Monday, November 27, 2006
I just looked through stuff from like SEC ONE TO SEC FOUR (which I'm about to discard) and MY GOSH IT BRINGS BACK SO MANY MEMORIES! I can't explain how much I'm grown over the past four years. AND AND AND I just found a present that my ex-best friend (? this isn't for me to decide) gave me like in SEC TWO for VALENTINE'S DAY, expressing how I'm her best pal in school and all. THAT REALLY MADE ME THINK: WHAT THE
HELL HAPPENED BETWEEN SEC TWO AND NOW? WHICH DEVIL MADE ME THE 'couldn't-care-less-about- anything-except-studies' KIND OF PERSON?
THEY WERE MY EVERYTHING AND NO ONE ELSE COULD AND CAN MAKE ME AS HAPPY AS THEM, BUT LOOK WHAT HAPPENED. I think I single-handedly ruined whatever we had. Well done Melissa, they've moved on without you. It's all because I never did put enough effort into maintaining the friendship. AND SUCH A HYPOCRITE I AM, WRITING ABOUT HOW I BELIEVE THAT
WE will always keep the friendships in IJ even after we've left. YEAH ACTUALLY I BELIEVE WE WILL. EVERYONE EXCEPT ME. It's come to a stage where I'm even AFRAID OF HER. Afraid that everything I do turns out to be something offending to her. This so isn't like me. I'm confident, not insecure! GREAT. It was partly because of her that I HARDLY approached the clique/talked to them. I KNOW DURING RETREAT EVERYTHING WAS FINE, LET BYGONES BE BYGONES RIGHT? SOMEHOW WE FORGAVE EACH OTHER. BUT I CAN'T FORGIVE MYSELF. FOR LETTING SUCH A WONDERFUL FRIENDSHIP BECOME HOW IT IS NOW. EVEN after being your friend for FOUR WONDERFUL years, I've NO PICTURE OF YOU AND ME. That says a lot, really it does. AND I WANT THE ONE WE TOOK AT PROM, NO MATTER HOW BAD/UGLY IT WAS. I know you won't read this, but it's better to let it out isn't it? You've changed so much in all facets it scares me. I like how you are now, really. BUT I never told you that. You've become stronger
Evelyn and I'm happy for you.
AND WITH THIS, I dedicate this song to you. IT WAS ONCE OUR SONG and yeah, I miss you. The lyrics are uncanningly apt here *laughs*
HILARY DUFF - COME CLEAN
Let's go back
Back to the beginning
Back to when the earth, the sun, the stars all aligned
'Cause perfect didn't feel so perfect
Trying to fit a square into a circle
Was a lie
I defy
[Chorus:]Let the rain fall down
And wake my dreams
Let it wash away
My sanity
'Cause I wanna feel the thunder
I wanna scream
Let the rain fall down
I'm coming clean, I'm coming clean
I'm shedding
Shedding every color
Trying to find a pigment of truth
Beneath my skin
'Cause different
Doesn't feel so different
And going out is better
Then always staying in
Feel the wind
I'm coming clean
Let the rain fall
Let the rain fall
I'm coming...
Let's go back
Back to the beginning
YEAH. LET'S GO BACK, BACK TO THE BEGINNING.
SUSHI FESTS WERE THE BEST. CORO NTUC HAD THE BEST SUSHI.
I whispered
at 3:30 PM
ABOUT ME!
MELISSALAW
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RED HOUSE!
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BUCKLE BUCKLEY - CH'NOVO
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Raffles track and field - SPRINTS!
<3
*netball!!
*IJ TP! <333
*Japanese Anime
*Manga
*SHOPPING!!
*my friends <33
I WISH I WISH...
*BE A BETTER PERSON/FRIEND
*GET CLOSER TO GOD (:
*REVAMP MY WARDROBE!
