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2007-07-26T20:17:00.000+08:00

I'VE MOVED!
http://subtle-red.livejournal.com
PLEASE DO VISIT AND COMMENT MANY MANY! IT'S PRETTY DEAD AT THE MOMENT HEE.

TOODLES!

2007-07-18T21:36:00.000+08:00

hello friends, this is my 107th post, but it may very well be the last one here. Like I've been telling many people, blogger is so not private anymore tsk tsk. haha so I've switched to LJ! Uni would say FINALLY. YES dear friend, I've finally found the time and reason to switch sides. (HAHA THIS IS NOT MEANT TO BE A JOKE/LAME) Here's to a whole new chapter hopefully. BTW I'll keep my blog account cause there're seriously too many beautiful memories to just DELETE like that. I'll miss you old blog. :D

XXOO,
MEL

2007-07-12T00:43:00.000+08:00

I can't believe it. Wanna talk bout it, but can't >.< 11/7/07 sucked. BIG TIME.

Never again

2007-07-05T22:39:00.000+08:00

This is all we have,
some things never change.
Ill be there for you,
in your darkest hour,
let our love shine us through.
Never again will you be alone,
cause in the circle of life,
I begin to see…
That nothing ever changes for me.

I walked through the hallway,
nothing in mind.
Got a glimpse of the future,
and all I can find.
Is the love of my life,
standing by my side.
Bracing the challenges awaiting us
yet again I see…
you were right there next to me.

If life were to pass us by,
I would want u know.
That nothing would change,
our love would still flow.
When the time has come,
for us to part.
Ill will see u again.
For u live in my heart.

Just to let u know,
ill be there everyday.
Though things may change,
and life moves on.
One thing’s for sure…
ill be there for you.
Always…

Composed by Julian
Dedicated to Mel

FOR HIM

2007-07-05T21:44:00.000+08:00

Today started off pretty badly, but it turned out all right as usual (: After school: 7B mass tennis! :D with yl, vinod, jia yi, yinwei, mike, julian and ZH. Melody left rather soon while candice watched us play. (: it was imba fun/funny. I think I'm such an embarrassment when it comes to tennis. HAHAHA. It's called 班门弄斧 man. I'm such a weirdo. My backhand is pretty ok, but I simply suck at forehand. COMPLETE MISSES. NOT ONCE IT COMES INTO CONTACT WITH THE TENNIS BALL, BUT BACKHAND IS LIKE 70% in. -.- It's been such a long time since I've 1. perspired; 2.been in the sun; 3. moved my ass apart from walking. Then Julian and I left at 4 for farrer park. (: We were slightly early so we stopped at novena to top up my card plus get stuff to eat/drink.

I was being mean today and I sulked (one can call it 撒娇）cause I really wanted to spend time with him, but then I realised that I shouldn't always hog him. I mean our classmates wanted to play tennis and he had the rackets, if I told him I wanted to go out with him without playing tennis, I would've deprived them of having fun today. I wouldn't have had so much fun as well. BUT STILL, I would've been a lot happier had we gone out. Like I said, it's not the matter of where we go, or what we do, as long as it's with YOU. SURPRISE SURPRISE, IT RHYMES A LITTLE! :D Being selfless hurts sometimes lol. Such a dumb bimbotic comment to make haha. Yl would laugh at me.

Sigh being with him just takes my mind off so many things. It's just the both of us. (: It's something I can't exactly describe, but I love every moment of it. I never get enough of him and it sucks (or not). I know many other people find it difficult to even meet their other half, while I get to see him almost everyday. 1. I don't ever get sick of him; 2. seeing him in school is actually restricting and different from spending private time together; 3. I miss him on weekends when there's no school; 4. so like different relationships and different conditions have different 'problems'. This isn't even a problem to begin with anyway. I shouldn't complain right? But humans are naturally tough to please and satisfy and we're greedy. >.< Things will be worse when he goes for NS. EEKS don't wanna think about it.

*warning: mushy parts ahead, don't read if you can't take it :p*

LALALA anyway I know he'll definitely read this so I just wanna tell him something.

DEAR it doesn't mean anything even if a whole mob of guys like me, or that all of them are better looking than you or whatever. I know who's the right one for me, and it's YOU and only you. OUTCOME IN SIGHT IS LIKE THIS: YOU AND ME SPENDING THE REST OF OUR LIVES TOGETHER (yay) You're the only one I want, and the only one who loves me so much and sacrifices so much for me love. I'm sorry for all the pain I've caused you, the times when I've hurt you ever so unintentionally. I just wish you could be truly happy with me and that's what I want. I'd do anything if it meant guaranteeing your happiness. It means so much to see you smile and laugh instead of seeing a frown on your face. I know this is a really difficult period for you and I completely understand if you can't be as happy as before. I just hope that I'll be the one that'll be able to bring the old you back, the one that'll make you smile amidst all your worries. That's my job anyway :D JAM always, dear. Ok I think I'm taking far too long to do this one post, so I'll end off here.
LOTS OF LOVE,
YOUR #1 FAN. <3

hey yl, thanks for today. (: I love you.
Thanks dear for everyday with you, I love you more :D 6minutes before I call you!

2007-07-02T22:53:00.000+08:00

(: I got a chance to meet Julian today at Raffles Place. He was out with the guys at Thomson Plaza while I was at Alexandria Hospital, so I took the east-west line and got off there. I kinda waited for some time cause the boys had to make their way to j8 before he took the train down. But it was all worth it. The silly boy followed me all the way to Parkway Parade and back, can you believe it? He had no reason to do that whatsoever except just to spend time with me I guess. :D thanks love.

We ate at some singapore post building's KFC cause we were both starving. Then we got to PP and I went for my dental appt while he walked around I guess (no idea I think he went to eat more stuff cause he told me he ate portugese egg tarts -.-).

While I was waiting for my turn here's what happened:
J: hey er mel is it your turn yet? how long more?
M: nope. shouldn't be too long I guess.
J: oh er I'm with my tennis friends now. Is it ok if I go out with them. I think we're going to town. So I'm leaving first ok?
M: oh....ok
J: yup ok I'll see you tomorrow then, bye.

*silence* then I remembered my GAP jacket was in his bag and I kinda needed it since I felt cold as usual.

M: hey my jacket's in your bag you know?
J: oh er I'll return it another day.
M: HUH WHAT? WHERE ARE YOU?
J: I said I'll return it another day?
M: *notices guy with bright orange shirt outside*
J: I'LL RETURN IT ANOTHER DAY.
M: OH. *grabs valuables and walks out*
J: *grinning from ear to ear* I WAS KIDDING LA!
M: VERY NICE TO CHEAT MY FEELINGS IS IT.
J: YEAH VERY NICE.
M: -.- so where're you going?
J: NOWHERE I WAS KIDDING.

AND SO IT WAS, I GOT CHEATED. AFTER DENTAL APPT, I got my beloved cinnamon pretzel while he got lychee green tea bubble tea (he hates bubble tea but knows I love it). He's honestly such a sweet thoughtful boy. Lucky me. Then we both headed home.

Though we didn't have enough private time, I'm glad that I at least got to see him before the proper start of classes and everything. Cause I know it'll be difficult once term 3 starts proper. Anyway we haven't seen each other since friday and I was really glad for today's outing though it was pretty short. I love you dear. I'm always here for you, I really hope I'll be able to help you tide through this really tough period. Chin up yeah? (: OK I'M DONE WITH THIS POST. READ, PACK THEN GET READY FOR BED SO I CAN CALL YOU BEFORE YOU SLEEP. <3

ARGH SCHOOL STARTS IN BOUT 8 HOURS. GOD SAVE ME. HERE COMES THE STRESS AGAIN. *CRIES*

2007-07-02T10:28:00.000+08:00

I just wanna thank everyone who came down for my party, everyone who wished me and made my birthday this year such an enjoyable and unforgettable one, despite the current situation we're in. Thanks to 7B especially those who came down on friday, SSMO (for their loving support and Jess' uncanny present), IJ friends (who surprisingly remembered!), BEE CHNG (my darling primary school friend who remembered) and Julian Foo Beng Kiat for celebration after celebrations and present after presents love. (:

Party at SICC was such a blast for me. Bowling, talking and yeah just hanging around with friends, laughing and camwhoring. I WANT PICTURES! WE took so many pictures in so many different cameras I think I've lost track of what's in what. I mainly want pictures from these people: ELAINE (with the camera that chirps/squeaks every time it's turned on, YL (I think I caught you taking some paparazzi pictures of ahem me and someone else?), JULIAN (with your imba camera). HAHA I don't think anyone could forget how while I was bowling I accidentally flung the bowling ball backwards. OMG I'm not helping anyone to forget how loserish I was that day. -.- The chocolate cake from awfully chocolate was AWESOME. It's chocolate but I actually liked it! :D Then I had to head home while the rest of the class went out for dinner.

THEN, SATURDAY! Went for Christina Aguilera's back to basics tour concert. Must commend her for being able to sustain her powerful voice for 1.5 hours straight! The crowd went wild when she started singing lady marmalade and candyman. I thought the concert was awfully short with no intermission and no encore. We suspect that they're rushing off the europe for the rest of her tour. Oh well. The view was pretty good for the basic tickets anyway. So yes it's my virgin concert and a good one at that. I'm not an ardent fan of hers but I recognise a powerful voice when I hear one and appreciate it man. Kudos to her for her PRETTYFUL Marilyn Monroe-inpsired dressing. It was gorgeous. I wanted her shoes especially the pretty gliterry ones. OMG THEY actually had a small circus opening act for one of their songs, with the backup dancers walking on stilts, on the trapeze etc etc. It made me think that being hre backup dancer must really be such a demanding job! Imagine mastering all different kinds of dances and having to put in gruelling hours to work on walking on stilts and on the trapeze. EEKS, they'd better be paid a good sum. OK RANDOM.

