What i see, others will never get to see :D
Wednesday, May 30, 2007
I love the way u smile, I love the way u make me laugh, I love the way u are, I love your hugs, I love your smarts, I love your eyes, I love your fragrant hair, I love your cheeky cheeks, I love your comments, I love everything about u, but most of all, I just love u. :DI see it all around me.
Some people have it,
others just wish they had it.
I see it all around me.
When u are with me,
and even when u are away.
I see it all around me.
During our darkest moments,
and even in our happiest times.
I see it all around me.
When u shed tears of joy,
to the times when u are most depressed.
I see it all around me.
Its something so valuable,
yet so fragile.
I see it all around me.
It’s something that makes u high,
and something that makes u low.
I see it all around me.
It grows on some people,
it even grows on me.
I see it all around me.
Cause what I see,
I think u can see too.
I see it all around me,
what do I see u ask?
I see love.<3
HAVE A GREAT TRIP! LOTS OF LOVE! FROM, JAM! <3
I whispered
at 11:54 PM
HELLO! (: I'M LEAVING FOR MALAYSIA IN BOUT ONE HOUR'S TIME SO I SHALL BLOG ABOUT YESTERDAY AND TODAY.
TUESDAY
I WAS SUPPOSED TO MEET THE DUMB BOY AT ORCHARD, BUT WE ENDED UP ON THE SAME TRAIN, HE WAS COMING FROM NOVENA, AND I FROM NEWTON. SO I WAS SHOCKED/SURPRISED WHEN I SAW HIM IN THE SAME CARRIAGE. *JAW DROP* IMAGINE THAT, CAUSE MY JAW REALLY DROPPED. BUT I KINAD KNEW IT WOULD HAPPEN. THINGS LIKE THAT ALWAYS HAPPEN WHEN IT COMES TO THE BOTH OF US. HIS STUPID SIGNATURE BAG GAVE HIS SURPRISE AWAY SERIOUSLY. AS USUAL, HE SPOTTED ME SO HE GOT OUT OF THE TRAIN AND WALKED INTO THE CARRIAGE THAT I GOT INTO, ALL IN A MATTER OF SECONDS. (: I SAW THE REFLECTION OF HIS BAG, TURNED AND SAW HIM. HAHA IT WAS SUCH A PLEASANT SURPRISE.
WE GOT TO SHAW, GOT TICKETS, HAD LUNCH AND SLACKED AROUND FOR A WHILE, THEN I WATCHED PIRATES WITH THE DUMB BOY! SUBSEQUENTLY I WENT TO BUY MY GRANDMOTHER'S BIRTHDAY PRESENT. WALKED AROUND QUITE AIMLESSLY FOR SOME TIME BEFORE I GOT HER A JEWELLERY BOX FOR ALL HER JEWELLERY, COMPLETE WITH A MIRROR, IN THE END. SSSHH, DON'T TELL HER. :X DAY AFTER IS HER BIRTHDAY. THEN HE CABBED TO FARRER COURT WHILE I GOT A LIFT TO NEWTON MRT AND I GOT HOME. ALONE. ):
TODAY
I WENT BACK TO SCHOOL TO HAND IN MY TRACK FORM. SINCE NO ONE WAS THERE, I WAS ASKED TO PUT IT INTO VANIA'S LOCKER. OH WELL SO I SAW THE IJ RMUN-ERS, ESPECIALLY DORALYN, SARAH NAT, GABBY. PITY I DIDN'T SEE YIFEN. THEN I WENT OFF TO BISHAN TO MEET HIM AFTER HIS MATCH AT KALLANG. YES HE WON. (: THEN WE HEADED OFF THE CITY HALL. ATE AT NEW YORK NEW YORK, AND THEN WALKED AROUND FOR A BIT (INTO THE VIDEO STORE AND STARTED COMPARING WHAT WE'VE WATCHED AND EVERYTHING) HAHA THE LAST TIME WE WERE AT CITYLINK/SUNTEC WE STARTED COMPARING WHICH ARTISTS/CDs WE'VE HEARD AND EVERYTHING AT HMV. HOW FUNNY. (: A FUN-FILLED DAY, FULL OF LAUGHTER AS USUAL. THEN I GOT SENT HOME. WELL THE BUS RIDE WAS PRETTY FUNNY/WEIRD.
