Sunday, April 29, 2007
HAPPY BIRTHDAY EUNICE TANDIONO! (: OMG I MISS YOU LOADS.
THANKS FOR FOUR YEARS OF WONDERFUL FUN, LAUGHS AND HEART TO HEARTS! <3 HOPE I'LL BE ABLE TO SEE YOU SOON AND CATCH UP! OMG YOU'RE OF LEGAL DRINKING AGE NOW! *JEALOUS* HAHAHA, LOVES TO YOU! ALL THE BEST!
I whispered
at 11:16 PM
i wonder who this blog belongs to... HMMMM!!! HELLO!! IM JUST SOME RANDOM PERSON INVADING THIS BLOG DONT MIND ME!!! :D what to say about MELISSA LAW SHUEH LI... other than the fact that she is smarter than me hmmmm lol i guess she can be quite dumb at times WAKAKAKAX LOL! see you soon in school MELISSA LAW!! O.o wait i spelt that wrongly.. haha WE ALL KNOW WHY!! :D see you in school!!
LOTS OF LOVE
SOME RANDOM PERSON
Wounds take time to heal.. but the scar u left on me can't heal with time..
I whispered
at 7:34 PM
Saturday, April 28, 2007
Yay yay! My life is full of joy and love! I tell you, i have the best BFS around man! Today, my 2 BFS went out to study and we laugh like nobody's business! Overall it was fun! I tried this yucky salad at coffee bean.. Eeeeeee i tell you! It's just plain yucky! We manage to finish up econs even though i did like only the introduction because i was on the phone with a friend :) Sigh if only life was so much simpler... Oh well, we just have to pray and hope for the best right? Anyway * I just love to Digress hee hee* I got sent home again YAY! :) I tell u i'm just so lucky to have such great friends like elaine, yilin and julian who are always there for me when i need them. THANKS! Meli loves u all many many! ARGH! I just hope next week will be better than this week, though it's quite ungrateful of me to ask for more when i already have what i want in life :)
I wish you were here so that i could hold your hand, I wish you were here so that i could be in your arms, I wish you were here so that i could just be with you... <3
I whispered
at 8:19 PM
Friday, April 27, 2007
OMG TGIF! :D Just to sum up the entire week...
1. I didn't fail chem mock SPA! AHMAGAWD, it's not excellent at all. I scraped it, but i'm glad i didn't fail!
2. I didn't train this entire week cause it rained. Elaine scolded me ):
3. ME: Elaine, don't you think kicking stuff around is fun?
ELAINE: NO
ME: WHY?
PERSON A: Cause it's dumb.
ME: BUT GUYS KICK STUFF AROUND ALL THE TIME! (ESP SINCE THEY HAVE OBSESSION WITH SOCCER BALLS) *stops myself short since i realised i was standing in the midst of all boys school RI and that i was rather loud*
4. I finally managed to set foot into VELOCITY AT NOVENA SQUARE! But i hardly spent much time there. MET LYNETTE FOO! Nice to see her again (:
5. Played handball with the girls of 7B and the other class (can't remember what class they're from), as well as Hiok and Julian. I TELL YOU, THE 7B GIRLS+ HIOK WON! : D boys can be annoying/dumb. HAHAHA I KID. They made us run so much. *scowls* BOO.
That's basically the interesting stuff that happened this week.
UP NEXT WEEK: CHEM SPA! SEA HISTORY ASSIGNMENT!
BOOOO, SAVE ME ): I think I must've been a feminist in my past life. HUR HUR.
YAY TO THE WORLD FOR EXCELLENT ANGELIC FRIENDS! <3
I whispered
at 11:51 PM
Saturday, April 21, 2007
LOL I've been ordered to write something happy to express and prove that i'm feeling much better.
FIRSTLY, I would like to thank all those who made me feel better. GOSH, I've got wonderful friends. How many times have they made my day already! (:
SECONDLY, here's my random list of why YOU are lucky to have me as your gf:
1. i am a dumb blonde, i boost your ego lol
2. i'm retarded, my actions will always make you laugh
3. i'm gullible and i'll always fall for your trap. then you can laugh again.
4. we're so similar, whatever you like i'll most probably like it too (makes buying presents a lot easier yes?)
5. i laugh at everything, it's easy to cheer me up
6. i definitely won't cheat on you.
7. i'm a good listener. i love listening to people's problems.
8. just because i love you THAT much (:
9. because i know what you're gonna say, before you say it. or i'll say it exactly at the same time you do.
10. cause no matter what you do, i'll still love you. (yes i'm that dumb)
i can't think of anymore though i can think of plenty of negative reasons. HA. it took me how long just to type this post out lol.
THIRDLY I wanna thank more people!
Augustine Law for being retarded and doing stupid things just to make me feel better, and offering to wallop whoever it was that made me sad. ( so sweet of this 9 year old yes?) and also for telling the adults that i was crying. GOODNESS, at that moment i wanted to kill him. BUT OTHERWISE NO ONE WOULD'VE COMFORTED ME AND MADE ME FEEL LOVED <3.