Ok that sums up my weekend I guess. It's back to school tomorrow. *cries* here comes the stress again. OUR PW IS SO SCREWED I TELL YOU. >.< Enjoy youth day holiday youths! :D

In loving memory of Thaddeus Cheong

2007-06-27T02:35:00.000+08:00

My bestest friend Thaddeus Cheong Wing Kit, Hey buddy, chin up yeah? Sigh, I’m having mixed feelings here. ): Right about now, I’m 20% happy cause you have moved on to a better place, 20% angry cause i) you left me without a goodbye ii) You pang se me, you said we would be there for each other through thick and thin in RJC together and you just left like that. iii) You would punch me right now after u hear this reason, and its cause you reached heaven before me! Most importantly however, is the fact that I just lost my very best friend 60% depression, well 20+20+60= erm 100? Yay my maths good ok! Sigh I don’t know where to start, we had so many adventures together. LOL it’s like 2 am on the 26th of June which happens to be Melissa’s birthday. Sigh U 2 really surprised me on my birthday. I’m sure she would want u to attend her birthday so like drop by yeah? I should know, I’m her other half (:
I really don’t know where to begin. There is so much about you that I love and really appreciate. Alright then! Let’s start with our adventures in Catholic High School shall we? Hmmm, remember the time when we cheated for Geography test in Secondary 2? The one where we placed the answers on the table and just copied? Man Cat High teachers are really off their guard. OH OH OH and there was the time where we ran away from the prefects who wanted us to take a hair cut la. Wah lau we ran our hearts out man. Haha, good times good times. Then we would always lie down on the lockers in our classroom and just nap during recess? Or we like ran out of class early to play soccer in the field and practice our freekicks and all. Hey I was better at them OK! Haha. You kick so off make me go pick ball somemore. Sigh I missed those unforgettable moments together as Catholic High students. The best time when we were always there for each other was just before our O levels. Man that was when we were so stressed (P.S even though we really didn’t study for it :p Oooops) I remembered going to your house with Martin Cheong MUN HO! Haha, then we would play with Cookie and try to do maths. Likewise when you would come over to my place to so called “MUG”, well just that I didn’t have a dog, I HAD COOL COMPUTER GAMES! WORMS OMG WORMS WAS FUNNY! Haha. Man it was really great having you around buddy. You beat me to heaven U! ): LOL those were the days. Nothing beats that man. Well I guess that’s a wrap for Catholic High life. It was seriously fun man. Oh and the day before results were coming out for Os. We were like Damn scared la. Even though getting below 20 points is seriously like erh… Haha U LA! SOMEMORE TELL ME NO NEED TO STUDY ALSO CAN ONE! Make me worry like siao. Haha Hey but what are friends for yeah? WORRY also worry together right?
So yeah talking about more recent events, the surprise you gave me with Melissa was really really touching man. To tell you the truth, no one has ever surprised me for my birthday and seriously this 17th birthday of mine was one I will never forget as my 2 best friends were present. What more could I have asked for? Ok I think you wanted me to skip the mushy parts and just go straight to the point. Well basically, we had lots of fun right? I mean I had to guess the clues and all Melissa passed you and we had to run all over Suntec City right? It’s really something man. It may seem like something small but to me it really meant a lot. I’ve used the towel you gave me already. Sexy man. :D Haha Sigh, it really feels weird without you buddy. Who is the one who will kick me from behind and call my name? Who will call me ASS so loudly such that the whole canteen can hear? I’ll feel so misplaced without you man buddy old pal. Ok now to the really mushy part of me. Sigh. ): Another moment to remember would be YOUR 17th BIRTHDAY celebration with your family. I was the only one invited and that really meant a lot to me man. Even though you don’t say it, I could see that we really had deep feelings for each other. (I’m not gay btw) (:
Thaddeus Cheong WING KIT, you are everything I could have ever asked for in a friend, you are more than what words can describe. I’ll give you something to chew on, you define the word friend. I thank you again for all these wonderful memories Thaddeus Cheong buddy. I’ll miss you but like the song says, even though you are gone, your spirit carries on in all of your loves ones with me in it :D I LOVE YOU LOTS THADDUES! YOU ARE THE MAN AND YOU ALWAYS WILL BE TO ME! THANKS BEST BUD.

From your bestest best buddy,
Julian Foo BENG KIAT!

Jules's music list?

2007-06-23T11:25:00.000+08:00

1. Put your music player on shuffle.2. For each question, press the next button to get your answer.3. Put the last title of the song as the subject4. YOU MUST WRITE THAT SONG NAME DOWN NO MATTER HOW SILLY IT SOUNDS.

IF SOMEONE SAYS "IS THIS OKAY" YOU SAY?
If the rain must fall – James morrison

WHAT WOULD BEST DESCRIBE YOUR PERSONALITY?
The world is black – Good Charlotte

WHAT DO YOU LIKE IN A GUY/GIRL?
A moment like this – kelly Clarkson

HOW DO YOU FEEL TODAY?
Unfaithful - Rihanna

WHAT IS YOUR LIFE'S PURPOSE?
More than words - Westlife

WHAT IS YOUR MOTTO?
Better late than forever - Allister

WHAT DO YOUR FRIENDS THINK OF YOU?
Confessions of a broken heart – Lindsay Lohan

WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOUR PARENTS?
Fatal Tragedy – Dream theater

WHAT DO YOU THINK ABOUT VERY OFTEN?
Making love out of nothing at all – Air supply

WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOUR BESTIES?
Could it be – Christy Romano

WHAT DO YOU THINK OF THE PERSON YOU LIKE?
Promise – Simple Plan

WHAT DO YOU WANT TO BE WHEN YOU GROW UP?
I never told you what I do for a living – My Chemical Romance

WHAT DO YOU THINK WHEN YOU SEE THE PERSON YOU LIKE?
Everytime we touch – Cascada

WHAT DO YOUR PARENTS THINK OF YOU?
You’re not alone - Saosin

WHAT WILL YOU DANCE TO AT YOUR WEDDING?
It’s my life – Bon Jovi

WHAT WILL THEY PLAY AT YOUR FUNERAL?
Chapter 4 – Avenged Sevenfold

WHAT IS YOUR HOBBY/INTEREST?
The one you love – Glen frey

WHAT IS YOUR BIGGEST FEAR?
Boys and girl – Good Charlotte

WHAT IS YOUR BIGGEST SECRET?
When you are looking like that - WestLife

WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOUR FRIENDS?
Breaking the Habit – Linkin park

2007-06-23T00:44:00.000+08:00

1. Put your music player on shuffle.
2. For each question, press the next button to get your answer.
3. Put the last title of the song as the subject
4. YOU MUST WRITE THAT SONG NAME DOWN NO MATTER HOW SILLY IT SOUNDS.

IF SOMEONE SAYS "IS THIS OKAY" YOU SAY?
Something Stupid - Robbie Williams feat Nicole Kidman

WHAT WOULD BEST DESCRIBE YOUR PERSONALITY?
It's gonna be me - N*sync

WHAT DO YOU LIKE IN A GUY/GIRL?
Do you want to - Franz Ferdinand

HOW DO YOU FEEL TODAY?
Black Black Heart - David Usher

WHAT IS YOUR LIFE'S PURPOSE?
Queen of my heart - Westlife

WHAT IS YOUR MOTTO?
A lifetime - better than ezra

WHAT DO YOUR FRIENDS THINK OF YOU?
Mr Brightside - The Killers

WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOUR PARENTS?
The Tide is High - Atomic Kitten

WHAT DO YOU THINK ABOUT VERY OFTEN?
Lying is the most fun a girl can have (without taking her clothes off) - Panic! at the disco

WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOUR BESTIES?
Put your record on - corinne bailey rae

WHAT DO YOU THINK OF THE PERSON YOU LIKE?
Fly away - corrine may

WHAT DO YOU WANT TO BE WHEN YOU GROW UP?
Something about you - corrine may

WHAT DO YOU THINK WHEN YOU SEE THE PERSON YOU LIKE?
high and dry - radiohead

WHAT DO YOUR PARENTS THINK OF YOU?
What makes you different (makes you beautiful) - BSB

WHAT WILL YOU DANCE TO AT YOUR WEDDING?
Yellow - coldplay

WHAT WILL THEY PLAY AT YOUR FUNERAL?
Can't fight the moonlight - leann rimes

WHAT IS YOUR HOBBY/INTEREST?
kiss me - sixpence none the richer (!!)

WHAT IS YOUR BIGGEST FEAR?
Sugar we're going down - fall out boy

WHAT IS YOUR BIGGEST SECRET?
World of our own - Westlife

WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOUR FRIENDS?
Show stopper - Danity Kane

:D amusing stuff. ok back to mugging. GANBATTE NE? :x

Happy 4 months? <3

2007-06-14T20:48:00.000+08:00

Hello, I is back nows. Invading on all her secrets & privacy!
Alright! It's been seriously a blast with u love :D I really hope this will all go according to plan, wait wait wait... What HOPE! CONFIRM CAN ONE! End point yeah? It will come, I promise u love <3 Hint Hint* Tmr things do come in pairs :D haha! WOOPS! Sorry I didn't mean to let the cat out of that tiny little plastic bag of goodies! WOOPS! Haha!
Hey sometimes we will have problems yeah? Just like sometimes the titrant doesn't mix well yeah? Need to shake shake shake to ensure complete reaction but sometimes the dude spills some right? Then the readings won't be accurate so we need to redo some stuff right? Need I bring up the past? But yeah it's all settled & this time the dude won't get this shit wrong AGAIN. I hope.... haha. Mel is like wtv la wtv la and at the same time smiling to herself. :D
Alright now u are online & I'm still kinda sick so I shan't crack my head to think of more romantic stuff to put in cause that comes tmr. In person. I think it is how u say... more romantic if it comes with the actions :D haha love love ttyl!
From your knight in shinning armour with a tennis racquet in one hand and Mel in the other :D

2007-06-14T20:12:00.000+08:00

It's the 14th today! (: So that calls for a special special special post that goes out to only 1 person. I promised I'd give him something today but since we can't meet and I'm not one that's excellent at choosing presents, a little surprise here will hopefully suffice.

It's been a bittersweet four months. But what's a relationship without its ups and downs right? You're a really extraordinary person and boyfriend and everything thing you do convinces me that you're the one for me. There's something about you that makes me laugh and smile with so much ease everytime I'm with you. I must have done something right to deserve someone like you. You're my special someone, my one and only. I love you. (: We'll be together forever till the end of time yes? We're definitely two in a million love.