1. THERE WAS A 'SLIGHTLY' MENTALLY UNSTABLE MAN WHO STARTED SHOUTING AND TALKING TO HIMSELF. CONVINCED MYSELF THAT HEARTBREAK CAN EQUALS MENTAL ILLNESS. HE WAS TALKING BOUT HIS WIFE NOT LOVING HIM OR SOMETHING LIKE THAT. SAD CASE. BUT I SWEAR HE WAS SO SCARY WHEN HE GOT DOWN THE BUS AND STARTED SHOUTING AT NO ONE. EITHER HE'S GOT AN IMAGINARY FRIEND OR HE'S JUST UNAWARE OF WHAT HE'S DOING. EEKS.
2. I MET MY PRIMARY SCHOOL CHINESE TEACHER! XU LAO SHI WHO TAUGHT ME WHEN I WAS 8 OR 9. OMG I TELL YOU. SHE RECOGNISES ME. SHE THOUGHT I LOOKED VERY FAMILIAR SO SHE SMILED AT ME. THEN SHE LATER ASKED ME BOUT THE MADMAN SO I CALLED HER LAOSHI. SHE ASKED HOW IW AS AND ALL THAT. FOUND OUT THAT SHE NOW TEACHES AT SCGS! WOW.
3. MADMAN NUMBER TWO. SMILES TO HIMSELF AND WAVES AT EVERY PERSON HE SEES OUTSIDE THE BUS WINDOW. >.< I KEPT STARING AND GOT TOLD OFF FOR DOING SO BY..YOU KNOW WHO.
4. THE BUS WAS SCREWED UP. THIS 171 BUS IS SERIOUSLY RELAPSE. TWO MADMANS AND A SCREWED UP TYRE. -.- HELP ME. IT WAS MAKING SUCH A DIN CAUSE I THINK THE TYRE WAS SLIGHTLY FLAT OR SOMETHING. LAUGH AT THIS AMAZING BUS JOURNEY HOME PLEASE.
5. WHEN WE FINALLY GOT OFF THE BUS, THERE WAS A SLIGHT JAM AND A WHOLE LOT OF EMAS RECEOVERY TOLL VEHICLES, POLICEMEN, WORKERS AND TRAFFIC POLICE. DOTS IS THE RIGHT THING TO SAY NOW. THERE WAS A LORRY WHO LEFTA TRAIL OF SCRAP METAL BEHIND. =.= TODAY JUST HAD TO BE SO EVENTFUL CAN.
AND GUESS WHAT, THE DAY ISN'T EVEN OVER YET. WELL IN TEN MINUTES' TIME IT WILL. BUT I LOVE THIS BOY TO THE CORE. I CAN'T BELIEVE HOW MUCH I LAUGH EVERYTIME I'M WITH HIM. AND YOU KNOW WHAT, I'M GOING TO MISS HIM. EVEN IF IT'S FOR THREE/FOUR DAYS. IT'S MORE THAN ENOUGH. I CAN'T MESSAGE/CALL TO HEAR HIS VOICE OR WHATEVER CAUSE MY MUMMY WILL KILL ME WHEN SHE SEES THE BILL. (IT'S ALREADY GONNA EXCEED AS IT IS :x) I'M REALLY GLAD THAT I'VE GOTTEN TO KNOW HIM AND THE REST OF MY CLASSMATES/FRIENDS. THEY REALLY PUT THE CHERRY ON THE CAKE (OR WHATEVER IT IS) AND THIS TIME THERE'S NO JACK SPARROW TO STEP ON IT. (SORRY INSIDE 'JOKE') I HOPE THAT THINGS WILL GET BETTER AND THAT TIME WILL SOLVE THE PROBLEM. THINGS WILL WORK OUT AND WE'LL STAY TOGETHER. <3 HAVE FUN DURING THESE THREE DAYS AND ALL THE BEST FOR YOUR MATCHES! (: PLAY WELL AND REMEMBER THAT I'M WITH YOU ALWAYS, IN YOUR HEART, MIND AND IN SPIRIT.
