANY OTHER SCHOOL AND HAVING AS MUCH FUN, MEETING SUCH WONDERFUL PEOPLE. TEACHERS, FRIENDS, SENIORS. ONCE AGAIN I SAY, TO IJ! :D
ON A MORE DEPRESSING NOTE, I'M LEAVING FOR MALAYSIA TUESDAY NIGHT. I'M NOT HAPPY ABOUT THIS. WISH ME LUCK. I NEED IT. THREE WEEKS AWAY. PFFT. HOW FUN.
PS. I'm looking forward to COUNCIL'S SEC FOUR FAREWELL and I'm glad that the councillors had so much fun at camp. THAT'S THE WAY IT'S SUPPOSED TO BE. *grin* I'll miss everyone lots. I'll VISIT OFTEN!
I whispered
at 6:10 PM
Saturday, November 18, 2006
OMG YAY! IT'S EMANCIPATION, LIBERATION, FREEDOM! (: O's are over! (like finally?)
I went to VIVOCITY with SAM, VICTORIA, AUDREY, HUISHIAN AND QIAN QIAN today. Even though I only spent like less than an hour there and I only got to see two shops out of the I-don't-know-how-many shops there are, I'm pretty contented. Firstly, I actually asked my mum if I could go out with them for once, AND SHE AGREED! LIKE HOW SHOCKING IS THAT! Well, no matter how short the day out was, it was good fun. We spent the whole journey there talking about nonsense, and that's how I like it (: WE WENT TO CANDY EMPIRE (which seems rather small for it's majestic name actually. I was kinda expecting a lot more lol.) and we then ate at Kopitiam. Well, everyone else had dinner while all I had was some chicken pao =.= not that I'm on a diet or anything, cos I had dinner at home. Which explains why I had to leave so quickly.
Yeah anyway, I had quite a horrible ride home on the bus today. To begin with, I had to walk the distance of two bus stops before I could catch 963 which will take me directly home. (even though the bus arrived shortly after I reached the bus stop) THE LONG ARDUOUS JOURNEY IN THE CROWDED, STINKY BUS WAS HORRIBLE I TELL YOU! I probably spent the entire journey trying not to cover of nose and mouth. Seriously speaking, the people on board had REALLY BAD BODY ODOUR >.< At least I had a seat, or else I would've just collapsed on the spot I'm sure. I'm pretty sensitive to bad smells. On a certain point in the journey, I suddenly felt something crawling up my leg, I swear. I got such a shock I practically jerked up and started sweeping my legs frantically. Well that was over. THEN CAME THE GUY WHO SAT NEXT TO ME, DOZING OFF TILL HE WAS PRACTICALLY LYING ON MY SHOULDER. One, it was annoying and so very awkward. Two, it was rather hilarious though I was trying really hard not to start grinning to myself on the bus and convince all the passengers onboard that I'm far from being sane.
SOMETHING GOOD THAT HAPPENED DURING THE JOURNEY was that some guy that stood directly opposite me probably saw everything that was happening and kinda signalled me to wake the poor exhausted dude seated next to me. I actually thought he was very sweet! OK, so he most probably saw how annoyed I was through my thousands of expressions and frowns, not to mention my attempt to stifle my laughter everytime the sleeping dude's head edged closer to my shoulder. It really convinced me that Singapore does have nice people! Right, I won't talk about how I actually caught the nice guy staring at me a couple of times even after he alighted from the bus, or how I ACTUALLY SAW A COCKROACH ON THE FLOOR, TO MY UTTER DISMAY. Which totally means that whatever was crawling up my leg, was probably that same brown, disgusting pest that was inching it's way through the bus. After a long 45 minutes that seemed like eons to me, I reached home at 7.20pm. Much later than the time my mum asked me to reach home by, but since she didn't say anything I shan't complain. -grin.