HMM does anyone realise something here? There are like a few song titles in there! :D OMG EXACTLY FOUR SONG TITLES. It's on purpose man.
1. Must have done something right - Relient K
2. Special Someone - Peepshow
3. Till the end of time -Justin Timberlake
4. Two in a Million - S Club 7

I just thought the lyrics were really sweet and it really applies. (:
Get well soon dear, please sleep early and drink lots of water! <3 We've got a long way to go, you must be in the best of health all right? LOVES. See you tomorrow (:

2007-06-12T10:31:00.000+08:00

I'm at my uncle's house right now so I haven't been online at all since last week. Well anyway here's what's been going on during my short disappearance:

SUNDAY
My uncle let me spend the day out with him, so since I had to go for mass anyway and my uncle wasn't home, I went for mass with him at Holy Spirit. It felt...great yet unbelievable. LIKE WOW, we're in church TOGETHER. hmm how very surreal. Then we had lunch at Swensons Thomson Plaza. I was nearly late to go back once again, but thank goodness the taxi came just as he called his dad to come give us a lift. It would've been a little awkward in my opinion otherwise haha. (: As usual I had a lot of fun laughing at his jokes. I accidentally poked him and his gum bled OUCH sorry dear. IT WAS UNINTENTIONAL I SWEAR. Then he sent me home. BUT he walked all the way in AGAIN from Adam's Road food centre cause he bought ribena for me (i told him i had a craving for ribena and the house didn't have any) so he got it for me. WHAT A SURPRISE I TELL YOU. It's a really really long walk back in. 20 minutes eeks and I shall quote him "ALL I GOT WAS A 'THANKS'" oops the dogs were barking and the maid was there. I SHOULD'VE GONE OUT AND WALKED HIM RIGHT? But I didn't and called instead. Although being physically there would've been THAT much better. Thanks love, you're the best <3

Walked with the dogs and the maid to coronation plaza after that. OMG IT WAS SUCH A LONG WALK, but it wasn't tiring at all. 20 minutes there and 10 back (cause I was rushing to watch federer and nadal play) Spent about ten minutes getting groceries since my uncle and aunt had dinner out and couldn't make it back in time to get them. Watched French Open Finals while eating TIRAMISU. YUM. It ended so late la! *grumbles* and it was a draggy match. So federer lost anyway ): to that nadal that grunts so much -.- and I got my own commentary from my one and only. Lol and I got to learn new stuff bout tennis that I've always been puzzled about but never asked anyone. Then I talked on the phone till 1.30 I think? Which killed the both of us since 1. I was supposed to have training, 2. Did I mention I'm sick? and 3. He's got training too. Nonetheless it's always enjoyable and worth the time and lack of sleep lol. His sister is so cute I tell you.

MONDAY
It's my uncle's birthday today! I had lunch with my darling SSMO at MOS Burger j8. It was such a blast as usual and we spent out lunch ogling at people and spying and haha. oops. :x even though the guys are younger than me. But one definitely appreciates good looks when one sees it. :D

Jess and I went on a little adventure to find out which IJ girl I saw WITH the SJI canoeists, while Marie went along so she could say hi to Kenneth. We didn't know anyone so jess and I tried to spy on them, but that silly Marie just had to call us over to introduce us. ARGH I was pretty embarrassed cause I found out when I got there that the IJ girl probably wasn't WITH them so she wasn't there AT ALL. *covers face* so I had NO REASON WHATSOEVER to be there. At least I could've said I wanted to say hi to the IJ girl. RAH so I just said hi and then we left. I could've sworn they were staring at Jess and I like we were stalkers or desperados. I'm sure I'm desperate for them, think again? I felt bad leaving Clare there alone at MOS, she did want to come but Marie told her not to (?! at least she could've helped share the embarrassment a little though she knows ONE of them) The food wasn't that good I didn't eat much at all and got really hungry later.

Later on Julian came after lunch with his sisters and his mum, and ssmo got to meet him for real FINALLY. Clare and Jess has seen him once already but didn't manage to speak to him though. So yesterday was a good day. (: I must say it went well and as usual he charmed them. ZH is a conversation topic everywhere, he must be so pleased to know this. HAHA he got them laughing at his dear friend and then we left when WK came cause Julian had training and we had to travel to YCK. I didn't go for training in the end luh, still too sick. I spent the past few days sneezing my nose off I don't I can endure 2hours+ sprinting without having a tissue box closeby.
So I had the privilege of watching him train once again. I was supposed to rest but I must say it was too exciting watching him play that other guy for me to even shut my eyes. (: It was really cool watching him have so much fun and somehow it made me smile and laugh cause I don't know, he just seemed like it WAS really THAT fun even though he was so tired out playing his coach and the other guy, 2 against 1. Oh forgot to mention that we saw the RJ squash team. Apparently they train there ALL THE TIME, so I said hi to Becky and Shun Yee. Went home with him after that, but we ate at waffletown at balmoral first. TOO HUNGRY MAN. My fish was pathetic and not so nice, I should've gotten what he got too. ): I didn't get to spend much private time with him in the end but it's ok, his week is packed enough and I'm grateful he's managed to find the time to be with me. YES YES, I must remember to blog on thursday and bout friday too.

Got home and had dinner with my uncle and aunty and ate my uncle's birthday cake from chocolate factory I think. OH OH OH, I'm currently hooked onto a certain song that really applies. (: shall copy/paste lyrics now. hee enjoy what's left of the hols man.

Time stops for no one it moves on unaware
It's easy not to notice
It's easy not to care
Conversation circles
There's money changing hands
I've been standing in the middle
I've been caught up in the spin
Out of the confusion
The static and the noise you got my attention
And made me wanna live

Live like its the last moonrising
Scream just like no-one's there
Lose all of my defenses
Hold you touch you love you like its
The very last moment in time

It seems like I woke up beneath a different sky
And I'm drunk on what I'm seeing through these open eyes
All the little ways you move me
All the places you expose
The illusion I held on to
You've got me letting go

I just wanna stay here soaking up the rain
Falling all around me, wash the world away

Let me feel you next to me
Let me taste the breath you breathe
Open up the space between us

Lindsay Lohan
"Very last moment in time"

:D I love you dear.

2007-06-04T22:39:00.000+08:00

I just came back from malaysia on sunday and I was planning on blogging on monady but something cropped up and I couldn't if I wanted to get any sleep at all. As it is, I slept at almost three yesterday.

So anyway, here's the lowdown on my short trip to JB:
1. shopping (BUT WTH, I come back to SINGAPORE and realise there's nicer stuff to buy here. heck the cheaper prices in JB, it compromises on the designs over there. *pouts* I regret shopping there. )
2. I slept a lot and ate a lot too. I think I shocked everybody cause I was downing the black pepper crabs like water. Actually they were happy to see me eat. (In their eyes I'm far too skinny and I've been losing lots of weight. I'm a lot thinner as compared to last year.)
3. I'm almost done with 'the time traveller's wife'! OMG I've been reading the book for far too long. still a bit more to go though. :|
4. THE DOGS at my granduncle's house and the poodle that my granduncle's secretary owns. <3 haha I had a great time playing with that small brown and toy-like toy poodle. I swear she looks like an all-too-cute-to-be-real stuffed animal. :D
5. I came back to singapore and then went to sentosa at 7pm at night (!!) for sightseeing in my own country. -.- seriously it's been (8?) years since I've last been there. The place has been transformed quite a bit. Just can't wait for the IRs to be done so I can be further amazed by that place. I came home at 10+ completely tired out but rather pleased by the day's events. Oh I forgot to mention I was at VIVOCITY before that, but my mummy didn't let me shop. ): shit I doubt I'll ever be able to curb my shopaholicism. Anyone who knows me well enough knows that I've been one since secondary school days. ARGH.

PLEASE SSMO, OUTING AT SENTOSA SO I CAN GET MY WELL DESERVED HOT TAN? haha or at least, JESS PLEASE? TAN WITH MEL MEL? *puppy dog eyes*

YESTERDAY: Had lunch with him at SAKAE (: I notice I really eat very little in comparison to him. So we had a slight problem trying to split the cost of the meal in a fair manner lol. SUSHI and him. <3 yay. I think I spent more time laughing and talking than eating.

Since we had quite a bit of time and had a movie-going feeling, we got to shaw and watched SHREK 3! It was the only show we haven't watched which is very short. Usual love comedy length: 90 minutes so that I could make it for training. It's pretty funny. I honestly didn't know that arthy's voice was JUSTIN TIMBERLAKE. Well the movie was fun for more than one reason. FUNNY and everything. (: but it didn't leave that much of an impression on me. I honestly think it's quite dumb, but like Ms Shanthi used to say, mindless humour sometimes helps to destress.

Later I skipped training >.< to go watch JAM train. People ask me why I train now even though I'm not taking part in nationals anyway. And they say it's commendable that I train 'for fun'. *laughs sarcastically* Sorry sidetracked. So I got to Yio Chu Kang with him and stayed at the centrecourt cafe reading my book (accompanied by the PSP to try and master the attacks of the bleach characters, which I gave up on soon after being killed by stupid ISHIDA. Hey I was distracted ok!) and occasionally spying on him. *grins* It really felt nice doing that. Truthfully it felt a little like a wife waiting for her husband. Don't ask me why, but it's not that I'm being farfetched. It was a feeling ok? I noticed that there were only spouses and parents waiting for those using the tennis courts. So either I'm a spouse or a parent lol. Dear, your tennis isn't bad! REALLY both you and I know that's not true. So train hard and don't give up. (: In fact, I think it's really good just that you lack training at the moment. SO NO MORE SLACKING OFF AND SKIPPING TRAINING UNLESS IT'S FOR A VERY GOOD REASON!

I must say the nuggets there (although they're more expensive than the ones at school) are very tasty. Either that or I was too hungry. HAHA and after training while he was trying to mouth 'help me buy a drink. H-TWO-O' to me, his coach saw that and started staring in my direction. I could've sworn my heart stopped for a moment. Then he looked away. I doubt he knows/suspects anything. I hope. All too risky, but worth it I'm sure (: Then I got sent home again.

See? Definition of a good day=3 letters! <3 Things do seem a lot better after my trip. I just hope I'm not being kept in the dark bout anything. I just want things to be real, not all just lies and deceit. Even if it hurts me, at least it's better than finding out much much later that I've been lied to all this while. Don't cover things up. I want to be the one there for you, even if it means I'll spend sleepless nights thinking bout it. Promise me you'll share all your problems with me? Maybe time off from school does have its benefits. Absence does make the heart grow fonder (:

ELAINE: BESTIE, GOODLUCK FOR YOUR COMPETITIONS! BE SAFE! I WANT YOU BACK UNSCATHED PLEASE! LOVE LOVE, MEET YOU SOON! <3

YL: YOU HAVE GOOD TRIP ( TO USA, HMPH) I MISS YOU AND YOUR DIAO FACE. I MISS OUR WONDERFUL GRAMMAR. I IS PRAYING FOR YOU AND ELAINE TO BE SAFE. LOVES. TAKE CARE, SEE YOU WHEN YOU GET BACK! <3

SSMO: HELLO GIRLS, STOP COMPLAINING I'VE ALREADY REPLIED YOUR MAILS AFTER A LONG TIME I KNOW. HEE, BUT STUPID ME ONLY SENT IT TO CLAREY WAREY BY ACCIDENT. PLEASE PESTER HER FOR IT. I LOVE YOU THREE! BE HAPPY AND ENJOY THE HOLIDAYS! (:

What i see, others will never get to see :D

2007-05-30T23:54:00.000+08:00

I love the way u smile, I love the way u make me laugh, I love the way u are, I love your hugs, I love your smarts, I love your eyes, I love your fragrant hair, I love your cheeky cheeks, I love your comments, I love everything about u, but most of all, I just love u. :D

I see it all around me.
Some people have it,
others just wish they had it.
I see it all around me.
When u are with me,
and even when u are away.
I see it all around me.
During our darkest moments,
and even in our happiest times.
I see it all around me.
When u shed tears of joy,
to the times when u are most depressed.
I see it all around me.
Its something so valuable,
yet so fragile.
I see it all around me.
It’s something that makes u high,
and something that makes u low.
I see it all around me.
It grows on some people,
it even grows on me.
I see it all around me.
Cause what I see,
I think u can see too.
I see it all around me,
what do I see u ask?