TO MY DARLING FRIENDS, HAVE FUN GIRLS! (: SUDY HARD AND TO SSMO, PLEASE ARRANGE OUTING/TANNING SESSION AT SENTOSA SOON. I'LL EMAIL YOU GIRLS SOON! STUDY HARD FOR CHINESE O'S ESPECIALLY AND FOR PRELIMS TOO! <3 TO YOU THREE! HOPE TO SEE YOU SOON! CONTINUE EMAILING AND UPDATE ME. SORRY I'VE BEEN MIA AND NOT REPLYING EMAILS. YIKES, WORK + CCA CAN REALLY KILL.
OKIE FOLKS, IT'S OFF TO BORING MALAYSIA FOR ME! TOODLE NOODLES! :D
I whispered
at 11:22 PM
Sunday, May 27, 2007
Hello I is back from outer space! HAHAHAHA as i promised, i shall update this really extra long post today of all the happening things that have happened! (:
1. OK back to Elaine's party, 19MAY.
I had lots of fun camwhoring with my darling friends (: While the guys, nicole and elaine were watching soccer or camwhoring, which ever they were doing, I even had a really nice walk with him and it was perfect it every way, the wind the stars the atmosphere. ELAINE GOT DUNKED INTO THE SEA AND HAD CHOCOLATE SMEARED ALL OVER HER FACE! >.< WOULDN'T WANNA BE HER. Her brother's the mastermind, he's so funny I tell you (very much unlike his sister hahaha I kid I kid). OH OH OH, and I played HIS SPORT! LOL it's really fun, pity I didn't pick it up a lot earlier or I might've met him earlier. BUT I highly doubt that since my standards wouldn't be anywhere near his current, though he thinks otherwise -.- "if you trained really hard, you would"
he says. Come to think of it, I actually spent 12+ hours with him that day, from 1.30pm to 1.30am! WOWZERS!
2. GP common test. Thought that the essay was something I was pretty comfortable with, so I'm less worried for that, however the comprehension came and I'm quite sure I won't do well for that. Cause 1. it's difficult, 2. I didn't finish the vocabulary section and some other question so that's like 7 marks GONE GONE GONE! *cries* so after that I headed down to Kallang for...
3. TENNIS FINALS! Boys played against ACS (IB) while the girls played a hard fought match against HCJC >.< By the time Elaine and I got there the boys had finished playing with a score of 3-2 while we only managed to watch the last doubles match, which was played by shiyan and jinwei. SO anyway they fought really hard and made a comeback till they won with a score of 6-4, making RJ's score for the girls 3-2 as well. THAT WAS THE DECIDING MATCH, glad that I managed to catch it! (: I waited till 7 for him then we cabbed back. The cab fare was like ouch can. Thanks for paying dear, it's all these little things you do that really touch me!
4. In total, Raffles has won 9 gold medals in two days, which means we've won 9 out of 10 finals in three days (: Rugby, double badminton, double tennis, netball, soccer, bowling boys (or was it girls?), and hockey. I managed to catch the tennis finals, a little of badminton finals and that's it. I badly wanted to watch my fellow team mates play HCI for netball, but stupid GP common test didn't allow me to do so. Apparently it was a really exciting match, pity I couldn't see it ): Oh and because something cropped up, I couldn't catch AMANDA SOH play during badminton finals! I felt soooo bad I tell you, by the time I got back her match was over, so the girls won with an astounding score of 5-0 while the boys, 3-0. Netballers won with a score of 53-42 YAY for them, their hard work has definitely paid off.
5. I was at my uncle's house this weekend and guess what! (: HE GOT ME MY iPOD! *grins widely* yay it's so sexy I tell you! BUT AH, my lousy computer is not having enough space to download ipod and the third party floola software i is wanting to download. SHEESH THIS IS WHY I NEED A LAPTOP. OH my ipod doesn't come with a charger simply cause USB 2.0 ports have power so I plug it into the computer and it charges o.O I"m just so amazed. LOL I sound like some country bumpkin, me is not liking that!