My grandmother for reminding me how important it is to have faith and remember that the LORD is always there for me. I realise this is what i get for drifting away from God. ): TIME TO REBOND WITH GOD! SHE's SO sweet all the time, from cooking my favourite food, to boiling sweet potato soup with lots of sago for me when she knew i had a sore throat to boiling bird's nest for me cause i have a weak immune system.
MY MUMMY-even though she didn't comfort me, she wanted to know if i needed help with schoolwork and stuff like that. (: and for the times that she's just so silly and funny. those are the times when i forget that she's the strict mum that i'm so scared of everytime and erm sometimes ruins my life. those are the times i wish would continue till forever, where she doesn't have to scold me and we don't have to have unpleasant things to be angry about.
I whispered
at 8:02 PM
it's one of those days when you're crying but you don't know why. tears just keep falling.
it's one of those days when you think everything is your fault and you feel really horrible.
it's one of those days when you think of past memories.
it's one of those days when not knowing how to do your math pisses you off even more.
i'm changing and i'm scared. i don't want to change cause it'll affect so many things in my life. my priorities are changing. Yet if i don't, it'll make you suffer. it'll compromise our time together. i know being upset now is also making YOU suffer, but at this moment i can't seem to make myself try and pretend that everything's all right. my mum won't comfort me lol. as usual, she scolds me. HAHA, big surprise.
sometimes knowing that you love that person isn't enough.
I whispered
at 5:36 PM
Friday, April 20, 2007
HA, forget 30 points. I screwed it up. If I don't retake 2.4, i'll have 27 points. my muscles were still aching like shit from track and gymming session on tuesday, so i died. only thing i'm happy with is my SBJ. highest in class! 205cm. Not excellent but my best so far. DAMN IPU, my arms were still aching so i did 17 and A is 18. BLOODY HELL. SIGH 27 points to me is SICK SHIT. DAMN IT, i've been screwing up everything this entire week. I nearly cried today, IN SCHOOL. I never do that unless completely necessary, COME ON I didn't even cry when i didn't get into council. Doing badly academically affects me a whole lot.
To top it all off, I found out stuff this week which i'm SO not supposed to know. And i didn't really wanna know anyway. GREAT WEEK I TELL YOU. But that wasn't so bad i guess. Ultimately, doing badly in school matters that much more.
My brain feels like it's been tampered with. HAHA i don't know what the hell goes through my head now. I can't think, i can't absorb, it's freaking annoying especially when i really need it to be in optimum working condition now.
I went raffles city just now, just because i felt like it. JUST BECAUSE i needed to get away from some stuff. LIKE WORK. RALPH LAUREN IS THE LOVE. I LOVE THE CLOTHES THERE. Pity i don't come from a rich family. it'll be excellent to own clothes from there <3
Then I came home and was supposed to talk to someone who happened to fall asleep ): sigh. EAT CORNFLAKES AND FALL ASLEEP. I GOTTA TELL ELAINE THAT. wait, she already knows.
ARGH CRAP, i hope next week will be so much better. If this goes on, i don't know how much longer i can keep my fake smile. HA, i just remembered yet again what a certain someone told me in the past bout this. GREAT.
I whispered
at 11:44 PM
Thursday, April 19, 2007
STUPID 2.4
STUPID ECONS LECTURE TEST
STUPID CHEM MOCK SPA
STUPID NAFPA FIVE ITEMS TOMORROW. I'D BETTER GET 25 POINTS. AT LEAST CAN GET 28 IN TOTAL. OR I COULD RETAKE 2.4 AND GET MY WELL DESERVED 30 POINTS.
I'M SO SCREWED I TELL YOU. I DON'T KNOW WTH I'M DOING WITH MY LIFE NOW. MY PRIORITIES HAVE GONE COMPLETELY HAYWIRE. I CAN'T COPE I REALLY CAN'T. I'VE NOT READ MY LECTURE NOTES SINCE FOREVER, I'M DOING BADLY AT EVERY SINGLE TEST, ESPECIALLY CHEM. SHIT I UNDERSTAND MY STUFF BUT WHY CAN'T I DO WELL! ):
I whispered
at 10:14 PM
Thursday, April 12, 2007
BEING SICK SUCKS ): PLEASE PRAY FOR MELISSA SO THAT SHE WON'T FLUNK HER NAPFA SINCE SHE'S NOT TRAINED/DONE ANY PHYSICAL ACTIVITY THIS ENTIRE WEEK, PLUS LIKE BEING SICK MAKES HER ALL THE MORE UNFIT. SIGH. ACTUALLY I STILL WANNA GET A FOR EVERYTHING. ARGH. 30 POINTS, MEL!
I missed two days of school completely due to my sickness. Had a fever on sunday followed by continued nausea that carries on until today. Now it's officially my indicator of how tired i am. I get it when i'm super exhausted or when it's time to sleep. HAHA FUNNY RIGHT. That's the only thing that deters me from sleeping late now. Cause the moment i sleep later than one, i get it real bad in the morn. YUCK, imagine wanting to throw up every morning.