OH YEAH OH YEAH! I bought like two out of four volumes of FULLMETAL ALCHEMIST, THE VCD to watch! YESSSS. ANIME GALORE! I'm not thinking about how I spent $54 on that alone at all, because that makes me feel guilty. But it's all worth it! the dvd costs $40 per volume! I initially assumed that it cost $40 or $50 for the whole set. How very disappointed I was when I realised that I couldn't afford buying $40X3=$120. OMG IS RIGHT. SO I settled for second best, which is nothing less - THE VCD VERSION! :D YAY SO MY BROTHER AND I WATCHED FOUR EPISODES TONIGHT. OK FINE, I'VE WATCHED THE ENTIRE SERIES, BUT NOTHING BEATS OWNING IT. XD
OK MOST DEPRESSING TOPIC OF THE DAY: HISTORY. =.= DID I MENTION HOW WEIRD IT WAS HAVING THREE (instead of four) SOURCES, AND HOW THEY DIDN'T HELP YOU WITH CROSS REFERENCING?! So I had to rely on contextual knowlede, which I highly doubt is enough, considering the fact that I didn't study CHINA UNDER MAO which happily came out for SBQ. I think I misintepreted the sources also! HOWWWW. BYE BYE A1 FOR HISTORY? I HOPE NOT! I NEEEED IT! At least the SEQ wasn't THAT bad. As predicted, CHAPTER ONE CAME OUT! YAYNESS. But they asked WHY THE LEAGUE OF NATIONS WAS FORMED. OMG HELLO, my textbook has only 1 page of information on that? ZZ. SO I totally bullcrapped my way through. How very surprising. (NOTE SARCASM) The essay only ended up being slightly more than ONE PAGE LONG, and my handwriting was humongous (as usual). YAY ME. BUT I LOVEEED PART B! 'THE TREATY OF VERSAILLES WAS A FAILURE. TO WHAT EXTENT IS THIS STATEMENT TRUE?' or something like that. ANYWAY it was a pleasure writing it (: I wrote erm, 2 over pages.
AND WITH THAT, I shall end my excruciatingly long post for today, and hit the sack. It's slightly past one here. (sorry MARIE, I'VE LOST THE BET/CHALLENGE TO SLEEP EARLY ONCE AGAIN) HEY ANYWAY, MARIE TAN XUE LING I WAS DEAD SERIOUS WHEN I SAID I WANTED YOUR BIOLOGY TEXTBOOK. I have a secret interest in BIO. SSHHH. :D I STILL REGRET NOT TAKING IT. (except when I heard that BIO AND GEOG 2 WAS SCHEDULED ON THE SAME DAY FOR O'S. I WAS ACTUALLY RELIEVED I DIDN'T TAKE IT!!)
<3!
I whispered
at 12:42 AM
Tuesday, November 14, 2006
HEY (: I know it's in the midst of O levels and I'm not supposed to be using the computer at all, but I thought my blog was getting rather DEAD. SO HERE I AM! :D
Anyway, O's will be over is just 3 days and I'm psyched about it! Here's the schedul for the next three days, just in case anyone's interested lol (though I highly doubt that?)
WEDNESDAY:-
8-9am Physics paper 1
9.30-11.15am Physics Paper 2
4.30-5.45pm Geography paper 1 (RAHHHH so late!)
Thursday:-
9-11am Amath paper 2
2-3pm Chemistry paper 1
3.30-5.15pm Chemistry paper 2
FRIDAY:-
2.30-4pm HISTORY ELECTIVE. WOOHOO LAST ONE! (:
YEAH, and that'll be it! Amath today was surprisingly all right! HAPPY MELISSA. I hope all the rest of the MATH AND SCIENCE PAPERS will be around that standard? Hee. Ok I've officially got about 5 hours to cram 25 chapters worth of physics stuff and yeah GEOG STUFF FOR PAPER ONE! *tears hair out* Makes everyone wonder what I'm doing here eh? LOL ahh I think I'll be missing GOONG today. Too much to study. I can't wait for next week. Period. It's gonna be fun! -Grin. TOODLE~
I whispered
at 6:11 PM
Monday, November 06, 2006
HO HO. MRS LEE-TAN SURE CAN SPOT! (: YES, I won't be seeing things to do with SS for a rather long time now. -grins. It's goodbye to sustaining singapore's development in the 21st century; merger and separation and what-not! SAY HELLO TO RIVERS, COASTS, AGRICULTURE, WEATHER AND CLIMATE, AND NATURAL VEGETATION. AND OH YEAH, ENGLISH VOCABULARY INFILTRATION. I guess my 'SPEAK PROFOUND ENGLISH CAMPAIGN' turned out to be a flop. =.= oh well. JUST GOTTA CRAM MORE VOCAB FOR THE WHOLE OF TOMORROW and hope everything'll be fine and dandy.
I THINK CAMBRIDGE MADE OUR PAPERS MORE DIFFICULT AS COMPARED TO THE PAST YEARS'. *stares at emath paper one* "IS THIS THE SAME PAPER THAT I COULD FINISH IN 1 HOUR AT HOME, WHILE I TOOK 1HOUR30MINUTES FOR O'S??!!" THAT explains pretty much. Better get myself geared up and mentally prepared for a scare for the following papers, especially EMATH PAPER TWO AND AMATH (OMG) I still wanna see many slim figures! (hint: it's a ONE)
DID I MENTION HOW HAPPY I WAS TO SEE MERGER AND SEPARATION FOR SEQ? :D
IT'S GONNA BE OVER IN A JIFFY!(I hope.)
I whispered
at 10:00 PM
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