ANYWAY I went for a tan at SICC today! And I'm sunburnt AGAIN, I'm so easily tanned/burnt. I need to go shopping soon to get my ipod accessories and get my grandmother's birthday present as well as my uncle's! HIS BIRTHDAY PARTY IS AT BUTTER FACTORY. o.O EEKS oral tomorrow afternoon and then I've got training till what six or seven. OH track camp is next monday and my family's going to malaysia to celebrate my grandmother's birthday from thursday to saturday/sunday so I won't be in Singapore.
Sorry YL and elaine for postponing our girls' day out. ): I shall quickly find another date girls! Oh I slept at 5 on the 20th rushing international history assignment, I hope I did it well enough. Did I mention that the next day during chem lecture while I was ORDERED TO SLEEP BY MANY (cause they all found out I slept at five), HE copied very comprehensive chem notes for me? (: I was so touched, I wanted to give him a hug there and then, but oh wells school is school! : | <3 to him for always being there for me. (:
I miss him. It's gonna be weird not seeing him everyday in school during this holiday. AND OMG I FORGOT TO MENTION, doubles match today 6-1,6-1. 45 minutes game hee, I'm proud of you dear. <3 Hmm I REALLY SHOULD GO DOWN AND WATCH YOU PLAY ONE DAY. WATCH OUT. I MEAN, DON'T. I'll hide in some corner where I can see EVERYTHING. HAHAHA *EVIL LAUGH*
OKIE DOKIE, happy holidays to everyone! I is going to sleep now before I kill myself for chinese oral tomorrow. Argh who here doesn't dread this blasted thing called CHINESE ORAL. PFFT. NIGHTS!
I whispered
at 10:24 PM
Monday, May 21, 2007
GOSH I've got so much to blog about! OK here goes! (:
RPROJECT!
Great company, everything was pretty ESPECIALLY HIOK. :D Mr Vadi and his wife were really funny on the runway, and yes nicole rocked the catwalk! GO GIRL! The seats were pretty badly arranged though. WE could hardly see anything without obstructing the view of someone else >.<>.<>.<
I can't seem to forget what happened yesterday. Tell me again, whisper to me that it's meant to be. That all the negative feelings will soon pass and that this'll work out. I'm scared. ): goodnight to you. please tell me that you're at least dreaming sweet dreams now. If the world doesn't give you the satisfaction and happiness you deserve, thank god for sweet dreams.
*points to the funny faces* this is where the rest of my post is supposed to be, but it's gone now. ARGH damn blogger. I'm so annoyed annoyed annoyed! RAH.
I whispered
at 11:54 PM
Tuesday, May 15, 2007
HEY ALL! (:
It's like how late and tomorrow's econs lecture test but I've decided to take a breather before I continue with whatever I decide to do. HUR. Anyway as people already know, thanks to random dude, I met him at Great World City yesterday. And I got sent home again today YAY. Anyway yesterday was extremely hilarious. I tried to contain my laughter and grins. It was actually really difficult. my brother told me that there was this woman in WH who was wearing a newspaper skirt, and he was laughing at her. He pointed her out to me, and lo and behold, guess whose mother that is! OMG I tried not to burst into laughter there and then. I could've sworn she stared at me, she recognises me for sure LOL. Then we coincidentally met at nike, just when I was messaging him to tell him where I was. Too coincidental for comfort. HAHA.
UNAS was an utter bore, I was far too tired to try and concentrate so I ended up getting distracted for all the wrong reasons, talking to people and just staring at every other thing except the speaker and the slides LOL. It's already quite a waste of time in that sense. I could've at least slept if I was at home. Then I would've been able to mug my ass off. Oh the opportunity cost of going for that damn seminar. ON TOP OF THAT, it ended later than expected and it was pouring outside. >.< But maybe, just maybe if I hadn't been that exhausted, UNAS would've seemed a lot more interesting. After all, the UN has always intrigued me. Oh I did like the workshop best out of everything we did there anyway. It was the single closest thing to being fun. PLUS, Daniel's video was gruesome and disturbing but the message was put brutaly across. Forgotten refugees from wars ): Wish to help, but not strong enough to do so.