I see love.<3

HAVE A GREAT TRIP! LOTS OF LOVE! FROM, JAM! <3

2007-05-30T23:22:00.001+08:00

HELLO! (: I'M LEAVING FOR MALAYSIA IN BOUT ONE HOUR'S TIME SO I SHALL BLOG ABOUT YESTERDAY AND TODAY.

TUESDAY
I WAS SUPPOSED TO MEET THE DUMB BOY AT ORCHARD, BUT WE ENDED UP ON THE SAME TRAIN, HE WAS COMING FROM NOVENA, AND I FROM NEWTON. SO I WAS SHOCKED/SURPRISED WHEN I SAW HIM IN THE SAME CARRIAGE. *JAW DROP* IMAGINE THAT, CAUSE MY JAW REALLY DROPPED. BUT I KINAD KNEW IT WOULD HAPPEN. THINGS LIKE THAT ALWAYS HAPPEN WHEN IT COMES TO THE BOTH OF US. HIS STUPID SIGNATURE BAG GAVE HIS SURPRISE AWAY SERIOUSLY. AS USUAL, HE SPOTTED ME SO HE GOT OUT OF THE TRAIN AND WALKED INTO THE CARRIAGE THAT I GOT INTO, ALL IN A MATTER OF SECONDS. (: I SAW THE REFLECTION OF HIS BAG, TURNED AND SAW HIM. HAHA IT WAS SUCH A PLEASANT SURPRISE.

WE GOT TO SHAW, GOT TICKETS, HAD LUNCH AND SLACKED AROUND FOR A WHILE, THEN I WATCHED PIRATES WITH THE DUMB BOY! SUBSEQUENTLY I WENT TO BUY MY GRANDMOTHER'S BIRTHDAY PRESENT. WALKED AROUND QUITE AIMLESSLY FOR SOME TIME BEFORE I GOT HER A JEWELLERY BOX FOR ALL HER JEWELLERY, COMPLETE WITH A MIRROR, IN THE END. SSSHH, DON'T TELL HER. :X DAY AFTER IS HER BIRTHDAY. THEN HE CABBED TO FARRER COURT WHILE I GOT A LIFT TO NEWTON MRT AND I GOT HOME. ALONE. ):

TODAY
I WENT BACK TO SCHOOL TO HAND IN MY TRACK FORM. SINCE NO ONE WAS THERE, I WAS ASKED TO PUT IT INTO VANIA'S LOCKER. OH WELL SO I SAW THE IJ RMUN-ERS, ESPECIALLY DORALYN, SARAH NAT, GABBY. PITY I DIDN'T SEE YIFEN. THEN I WENT OFF TO BISHAN TO MEET HIM AFTER HIS MATCH AT KALLANG. YES HE WON. (: THEN WE HEADED OFF THE CITY HALL. ATE AT NEW YORK NEW YORK, AND THEN WALKED AROUND FOR A BIT (INTO THE VIDEO STORE AND STARTED COMPARING WHAT WE'VE WATCHED AND EVERYTHING) HAHA THE LAST TIME WE WERE AT CITYLINK/SUNTEC WE STARTED COMPARING WHICH ARTISTS/CDs WE'VE HEARD AND EVERYTHING AT HMV. HOW FUNNY. (: A FUN-FILLED DAY, FULL OF LAUGHTER AS USUAL. THEN I GOT SENT HOME. WELL THE BUS RIDE WAS PRETTY FUNNY/WEIRD.

1. THERE WAS A 'SLIGHTLY' MENTALLY UNSTABLE MAN WHO STARTED SHOUTING AND TALKING TO HIMSELF. CONVINCED MYSELF THAT HEARTBREAK CAN EQUALS MENTAL ILLNESS. HE WAS TALKING BOUT HIS WIFE NOT LOVING HIM OR SOMETHING LIKE THAT. SAD CASE. BUT I SWEAR HE WAS SO SCARY WHEN HE GOT DOWN THE BUS AND STARTED SHOUTING AT NO ONE. EITHER HE'S GOT AN IMAGINARY FRIEND OR HE'S JUST UNAWARE OF WHAT HE'S DOING. EEKS.

2. I MET MY PRIMARY SCHOOL CHINESE TEACHER! XU LAO SHI WHO TAUGHT ME WHEN I WAS 8 OR 9. OMG I TELL YOU. SHE RECOGNISES ME. SHE THOUGHT I LOOKED VERY FAMILIAR SO SHE SMILED AT ME. THEN SHE LATER ASKED ME BOUT THE MADMAN SO I CALLED HER LAOSHI. SHE ASKED HOW IW AS AND ALL THAT. FOUND OUT THAT SHE NOW TEACHES AT SCGS! WOW.

3. MADMAN NUMBER TWO. SMILES TO HIMSELF AND WAVES AT EVERY PERSON HE SEES OUTSIDE THE BUS WINDOW. >.< I KEPT STARING AND GOT TOLD OFF FOR DOING SO BY..YOU KNOW WHO.

4. THE BUS WAS SCREWED UP. THIS 171 BUS IS SERIOUSLY RELAPSE. TWO MADMANS AND A SCREWED UP TYRE. -.- HELP ME. IT WAS MAKING SUCH A DIN CAUSE I THINK THE TYRE WAS SLIGHTLY FLAT OR SOMETHING. LAUGH AT THIS AMAZING BUS JOURNEY HOME PLEASE.

5. WHEN WE FINALLY GOT OFF THE BUS, THERE WAS A SLIGHT JAM AND A WHOLE LOT OF EMAS RECEOVERY TOLL VEHICLES, POLICEMEN, WORKERS AND TRAFFIC POLICE. DOTS IS THE RIGHT THING TO SAY NOW. THERE WAS A LORRY WHO LEFTA TRAIL OF SCRAP METAL BEHIND. =.= TODAY JUST HAD TO BE SO EVENTFUL CAN.

AND GUESS WHAT, THE DAY ISN'T EVEN OVER YET. WELL IN TEN MINUTES' TIME IT WILL. BUT I LOVE THIS BOY TO THE CORE. I CAN'T BELIEVE HOW MUCH I LAUGH EVERYTIME I'M WITH HIM. AND YOU KNOW WHAT, I'M GOING TO MISS HIM. EVEN IF IT'S FOR THREE/FOUR DAYS. IT'S MORE THAN ENOUGH. I CAN'T MESSAGE/CALL TO HEAR HIS VOICE OR WHATEVER CAUSE MY MUMMY WILL KILL ME WHEN SHE SEES THE BILL. (IT'S ALREADY GONNA EXCEED AS IT IS :x) I'M REALLY GLAD THAT I'VE GOTTEN TO KNOW HIM AND THE REST OF MY CLASSMATES/FRIENDS. THEY REALLY PUT THE CHERRY ON THE CAKE (OR WHATEVER IT IS) AND THIS TIME THERE'S NO JACK SPARROW TO STEP ON IT. (SORRY INSIDE 'JOKE') I HOPE THAT THINGS WILL GET BETTER AND THAT TIME WILL SOLVE THE PROBLEM. THINGS WILL WORK OUT AND WE'LL STAY TOGETHER. <3 HAVE FUN DURING THESE THREE DAYS AND ALL THE BEST FOR YOUR MATCHES! (: PLAY WELL AND REMEMBER THAT I'M WITH YOU ALWAYS, IN YOUR HEART, MIND AND IN SPIRIT.

TO MY DARLING FRIENDS, HAVE FUN GIRLS! (: SUDY HARD AND TO SSMO, PLEASE ARRANGE OUTING/TANNING SESSION AT SENTOSA SOON. I'LL EMAIL YOU GIRLS SOON! STUDY HARD FOR CHINESE O'S ESPECIALLY AND FOR PRELIMS TOO! <3 TO YOU THREE! HOPE TO SEE YOU SOON! CONTINUE EMAILING AND UPDATE ME. SORRY I'VE BEEN MIA AND NOT REPLYING EMAILS. YIKES, WORK + CCA CAN REALLY KILL.

OKIE FOLKS, IT'S OFF TO BORING MALAYSIA FOR ME! TOODLE NOODLES! :D

2007-05-27T22:24:00.000+08:00

Hello I is back from outer space! HAHAHAHA as i promised, i shall update this really extra long post today of all the happening things that have happened! (:

1. OK back to Elaine's party, 19MAY.
I had lots of fun camwhoring with my darling friends (: While the guys, nicole and elaine were watching soccer or camwhoring, which ever they were doing, I even had a really nice walk with him and it was perfect it every way, the wind the stars the atmosphere. ELAINE GOT DUNKED INTO THE SEA AND HAD CHOCOLATE SMEARED ALL OVER HER FACE! >.< WOULDN'T WANNA BE HER. Her brother's the mastermind, he's so funny I tell you (very much unlike his sister hahaha I kid I kid). OH OH OH, and I played HIS SPORT! LOL it's really fun, pity I didn't pick it up a lot earlier or I might've met him earlier. BUT I highly doubt that since my standards wouldn't be anywhere near his current, though he thinks otherwise -.- "if you trained really hard, you would"
he says. Come to think of it, I actually spent 12+ hours with him that day, from 1.30pm to 1.30am! WOWZERS!

2. GP common test. Thought that the essay was something I was pretty comfortable with, so I'm less worried for that, however the comprehension came and I'm quite sure I won't do well for that. Cause 1. it's difficult, 2. I didn't finish the vocabulary section and some other question so that's like 7 marks GONE GONE GONE! *cries* so after that I headed down to Kallang for...