There's econs lecture test next tuesday and it's an essay test. Hope i don't fail it. Then PI is also due on friday next week. Then the week after that is packed with SEA history presentation for ELAINE AND I; GP essay test. THEN WEEK 7 there's SPA AND MATH TUTORIAL TEST. SHEESH. I think this list of tests will continue to go on all the way till the start of june holidays. TIME IS ZOOMING PAST. Before we know it, it'll be CTs then promos. It's really scary >.< I'm seriously not doing how much I want to/should be doing in order to get anything near a decent grade at promos. I signed up for H3 history and I've just waiting for RJ's approval or is it NUS'? ANYHOO, I'll need at least a grade B for history plus 2H2 passes and one H1 pass i think. NOT entirely sure. I HOPE I GET MORE THAN THAT. That is really the bare minimum, which i've never aimed to get. It's always a lot more.
I shall go shower now. I'm sick and i'm showering so late. My mum's gonna kill me lol.
Each time i see you, it completes my heart.
I whispered
at 9:18 PM
Friday, April 06, 2007
OK whatever i said in the previous post regarding the comment issue, has been clarified and resolved. (: mel is a happy girl once more. YAY it feels really good to clear things up. THAT MATTER IS NOW BEHIND US. :D HAPPY EASTER EVERYONE!
MAY THE GOOD GOD BLESS YOU AND YOUR FAMILIES.
I whispered
at 11:16 PM
I MISS IJ ): I want all our masses and morning hymns and my friends and teachers and ARGH.
I saw Jess last saturday while I was at J8. She was at MOS with her classmates after 2.4 ARGH I miss all girls' outing like we used to have in IJ all the time! SO ANYWAY, i gave her a GIGANTIC BEAR HUG AND I BET PEOPLE THOUGHT WE WERE MAD. I THINK I SCARED THE PEOPLE AT MOS BY SHOUTING 'JESSICA TEO!' OOPS. did a short catch up with her and TADA! we giggled as usual. HEE. only she and I know what we were giggling about. :D
I didn't get into council, but I just wanted to thank many many people for comforting me, for all the hugs and sweet words, for all the fun times i had while campaigning. ESPECIALLY the days/hours i spent in school on SATURDAY AND SUNDAY. It's actually the first time i had to do that. it really felt cool.
MRS CHIA is the best i tell you. She actually talked to me and made me feel so much better. There were so many times while people were comforting me and i wanted to cry, but i seriously held my tears back. don't ask me why, I just didn't want to cry and yeah i succeeded in doing so. OK SPECIAL thanks go out to ELAINE AND JULIAN, who spent the whole of Tuesday and Wednesday making sure that I was feeling ok. We even left econs aside to go j8 and make me happy. (:
There were so many things I could've done if i had gotten into council that i was hoping would really be like that of IJ's. Knowing that I can't experience that same thing really sucks, and I miss IJ all the more that way. When i was interviewed I told them i was hoping to find the same thing in RJ's students' council. ): Actually since MRS CHIA interviewed me as well, and for her to say that she really wanted me to get in, is really flattering. BUT NEVER MIND, i should totally get over this now. at least i have more time for studies and track. TRAIN HARD AND REPRESENT RJ, MELISSA.
This week was kinda screwed up actually. ECONS TEST (which i undoubtedly screwed up again), EMOTIONAL INSTABILITIES ETC ETC ETC. I got so mentally tired. I actually slept rather early this entire week. The latest i slept was 1.30, the earliest at 11.00! SUCH AN ACHIEVEMENT RIGHT? But i felt exhausted all the same and slept the moment i came home from a movie with my parents at vivocity's GV yesterday, which was at 12.
On a more serious note, people still ask me why I'm so nice to ____. I guess it's just me. I couldn't give them an answer, not now not ever.
Another shocker of the week: my relatively good friend of four years actually spoke ill of me and i got wind of it. EXCUSE ME, please think before you decide to make such a stupid/baseless/unappreciated comment, thank you. You knew me for four years and yet you think that lowly of me? It's quite heartbreaking. You weren't that close to me i know, so if you're not sure what I'm like, please keep your mouth shut. If you had said that in front of a whole room of MY FRIENDS, they'll know for themselves if you're speaking the truth. BUT IN FRONT OF SOMEONE WHO JUST GOT TO KNOW ME AND HARDLY AT THAT? You're stirring up a whole lot of trouble and screwing up people's lives, thank you. DID YOU THINK THAT I WOULDN'T KNOW? COME ON. I seriously expected a lot more from you. I've always been proud of who you are, always defending you in front of people who dislike you and I've been stabbed in the back just like that. You're lucky I'm still hoping that whatever you did wasn't intentional and I still decide to forget this matter. You're lucky i'm not in your school. Cause there are quite a few people who wish to screw your life up RIGHT NOW. ARGH why do i even bother.
Should I take H3 history/econs? :|
I whispered
at 11:58 AM
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