Today I got back my math assignment and yeah I turned emo for half a period. It's always the case where I think I know what I'm doing but it turns out all wrong. Or, I work so hard and nothing comes out of it. I end up failing REALLY miserably, trust me I've never felt so discouraged in my entire life. BUT, I've seen past that and yes I've been reminded yet again that I need to do something about it. I wrote a letter to myself to make myself wake up (DUMB BUT I FELT TENFOLD BETTER AFTER THAT). CTs are in a month's time (cries, it falls on my birthday) and I'm far from my desired target/outcome. SO YES, PROCRASTINATION STOPS TODAY. IT'S OK TO GET DISTRACTED OCCASIONALLY, BUT WORK IS WORK. FOCUS ON END POINT. (:
GP video was disturbing, revolting, pissing. Too many profanities for me, too much violence. I'm fully aware of all these problems in society, must we really watch this video which makes it ALL visual, contains vulgarities and erm shows us the wrong things seriously. BUT I'm curious to see the end of it, like whether the alcoholic and wife-beater father will change for the better after his daughter's suicide. It's really quite sad that these things do happen in reality. I actually walked out of class to go to the washroom to avoid parts of the video which I didn't want to watch. Apparently they showed almost everything for the rape scene. -.- like that was absolutely necessary? AH forget the inconsequential video. I'm more worried bout my GP marks!
Well yes, things do get better and better as the days pass. It's getting late and I'm not exactly doing work and not absorbing. The dumb thing is too profound and technical for me to understand, even more so at this time of the day.
OMG I blogged too late to say this, but: HAPPY THREE MONTHS DEAR. <3 thanks for everything. Literally EVERYTHING. (:
I whispered
at 1:16 AM
Sunday, May 13, 2007
GUESS WHO I SAW AT GREAT WORLD CITY TODAY!! MELISSA LAW SHUEH LI!! GUESS WHO I SAW YESTERDAY AT UNAS!! MELISSA LAW SHUEH LI!! GUESS WHO I SAW THE DAY BEFORE YESTERDAY AT BUKIT TIMAH.. MELISSA LAW SHUEH LI!! GUESS WHO I SEE ALMOST EVERYDAY EVER SINCE 7th January.. MELISSA LAW SHUEH LI!! woops this aint my blog.. erh.. oh yar.. its MELISSA LAW SHUEH LI's BLOG.. OUCH... MY BAD MY BAD.. GUESS IM OUT OF HERE.. unknown dude.. over and out.. 1 more thing.. GUESS WHO IM SEEING FOR THE REST OF MY LIFE!! well thats a give away.. hint hint.. it aint a boy named jules... :D *woops another give away..* haha LAWLZ... >.<
The thought of u not being by my side... impossible.. <3
I whispered
at 5:08 PM
Sunday, May 06, 2007
SATURDAY:
LUNCH AND SPIDERMAN 3! Sad plot actually, but excellent graphics. Watch it cause they'll amaze you! I was pissed with SPIDEY actually, tsk. Anyway the company was great and it's actually made us even closer in my opinion. (: MR VADI LIED -.- tsk tsk, he's so cheeky!
Day out with family at vivocity. Window shopping again ): great to see nice clothes, but sad that I can't buy them. PFFT. Then came home and tried to do work, but failed miserably.
SUNDAY aka TODAY!:
Really excellent day that I can't put down into words, the best weekend so far - A SEVEN DAY WEEK WITH YOU. How much more excellent can that get? Park, Thomson Plaza, Han's, journey home. (: I realise that actually memories that you wish to keep on the internet doesn't actually stay forever. You can't keep these memories there forever, it's gone with just one click yes? Especially if you decide to change blogs and stuff like that. It's still better to use the conventional method of keeping a diary (BUT I'M LAZYYYYY) or even better (THE SLACKER'S WAY) don't do anything - it stays in your brain naturally. *marvels at the human brain*
PW meeting with candice, elaine, prem and amanda lim! (: the most productive we've ever been since the start. I'm just extremely relieved that we've got our plans and GPP done, even our reading list is done! (: I was initially so very worried for PW. I mean it's THAT important, at the rate we were going, it didn't seem like we were on our way to our A, contrary to what others thought of our group. Now I feel like a weight as been lifted off my shoulders YAY!