3. TENNIS FINALS! Boys played against ACS (IB) while the girls played a hard fought match against HCJC >.< By the time Elaine and I got there the boys had finished playing with a score of 3-2 while we only managed to watch the last doubles match, which was played by shiyan and jinwei. SO anyway they fought really hard and made a comeback till they won with a score of 6-4, making RJ's score for the girls 3-2 as well. THAT WAS THE DECIDING MATCH, glad that I managed to catch it! (: I waited till 7 for him then we cabbed back. The cab fare was like ouch can. Thanks for paying dear, it's all these little things you do that really touch me!

4. In total, Raffles has won 9 gold medals in two days, which means we've won 9 out of 10 finals in three days (: Rugby, double badminton, double tennis, netball, soccer, bowling boys (or was it girls?), and hockey. I managed to catch the tennis finals, a little of badminton finals and that's it. I badly wanted to watch my fellow team mates play HCI for netball, but stupid GP common test didn't allow me to do so. Apparently it was a really exciting match, pity I couldn't see it ): Oh and because something cropped up, I couldn't catch AMANDA SOH play during badminton finals! I felt soooo bad I tell you, by the time I got back her match was over, so the girls won with an astounding score of 5-0 while the boys, 3-0. Netballers won with a score of 53-42 YAY for them, their hard work has definitely paid off.

5. I was at my uncle's house this weekend and guess what! (: HE GOT ME MY iPOD! *grins widely* yay it's so sexy I tell you! BUT AH, my lousy computer is not having enough space to download ipod and the third party floola software i is wanting to download. SHEESH THIS IS WHY I NEED A LAPTOP. OH my ipod doesn't come with a charger simply cause USB 2.0 ports have power so I plug it into the computer and it charges o.O I"m just so amazed. LOL I sound like some country bumpkin, me is not liking that!

ANYWAY I went for a tan at SICC today! And I'm sunburnt AGAIN, I'm so easily tanned/burnt. I need to go shopping soon to get my ipod accessories and get my grandmother's birthday present as well as my uncle's! HIS BIRTHDAY PARTY IS AT BUTTER FACTORY. o.O EEKS oral tomorrow afternoon and then I've got training till what six or seven. OH track camp is next monday and my family's going to malaysia to celebrate my grandmother's birthday from thursday to saturday/sunday so I won't be in Singapore.

Sorry YL and elaine for postponing our girls' day out. ): I shall quickly find another date girls! Oh I slept at 5 on the 20th rushing international history assignment, I hope I did it well enough. Did I mention that the next day during chem lecture while I was ORDERED TO SLEEP BY MANY (cause they all found out I slept at five), HE copied very comprehensive chem notes for me? (: I was so touched, I wanted to give him a hug there and then, but oh wells school is school! : | <3 to him for always being there for me. (:

I miss him. It's gonna be weird not seeing him everyday in school during this holiday. AND OMG I FORGOT TO MENTION, doubles match today 6-1,6-1. 45 minutes game hee, I'm proud of you dear. <3 Hmm I REALLY SHOULD GO DOWN AND WATCH YOU PLAY ONE DAY. WATCH OUT. I MEAN, DON'T. I'll hide in some corner where I can see EVERYTHING. HAHAHA *EVIL LAUGH*

OKIE DOKIE, happy holidays to everyone! I is going to sleep now before I kill myself for chinese oral tomorrow. Argh who here doesn't dread this blasted thing called CHINESE ORAL. PFFT. NIGHTS!

2007-05-21T23:54:00.000+08:00

GOSH I've got so much to blog about! OK here goes! (:

RPROJECT!
Great company, everything was pretty ESPECIALLY HIOK. :D Mr Vadi and his wife were really funny on the runway, and yes nicole rocked the catwalk! GO GIRL! The seats were pretty badly arranged though. WE could hardly see anything without obstructing the view of someone else >.<>.<>.<

I can't seem to forget what happened yesterday. Tell me again, whisper to me that it's meant to be. That all the negative feelings will soon pass and that this'll work out. I'm scared. ): goodnight to you. please tell me that you're at least dreaming sweet dreams now. If the world doesn't give you the satisfaction and happiness you deserve, thank god for sweet dreams.

*points to the funny faces* this is where the rest of my post is supposed to be, but it's gone now. ARGH damn blogger. I'm so annoyed annoyed annoyed! RAH.

2007-05-15T01:16:00.000+08:00

HEY ALL! (:

It's like how late and tomorrow's econs lecture test but I've decided to take a breather before I continue with whatever I decide to do. HUR. Anyway as people already know, thanks to random dude, I met him at Great World City yesterday. And I got sent home again today YAY. Anyway yesterday was extremely hilarious. I tried to contain my laughter and grins. It was actually really difficult. my brother told me that there was this woman in WH who was wearing a newspaper skirt, and he was laughing at her. He pointed her out to me, and lo and behold, guess whose mother that is! OMG I tried not to burst into laughter there and then. I could've sworn she stared at me, she recognises me for sure LOL. Then we coincidentally met at nike, just when I was messaging him to tell him where I was. Too coincidental for comfort. HAHA.

UNAS was an utter bore, I was far too tired to try and concentrate so I ended up getting distracted for all the wrong reasons, talking to people and just staring at every other thing except the speaker and the slides LOL. It's already quite a waste of time in that sense. I could've at least slept if I was at home. Then I would've been able to mug my ass off. Oh the opportunity cost of going for that damn seminar. ON TOP OF THAT, it ended later than expected and it was pouring outside. >.< But maybe, just maybe if I hadn't been that exhausted, UNAS would've seemed a lot more interesting. After all, the UN has always intrigued me. Oh I did like the workshop best out of everything we did there anyway. It was the single closest thing to being fun. PLUS, Daniel's video was gruesome and disturbing but the message was put brutaly across. Forgotten refugees from wars ): Wish to help, but not strong enough to do so.

Today I got back my math assignment and yeah I turned emo for half a period. It's always the case where I think I know what I'm doing but it turns out all wrong. Or, I work so hard and nothing comes out of it. I end up failing REALLY miserably, trust me I've never felt so discouraged in my entire life. BUT, I've seen past that and yes I've been reminded yet again that I need to do something about it. I wrote a letter to myself to make myself wake up (DUMB BUT I FELT TENFOLD BETTER AFTER THAT). CTs are in a month's time (cries, it falls on my birthday) and I'm far from my desired target/outcome. SO YES, PROCRASTINATION STOPS TODAY. IT'S OK TO GET DISTRACTED OCCASIONALLY, BUT WORK IS WORK. FOCUS ON END POINT. (:

GP video was disturbing, revolting, pissing. Too many profanities for me, too much violence. I'm fully aware of all these problems in society, must we really watch this video which makes it ALL visual, contains vulgarities and erm shows us the wrong things seriously. BUT I'm curious to see the end of it, like whether the alcoholic and wife-beater father will change for the better after his daughter's suicide. It's really quite sad that these things do happen in reality. I actually walked out of class to go to the washroom to avoid parts of the video which I didn't want to watch. Apparently they showed almost everything for the rape scene. -.- like that was absolutely necessary? AH forget the inconsequential video. I'm more worried bout my GP marks!

Well yes, things do get better and better as the days pass. It's getting late and I'm not exactly doing work and not absorbing. The dumb thing is too profound and technical for me to understand, even more so at this time of the day.

OMG I blogged too late to say this, but: HAPPY THREE MONTHS DEAR. <3 thanks for everything. Literally EVERYTHING. (:

2007-05-13T17:08:00.000+08:00

GUESS WHO I SAW AT GREAT WORLD CITY TODAY!! MELISSA LAW SHUEH LI!! GUESS WHO I SAW YESTERDAY AT UNAS!! MELISSA LAW SHUEH LI!! GUESS WHO I SAW THE DAY BEFORE YESTERDAY AT BUKIT TIMAH.. MELISSA LAW SHUEH LI!! GUESS WHO I SEE ALMOST EVERYDAY EVER SINCE 7th January.. MELISSA LAW SHUEH LI!! woops this aint my blog.. erh.. oh yar.. its MELISSA LAW SHUEH LI's BLOG.. OUCH... MY BAD MY BAD.. GUESS IM OUT OF HERE.. unknown dude.. over and out.. 1 more thing.. GUESS WHO IM SEEING FOR THE REST OF MY LIFE!! well thats a give away.. hint hint.. it aint a boy named jules... :D *woops another give away..* haha LAWLZ... >.<

The thought of u not being by my side... impossible.. <3

2007-05-06T23:34:00.000+08:00

SATURDAY:
LUNCH AND SPIDERMAN 3! Sad plot actually, but excellent graphics. Watch it cause they'll amaze you! I was pissed with SPIDEY actually, tsk. Anyway the company was great and it's actually made us even closer in my opinion. (: MR VADI LIED -.- tsk tsk, he's so cheeky!

Day out with family at vivocity. Window shopping again ): great to see nice clothes, but sad that I can't buy them. PFFT. Then came home and tried to do work, but failed miserably.

SUNDAY aka TODAY!:
Really excellent day that I can't put down into words, the best weekend so far - A SEVEN DAY WEEK WITH YOU. How much more excellent can that get? Park, Thomson Plaza, Han's, journey home. (: I realise that actually memories that you wish to keep on the internet doesn't actually stay forever. You can't keep these memories there forever, it's gone with just one click yes? Especially if you decide to change blogs and stuff like that. It's still better to use the conventional method of keeping a diary (BUT I'M LAZYYYYY) or even better (THE SLACKER'S WAY) don't do anything - it stays in your brain naturally. *marvels at the human brain*

PW meeting with candice, elaine, prem and amanda lim! (: the most productive we've ever been since the start. I'm just extremely relieved that we've got our plans and GPP done, even our reading list is done! (: I was initially so very worried for PW. I mean it's THAT important, at the rate we were going, it didn't seem like we were on our way to our A, contrary to what others thought of our group. Now I feel like a weight as been lifted off my shoulders YAY!

Then I went home with YOU again. Hee, like someone says: OMG, he's a keeper Mel, he's a keeper. YES I SO AGREE. I've known that for a long time now. I think i'm more appreciative than that, and yes I don't want to lose you. WHY WOULD I BE DUMB ENOUGH TO LEAVE YOU AND CAUSE MYSELF HURT? STOP WORRYING PLEASE?

Then I came home, had dinner, slept till nine, woke up and got told news that's a shocker. Kinda. I did think it was possible, but i brushed it aside.

It's tragic how things can't stay as they are, perfect and happy. I knew the moment I was walking home that something bad was going to happen. Call it sixth sense or whatever, but I knew the day/week was far too perfect and something just had to happen, just to keep the balance of life. However, I must say that it's commendable how we always manage to work things out and you just make things right again. I hope this NEVER changes. NEVER EVER.