Then I went home with YOU again. Hee, like someone says: OMG, he's a keeper Mel, he's a keeper. YES I SO AGREE. I've known that for a long time now. I think i'm more appreciative than that, and yes I don't want to lose you. WHY WOULD I BE DUMB ENOUGH TO LEAVE YOU AND CAUSE MYSELF HURT? STOP WORRYING PLEASE?
Then I came home, had dinner, slept till nine, woke up and got told news that's a shocker. Kinda. I did think it was possible, but i brushed it aside.
It's tragic how things can't stay as they are, perfect and happy. I knew the moment I was walking home that something bad was going to happen. Call it sixth sense or whatever, but I knew the day/week was far too perfect and something just had to happen, just to keep the balance of life. However, I must say that it's commendable how we always manage to work things out and you just make things right again. I hope this NEVER changes. NEVER EVER.
Sorry this post is weird. LOL, I just don't know what I'm doing. HAHA, HAPPY GP-ING 7B! LET'S KICK ASS TOMORROW! TATA~
I can't see myself without you by my side, do you not understand that?
I whispered
at 11:34 PM
NIGHTNIGHT WORLD, HELLO DREAMLAND, HELLO YOU.
Friday, May 04, 2007
I stayed up till 4.30 yesterday doing my SEA assignment. It's times like these where I hate being a perfectionist. But I emerged feeling a whole lot of satisfaction and achievement which I doubt I would've felt without being so particular about my essay and revising it over and over again. Overall I thought I put in more effort this time round as compared to the last essay. Hopefully the marks are proportional to the effort I put in. (:
Sometimes boys are really so dumb, they stay up till five playing PSP. FOR WHAT? To try and beat BYAKUYA without losing a single life. =.= GOD SAVE ME. *slaps forehead* I have a retarded/dumb/lame best friend and a *insert word* boyfriend. SEE I CAN'T EVEN FIND A WORD TO DESCRIBE HIM. LOL he relied on ONE HOUR'S sleep to sustain him thorughout 6 hours of school and 2 hours of training after. BUT, thanks dear for staying up (: I love you both many many!
YAY tomorrow's spiderman 3! SSHH I'm supposed to be asleep but I think I slept too much in the afternoon. I shall run along now and sleep before it hits midnight. NIGHTNIGHT WORLD, HELLO DREAMLAND, HELLO YOU.
I whispered
at 11:30 PM
Thursday, May 03, 2007
HAPPY BIRTHDAY EUGENE NG WEI YANG, MUSKETEER AND MY SPECIAL FRIEND! YOU'RE SEVENTEEN! *GASP* YOU OLD MAN! LOL. (: THANKS FOR ALWAYS BEING THERE FOR ME AND ALWAYS BEING SUCH A WONDERFUL LISTENING EAR! MEL WISHES YOU ALL THE BEST WITH *AHEM* AND IN RJ! BOY AM I GLAD WE'RE BOTH FINALLY IN THE SAME SCHOOL! HAHA SEE YOU TOMORROW! MUAHAHAHA!
AND BACK TO SEA HISTORY ASSIGNMENT IT IS! ERM 1200 MORE WORDS TO GO. *CLAPS EXCITEDLY* I AM A HAPPY GIRL TODAY. HEE HEE.
HOW I WISH TIME COULD JUST FREEZE EVERY TIME I'M WITH YOU. <3
I whispered
at 10:27 PM
ABOUT ME!
MELISSALAW
260690
IJ KELLOCK
IJ TP
RAFFLES JUNIOR COLLEGE
IJ STUDENT COUNCILLOR/PREFECT
1/1 '03
2/1 '04
3/2 '05
4/2 '06
IJTPNETBALLCLUB'03-'06 <333
RED HOUSE!
08S07B! <3!
BUCKLE BUCKLEY - CH'NOVO
Raffles netball!
Raffles track and field - SPRINTS!
<3
*netball!!
*IJ TP! <333
*Japanese Anime
*Manga
*SHOPPING!!
*my friends <33
I WISH I WISH...
*BE A BETTER PERSON/FRIEND
*GET CLOSER TO GOD (:
*REVAMP MY WARDROBE!