Sorry this post is weird. LOL, I just don't know what I'm doing. HAHA, HAPPY GP-ING 7B! LET'S KICK ASS TOMORROW! TATA~

I can't see myself without you by my side, do you not understand that?

NIGHTNIGHT WORLD, HELLO DREAMLAND, HELLO YOU.

2007-05-04T23:30:00.000+08:00

I stayed up till 4.30 yesterday doing my SEA assignment. It's times like these where I hate being a perfectionist. But I emerged feeling a whole lot of satisfaction and achievement which I doubt I would've felt without being so particular about my essay and revising it over and over again. Overall I thought I put in more effort this time round as compared to the last essay. Hopefully the marks are proportional to the effort I put in. (:

Sometimes boys are really so dumb, they stay up till five playing PSP. FOR WHAT? To try and beat BYAKUYA without losing a single life. =.= GOD SAVE ME. *slaps forehead* I have a retarded/dumb/lame best friend and a *insert word* boyfriend. SEE I CAN'T EVEN FIND A WORD TO DESCRIBE HIM. LOL he relied on ONE HOUR'S sleep to sustain him thorughout 6 hours of school and 2 hours of training after. BUT, thanks dear for staying up (: I love you both many many!

YAY tomorrow's spiderman 3! SSHH I'm supposed to be asleep but I think I slept too much in the afternoon. I shall run along now and sleep before it hits midnight. NIGHTNIGHT WORLD, HELLO DREAMLAND, HELLO YOU.

2007-05-03T22:27:00.000+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY EUGENE NG WEI YANG, MUSKETEER AND MY SPECIAL FRIEND! YOU'RE SEVENTEEN! *GASP* YOU OLD MAN! LOL. (: THANKS FOR ALWAYS BEING THERE FOR ME AND ALWAYS BEING SUCH A WONDERFUL LISTENING EAR! MEL WISHES YOU ALL THE BEST WITH *AHEM* AND IN RJ! BOY AM I GLAD WE'RE BOTH FINALLY IN THE SAME SCHOOL! HAHA SEE YOU TOMORROW! MUAHAHAHA!

AND BACK TO SEA HISTORY ASSIGNMENT IT IS! ERM 1200 MORE WORDS TO GO. *CLAPS EXCITEDLY* I AM A HAPPY GIRL TODAY. HEE HEE.

HOW I WISH TIME COULD JUST FREEZE EVERY TIME I'M WITH YOU. <3

2007-04-29T23:16:00.000+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY EUNICE TANDIONO! (: OMG I MISS YOU LOADS.
THANKS FOR FOUR YEARS OF WONDERFUL FUN, LAUGHS AND HEART TO HEARTS! <3 HOPE I'LL BE ABLE TO SEE YOU SOON AND CATCH UP! OMG YOU'RE OF LEGAL DRINKING AGE NOW! *JEALOUS* HAHAHA, LOVES TO YOU! ALL THE BEST!

2007-04-29T19:34:00.000+08:00

i wonder who this blog belongs to... HMMMM!!! HELLO!! IM JUST SOME RANDOM PERSON INVADING THIS BLOG DONT MIND ME!!! :D what to say about MELISSA LAW SHUEH LI... other than the fact that she is smarter than me hmmmm lol i guess she can be quite dumb at times WAKAKAKAX LOL! see you soon in school MELISSA LAW!! O.o wait i spelt that wrongly.. haha WE ALL KNOW WHY!! :D see you in school!!

LOTS OF LOVE
SOME RANDOM PERSON

Wounds take time to heal.. but the scar u left on me can't heal with time..

2007-04-28T20:19:00.000+08:00

Yay yay! My life is full of joy and love! I tell you, i have the best BFS around man! Today, my 2 BFS went out to study and we laugh like nobody's business! Overall it was fun! I tried this yucky salad at coffee bean.. Eeeeeee i tell you! It's just plain yucky! We manage to finish up econs even though i did like only the introduction because i was on the phone with a friend :) Sigh if only life was so much simpler... Oh well, we just have to pray and hope for the best right? Anyway * I just love to Digress hee hee* I got sent home again YAY! :) I tell u i'm just so lucky to have such great friends like elaine, yilin and julian who are always there for me when i need them. THANKS! Meli loves u all many many! ARGH! I just hope next week will be better than this week, though it's quite ungrateful of me to ask for more when i already have what i want in life :)

I wish you were here so that i could hold your hand, I wish you were here so that i could be in your arms, I wish you were here so that i could just be with you... <3

2007-04-27T23:51:00.000+08:00

OMG TGIF! :D Just to sum up the entire week...
1. I didn't fail chem mock SPA! AHMAGAWD, it's not excellent at all. I scraped it, but i'm glad i didn't fail!
2. I didn't train this entire week cause it rained. Elaine scolded me ):
3. ME: Elaine, don't you think kicking stuff around is fun?
ELAINE: NO
ME: WHY?
PERSON A: Cause it's dumb.
ME: BUT GUYS KICK STUFF AROUND ALL THE TIME! (ESP SINCE THEY HAVE OBSESSION WITH SOCCER BALLS) *stops myself short since i realised i was standing in the midst of all boys school RI and that i was rather loud*
4. I finally managed to set foot into VELOCITY AT NOVENA SQUARE! But i hardly spent much time there. MET LYNETTE FOO! Nice to see her again (:
5. Played handball with the girls of 7B and the other class (can't remember what class they're from), as well as Hiok and Julian. I TELL YOU, THE 7B GIRLS+ HIOK WON! : D boys can be annoying/dumb. HAHAHA I KID. They made us run so much. *scowls* BOO.

That's basically the interesting stuff that happened this week.
UP NEXT WEEK: CHEM SPA! SEA HISTORY ASSIGNMENT!
BOOOO, SAVE ME ): I think I must've been a feminist in my past life. HUR HUR.

YAY TO THE WORLD FOR EXCELLENT ANGELIC FRIENDS! <3

2007-04-21T20:02:00.000+08:00

LOL I've been ordered to write something happy to express and prove that i'm feeling much better.

FIRSTLY, I would like to thank all those who made me feel better. GOSH, I've got wonderful friends. How many times have they made my day already! (:

SECONDLY, here's my random list of why YOU are lucky to have me as your gf:
1. i am a dumb blonde, i boost your ego lol
2. i'm retarded, my actions will always make you laugh
3. i'm gullible and i'll always fall for your trap. then you can laugh again.
4. we're so similar, whatever you like i'll most probably like it too (makes buying presents a lot easier yes?)
5. i laugh at everything, it's easy to cheer me up
6. i definitely won't cheat on you.
7. i'm a good listener. i love listening to people's problems.
8. just because i love you THAT much (:
9. because i know what you're gonna say, before you say it. or i'll say it exactly at the same time you do.
10. cause no matter what you do, i'll still love you. (yes i'm that dumb)

i can't think of anymore though i can think of plenty of negative reasons. HA. it took me how long just to type this post out lol.

THIRDLY I wanna thank more people!
Augustine Law for being retarded and doing stupid things just to make me feel better, and offering to wallop whoever it was that made me sad. ( so sweet of this 9 year old yes?) and also for telling the adults that i was crying. GOODNESS, at that moment i wanted to kill him. BUT OTHERWISE NO ONE WOULD'VE COMFORTED ME AND MADE ME FEEL LOVED <3.

My grandmother for reminding me how important it is to have faith and remember that the LORD is always there for me. I realise this is what i get for drifting away from God. ): TIME TO REBOND WITH GOD! SHE's SO sweet all the time, from cooking my favourite food, to boiling sweet potato soup with lots of sago for me when she knew i had a sore throat to boiling bird's nest for me cause i have a weak immune system.

MY MUMMY-even though she didn't comfort me, she wanted to know if i needed help with schoolwork and stuff like that. (: and for the times that she's just so silly and funny. those are the times when i forget that she's the strict mum that i'm so scared of everytime and erm sometimes ruins my life. those are the times i wish would continue till forever, where she doesn't have to scold me and we don't have to have unpleasant things to be angry about.

2007-04-21T17:36:00.000+08:00

it's one of those days when you're crying but you don't know why. tears just keep falling.
it's one of those days when you think everything is your fault and you feel really horrible.
it's one of those days when you think of past memories.
it's one of those days when not knowing how to do your math pisses you off even more.

i'm changing and i'm scared. i don't want to change cause it'll affect so many things in my life. my priorities are changing. Yet if i don't, it'll make you suffer. it'll compromise our time together. i know being upset now is also making YOU suffer, but at this moment i can't seem to make myself try and pretend that everything's all right. my mum won't comfort me lol. as usual, she scolds me. HAHA, big surprise.

sometimes knowing that you love that person isn't enough.

2007-04-20T23:44:00.000+08:00

HA, forget 30 points. I screwed it up. If I don't retake 2.4, i'll have 27 points. my muscles were still aching like shit from track and gymming session on tuesday, so i died. only thing i'm happy with is my SBJ. highest in class! 205cm. Not excellent but my best so far. DAMN IPU, my arms were still aching so i did 17 and A is 18. BLOODY HELL. SIGH 27 points to me is SICK SHIT. DAMN IT, i've been screwing up everything this entire week. I nearly cried today, IN SCHOOL. I never do that unless completely necessary, COME ON I didn't even cry when i didn't get into council. Doing badly academically affects me a whole lot.

To top it all off, I found out stuff this week which i'm SO not supposed to know. And i didn't really wanna know anyway. GREAT WEEK I TELL YOU. But that wasn't so bad i guess. Ultimately, doing badly in school matters that much more.

My brain feels like it's been tampered with. HAHA i don't know what the hell goes through my head now. I can't think, i can't absorb, it's freaking annoying especially when i really need it to be in optimum working condition now.

I went raffles city just now, just because i felt like it. JUST BECAUSE i needed to get away from some stuff. LIKE WORK. RALPH LAUREN IS THE LOVE. I LOVE THE CLOTHES THERE. Pity i don't come from a rich family. it'll be excellent to own clothes from there <3

Then I came home and was supposed to talk to someone who happened to fall asleep ): sigh. EAT CORNFLAKES AND FALL ASLEEP. I GOTTA TELL ELAINE THAT. wait, she already knows.

ARGH CRAP, i hope next week will be so much better. If this goes on, i don't know how much longer i can keep my fake smile. HA, i just remembered yet again what a certain someone told me in the past bout this. GREAT.

2007-04-19T22:14:00.000+08:00

STUPID 2.4
STUPID ECONS LECTURE TEST
STUPID CHEM MOCK SPA
STUPID NAFPA FIVE ITEMS TOMORROW. I'D BETTER GET 25 POINTS. AT LEAST CAN GET 28 IN TOTAL. OR I COULD RETAKE 2.4 AND GET MY WELL DESERVED 30 POINTS.

I'M SO SCREWED I TELL YOU. I DON'T KNOW WTH I'M DOING WITH MY LIFE NOW. MY PRIORITIES HAVE GONE COMPLETELY HAYWIRE. I CAN'T COPE I REALLY CAN'T. I'VE NOT READ MY LECTURE NOTES SINCE FOREVER, I'M DOING BADLY AT EVERY SINGLE TEST, ESPECIALLY CHEM. SHIT I UNDERSTAND MY STUFF BUT WHY CAN'T I DO WELL! ):

2007-04-12T21:18:00.000+08:00

BEING SICK SUCKS ): PLEASE PRAY FOR MELISSA SO THAT SHE WON'T FLUNK HER NAPFA SINCE SHE'S NOT TRAINED/DONE ANY PHYSICAL ACTIVITY THIS ENTIRE WEEK, PLUS LIKE BEING SICK MAKES HER ALL THE MORE UNFIT. SIGH. ACTUALLY I STILL WANNA GET A FOR EVERYTHING. ARGH. 30 POINTS, MEL!

I missed two days of school completely due to my sickness. Had a fever on sunday followed by continued nausea that carries on until today. Now it's officially my indicator of how tired i am. I get it when i'm super exhausted or when it's time to sleep. HAHA FUNNY RIGHT. That's the only thing that deters me from sleeping late now. Cause the moment i sleep later than one, i get it real bad in the morn. YUCK, imagine wanting to throw up every morning.

There's econs lecture test next tuesday and it's an essay test. Hope i don't fail it. Then PI is also due on friday next week. Then the week after that is packed with SEA history presentation for ELAINE AND I; GP essay test. THEN WEEK 7 there's SPA AND MATH TUTORIAL TEST. SHEESH. I think this list of tests will continue to go on all the way till the start of june holidays. TIME IS ZOOMING PAST. Before we know it, it'll be CTs then promos. It's really scary >.< I'm seriously not doing how much I want to/should be doing in order to get anything near a decent grade at promos. I signed up for H3 history and I've just waiting for RJ's approval or is it NUS'? ANYHOO, I'll need at least a grade B for history plus 2H2 passes and one H1 pass i think. NOT entirely sure. I HOPE I GET MORE THAN THAT. That is really the bare minimum, which i've never aimed to get. It's always a lot more.

I shall go shower now. I'm sick and i'm showering so late. My mum's gonna kill me lol.

Each time i see you, it completes my heart.

2007-04-06T23:16:00.000+08:00

OK whatever i said in the previous post regarding the comment issue, has been clarified and resolved. (: mel is a happy girl once more. YAY it feels really good to clear things up. THAT MATTER IS NOW BEHIND US. :D HAPPY EASTER EVERYONE!

MAY THE GOOD GOD BLESS YOU AND YOUR FAMILIES.

2007-04-06T11:58:00.001+08:00

I MISS IJ ): I want all our masses and morning hymns and my friends and teachers and ARGH.

I saw Jess last saturday while I was at J8. She was at MOS with her classmates after 2.4 ARGH I miss all girls' outing like we used to have in IJ all the time! SO ANYWAY, i gave her a GIGANTIC BEAR HUG AND I BET PEOPLE THOUGHT WE WERE MAD. I THINK I SCARED THE PEOPLE AT MOS BY SHOUTING 'JESSICA TEO!' OOPS. did a short catch up with her and TADA! we giggled as usual. HEE. only she and I know what we were giggling about. :D

I didn't get into council, but I just wanted to thank many many people for comforting me, for all the hugs and sweet words, for all the fun times i had while campaigning. ESPECIALLY the days/hours i spent in school on SATURDAY AND SUNDAY. It's actually the first time i had to do that. it really felt cool.

MRS CHIA is the best i tell you. She actually talked to me and made me feel so much better. There were so many times while people were comforting me and i wanted to cry, but i seriously held my tears back. don't ask me why, I just didn't want to cry and yeah i succeeded in doing so. OK SPECIAL thanks go out to ELAINE AND JULIAN, who spent the whole of Tuesday and Wednesday making sure that I was feeling ok. We even left econs aside to go j8 and make me happy. (:

There were so many things I could've done if i had gotten into council that i was hoping would really be like that of IJ's. Knowing that I can't experience that same thing really sucks, and I miss IJ all the more that way. When i was interviewed I told them i was hoping to find the same thing in RJ's students' council. ): Actually since MRS CHIA interviewed me as well, and for her to say that she really wanted me to get in, is really flattering. BUT NEVER MIND, i should totally get over this now. at least i have more time for studies and track. TRAIN HARD AND REPRESENT RJ, MELISSA.

This week was kinda screwed up actually. ECONS TEST (which i undoubtedly screwed up again), EMOTIONAL INSTABILITIES ETC ETC ETC. I got so mentally tired. I actually slept rather early this entire week. The latest i slept was 1.30, the earliest at 11.00! SUCH AN ACHIEVEMENT RIGHT? But i felt exhausted all the same and slept the moment i came home from a movie with my parents at vivocity's GV yesterday, which was at 12.

On a more serious note, people still ask me why I'm so nice to ____. I guess it's just me. I couldn't give them an answer, not now not ever.

Another shocker of the week: my relatively good friend of four years actually spoke ill of me and i got wind of it. EXCUSE ME, please think before you decide to make such a stupid/baseless/unappreciated comment, thank you. You knew me for four years and yet you think that lowly of me? It's quite heartbreaking. You weren't that close to me i know, so if you're not sure what I'm like, please keep your mouth shut. If you had said that in front of a whole room of MY FRIENDS, they'll know for themselves if you're speaking the truth. BUT IN FRONT OF SOMEONE WHO JUST GOT TO KNOW ME AND HARDLY AT THAT? You're stirring up a whole lot of trouble and screwing up people's lives, thank you. DID YOU THINK THAT I WOULDN'T KNOW? COME ON. I seriously expected a lot more from you. I've always been proud of who you are, always defending you in front of people who dislike you and I've been stabbed in the back just like that. You're lucky I'm still hoping that whatever you did wasn't intentional and I still decide to forget this matter. You're lucky i'm not in your school. Cause there are quite a few people who wish to screw your life up RIGHT NOW. ARGH why do i even bother.

Should I take H3 history/econs? :|

2007-03-13T21:37:00.000+08:00

MARCH HOLIDAYS: Been a blast so far. This is probably the first time I'm actually not staying home to do work. Instead I've been going for track training (LIKE OMG FINALLY) and spending time with my two best friends (: I'm sorry i'm lazy to update. And Melissa is actually going off to malaysia on friday till sunday. So please refrain from messaging/calling her during that period. Melissa shall update her blog properly after all exciting events are over. I'm really quite tired, but such a happy girl I tell you. On the other hand, I'm scared cause I've really not done much work at all. I have like the whole of Thursday plus tomorrow afternoon to complete all my homework. I'm not looking forward to that at all!

BTW, I got a Border's gift card (with $80 credit!) from Aunty Karen for my good results, plus I'm probably getting an iPOD from uncle chris and aunty jessie for my good results as well. Boy is it great to have O levels (NOT). OH OH OH track training is embarrassing. I can't get the drills right and i therefore humiliate myself infront of the entire team! >.< Anyway, since it was my first training, I got put with the 'LOSER GANG' (quotes Julian) yet again. replay of events yes? oh well, I shall train hard and KICK ASS I tell you. HMPH. or else, I'll kick ass in council. Either way is fine by me. :D I can safely say that I run faster than the other few in the 'LOSER GANG', but I know that my running techniques are non-existent that's why. My hands aren't swinging correctly, my legs are not being thrown out and I don't use the balls of my foot apparently (AMONG MANY OTHER FAULTS BTW), while running. SHEESH, have I got a lot to improve on! Seriously the drills make any one look retarded. I miss netball already ): ARGH I can't imagine not being able to play it at all, I'll be devastated!~Then i'll crave it EVERYDAY. That is sure to annoy the shit out of Gillian, cause I'll make sure we play captain's ball/netball for every PE lesson. -grins!

OMG, that was a rather long post for a unproper update! *pauses to think* OH HECK.

2007-03-05T22:47:00.000+08:00

YAY MEL had a wondeful day at school today, despite the fact that she had to hand in TWO FREAKING 2000 WORD ESSAYS FOR HISTORY ASSIGNMENT, and the fact that she thinks she screwed up econs test with her BULLSHIT (EVEN FROM GEOG YA'LL!) -.- TRUTHFULLY, I do miss that subject. I always had an inclination for it. But seriously speaking, it doesn't take me anymore unless I decide to be a geologist or something along that line. Come to think of it, history doesn't really take me far as well. Besides the fact that it stimulates my thinking and makes me SMARTER! LIKE MRS ANNABEL CHIA (THE IJ HISTORY TEACHER) SAYS: SMART PEOPLE TAKE HISTORY! -GRINS. Well so anyway, my weekend was just saturated with history. BOTH SEA AND INTERNATIONAL. EEKS, don't think I'll touch those for a week! I slept really late for THREE nights consecutively, ALL IN THE NAME OF HISTORY. SHEESH.

OK, so today for history we had a POP QUIZ! not exactly POP, but yeah a quiz nonetheless. IT WAS AWESOME! I had so much fun that on the way home I had to prevent myself from grinning and laughing to myself while thinking about what happened during the quiz. HAHAHA, MRS CHIA (THE RJC HISTORY TEACHER NOW) IS THE MOST HILARIOUS TEACHER AROUND. Her joke about Kern wanting to be either Mother Mary of Joseph with his blue towel thing draped around his head was AB-SOLUTELY HILARIOUS. (NOTE AB. It's a class joke. I laughed so hard I swear I'll get abs in no time!) As usual, the WOMENFOLK OF S07B PWNED the MENFOLK OF S07B's ASSES. :D YAY. It was really enjoyable!

Subsequently, I spent the whole time in the canteen CRACKING JOKES AND LAUGHING MY HEAD OFF AGAIN. Like seriously, today is un-officially 'TICKLE-ME-PINK-WITH-JOKES' DAY. Even in the lift, Amanda Soh, OLI, YILIN, ELAINE and I were laughing so hard, that when the lift door opened at the 6th floor (we were on the way to the 7th for chem and SEA tutorial), a teacher waiting for the lift said indignantly: "you do know this is a school right, KEEP IT DOWN." We hardly took notice of her and just apologised profusely. When the lift door closed, we just simply burst out in laughter again. LIKE WHAT A GREAT DAY! I laughed till I cried (which isn't very difficult to achieve, but I haven't done that in a long time) at Yi-Lin's JOKE: WHAT DID THE DOG SAY TO THE TREE? ANSWER: BARK. HAHAHAHAHA I still think it's funny. AND AND AND TOOMBA! That is just hilarious. (:

I realise that I've not updated everyone about council interview either. I think it was all right, could've been worse and better at the same time. I got MRS CHIA, SRUTHI (BB CAPTAIN!) AND JASON (COUNCIL HEAD OMG) as my interviewers. Rather lucky to get Mrs Chia I suppose. They asked plenty of questions, some of which did stump me (because I never really prepared for it and also that they were shocking questions). Hopefully I did well enough to make it to the campaigners' list. That will be simply delightful. I could've sworn Jason thinks I'm weird. He kept frowning throughout the interview. Not a good sign in my opinion yeah. Oh well.

Anyway, I've got lots of homework to complete for the last week of school. ): at least the short break is approaching! Hopefully I'll be able to catch up then! CIAO!

2007-02-28T00:15:00.000+08:00

THINGS NEVER TO DO WHEN I'M FEELING EMOTIONAL:
1. READ through that DAMN book
2.TALK about past failures
3. BLAME myself for EVERYTHING
4. THINK ABOUT IJ
5 START MISSING FRIENDS
6. LISTEN to SAD SONGS
7. LOOK through PICTURES
8. RECALL huge pile of work waiting for me
9. WATCH sad shows
10. REMINDING myself of my melancholy
11. TRY crying
12. FAIL to cry
13. ANOTHER failure. GREAT.

URGH.

2007-02-26T19:56:00.000+08:00

TODAY is officially 'lets-be-sick-and-not-go-to-school' day. I MEAN, STEFFI AND I DIDN'T GO TO SCHOOL. ON THE SAME DAY! stupid flu viruses. ): poor steffi is feeling much worse than I am though, with her fever and everything. Having a flu isn't that bad, but the stupid medication makes me like dizzy and headachy. *grumbles* I think it's the clarinase. Great that it's non-drowsy and everything, but it's a little too strong for poor me I suppose. BUT LIKE, IT'S SUGAR COATED! *gasp* OMG YAY.

I spent my entire weekend being a complete loser with a rudolph red nose (and it's not even christmas yet!) Everyone's been such an angel these few days, asking me if I'm all right and all. Thanks a lot! Mel appreciates it. (: Tomorrow's IJ's thanksgiving mass, but I doubt I'm going. It'll be illegal to do so, since most of the colleges disallow their students to skip school for such an occasion. According to Jianhao, Val got CWO for skipping school for three days! It's rather stringent of them really.

RAH I WANNA GO! ):
GUESS WHAT! Due this week is:
1. chinese presentation and 1500 word report on CHINATOWN -.-
2. International history assignment
3. SEA history assignment

OMG PLEASE. >.<

2007-02-18T19:40:00.000+08:00

HAPPY LUNAR NEW YEAR ONE AND ALL (: MAY THIS YEAR BE FILLED WITH HAPPINESS, PROSPERITY AND SUCCESS! ENJOY THE FEW DAYS OF 'HOLIDAY'! (even though we're piled with lots of work plus a chemistry test when we get back, tsk)

NOTE TO SELF: I need a new book to keep my happy memories now. The other one I had should be burnt in the depths of hell. My inbox is FULL of messages I wanna keep. Need to clear them out soon.

FRIDAY
TAKE 5 AT CCAB. CONGRATS to TRIAD for winning first! YAY, I SUPPORT TRIAD. HARDCORE FAN :D Went out with class for lunch at KAP MACS after that. We actually stood in the sweltering heat for a few hours that day, which resulted in a sunburn for me and most of the girls. FOR ONCE, I was at a place VERY CLOSE TO MY HOUSE. So I took about 10 minutes to reach home. AND I GOT SENT HOME (: YAY.

I went to BUTTER FACTORY! It was a night filled with hot dance hits, cool moves, SOMETHING UNPLEASANT, and lots and lots of SMOKE. Don't even get me started on how badly my clothes and hair smelt of smoke after that. UNBEARABLE I TELL YOU, my eyes were starting to tear after a few hours there. HOWEVER, I have to really credit the DJs of BUTTER FACTORY. They're superb, and rumour has it that they're superb EVERY NIGHT. KUDOS TO THEM. I felt so damn high that night. Went there at around 11 and reached home at 4, showered and plopped myself onto the bed immediately, therefore catching a cold ): I had drinks but didn't get drunk of course. In fact, I was surprised by my soberness. Well I stayed over at my uncle's place till saturday then left for home for REUNION DINNER.

SATURDAY
Chinatown-ing with Julian to get pictures and all for our chinese project. Kenny and Shunta (aka FU JUN) couldn't make it, so the two of us had to do it. Anyway, it was really hot again and despite our exhaustion, we both had fun. Talking lots of rubbish, having lunch and all. Finished off early so we headed to town to get his shirts. OMG TOPSHOP, GAP = LOVE. TOPMAN HAS NICE STUFF (for guys of course) Then, I got sent home AGAIN.

SUNDAY
Spent the day at my grandmother's place, playing JINRUMMY! YAY the game is just wonderful. Even though I lost almost every other game and ended up being the loser, I had fun laughing my heart out while my whole family cheated in the game. I can safely say I was the one with the most integrity! YET I LOST. THE WORLD ISN'T FAIR. HAHAHA I'M KIDDING. One day I really need to teach my family how to play bridge. SO THAT WHEN MY CARDS AREN'T GOOD ENOUGH FOR JINRUMMY, I CAN SIMPLY SWITCH TO PLAY BRIDGE. YAY I LIKE MY IDEA.

ANYWAY, I realised I've NOT DONE ANY WORK AT ALL. ): SOOO DEAD. SO, I'm off to try to get some work done before I end up been skewered by my teachers. TATA! <3

2007-02-14T21:47:00.000+08:00

1. COMMITTMENT
2. HEART OF SERVICE.

I can fulfill two, BUT WHAT ABOUT ONE? I want to join student council so badly, but can I afford to put it first, instead of netball and track? CAN I COPE WITH THE WORK LOAD AND EXTRA ACTIVITIES? GERMAINE'S PULLING OUT I THINK. BUT STEFFI IS RUNNING! I WANNA RUN TOO!

VALENTINE'S DAY TODAY! THANKS EVERYONE! :D SO HYPER AND EVERYTHING. Especially since: STEFFI LOVES ME YAY! being stamped 20 times on me! EVEN MY LEG. HOW HOT! KIDDING, I shan't scare people with my narcissism. AHHH even though there's econs essay test tomorrow and like I've not started reading anything and that my econs is such a loser, I'M DAMN HYPER AND HIGH AND HAPPY. WHEEEEE! (: REALLY EXCELLENT DAY. YAY.

PT tomorrow, plus ECONS TEST! HAHA, SOMEONE'S REALLY REALLY HAPPY.

SIGNING OFF! :D

2007-02-11T15:08:00.000+08:00

OMG JESSICA TEO, HAPPY BIRTHDAY TOO. MY BAD! >.< LOTS OF LOVE TO YOU, HAPPY SWEET SIXTEEN GIRL! (: ENJOY YOUR DAY AND HAVE A GREAT WEEK AHEAD. SEE YOU DURING INVESTITUREEEE! :D

2007-02-11T14:17:00.000+08:00

YAY the fear, anxiety and EVERYTHING is over, leaving just the elation from friday (: I just wanna thank SOOO many people for helping me through O's and the beginning of this year, especially after _____ and just before the release of results. :D

1. TO ELAINE: THANK YOU MY DARRLINGGG. YAY I'M YOUR VALENTINE! Thanks for all your comforting words, your hugs, your little note to me on thursday during GP and all your little insider INFORMATION. HUR HUR. I LOVE YOU TO BITS AND PIECES GIRL!

2. TO YI-LIN: OMG MOLES! Thanks for being so encouraging and funny all the time. YOU'RE TOO CUTE FOR MEEEE. Lol, I love the cute/hilarious nickname you gave to ... CYCLOPS. *laughs hysterically* THANKS FOR LISTENING TO MY LAMENTS!

3. TO JULIAN: HAHA, you blur blur blur boy. Thanks for being so understanding all the time even though you SUAN me ALL THE TIME. You really make things a lot better and I'm really grateful for that. Thanks for being my study buddy who always motivates me and stresses me out at the same time. (:

4. TO MICHAEL: THANKS MIKE FOR ALWAYS ASKING IF I'M OK AND ASKING ME TO CHEER UP! YOU'RE REALLY REALLY SWEET AND SO THOUGHTFUL!

5. TO 2/1 '04 and the CLIQUE: I LOVE YOU GUYS A LOT! Until now, I still feel the most comfortable with you guys. I'm always having fun with you guys around, laughing my head off during our gossip sessions. I miss all of you! WE SHOULD TOTALLY MEET UP SOON! (: thanks for all the heart to heart talks through these four years. They've always made me feel a lot better. <3

6. TO 4/2 '06 and the RECESS BUNCH: YAY 4/2! WE PULLED THROUGH TOGETHER AS A CLASS! I'm so happy for all of us. You guys have never failed to motivate me (whether on purpose or not) with your competitiveness, without which i couldn't have done better. thanks for all the JUICY GOSSIP SESSIONS especially those after prelims, while we were supposed to be erm...studying our heads off. -grins. THANKS TO THE RECESS BUNCH FOR THE FUN TIMES! especially those before prelim papers, blurting out all the history information from the top of our heads and getting all worked up. ALSO, the times we spent at VIC'S HOUSE. WITH MATTHEW AND VALERIE LAI, OMG THOSE CUTE YET BARBARIC RASCALS HAHAHA. LOTS OF LOVE TO YOU GUYS, I'LL MISS YOU LOTS!

7. TO KUTU BENGKAK AND SALLY WALLY: HAHAHA YOU TWO ARE THE BEST! I LOVE YOU GUYS FOR BITS AND PIECES. Thanks to SALLY for your ingenious ways in which you tease ASTI and I which never fails to make us pout yet makes us marvel at your creativity. THANKS TO ASTI for all your hugs. KUTU SAYA SANGAT CINTA KAMU! I MISS YOU TWO LOADS. TIME TO GO TO SALLY'S HOSTEL (which is not VJ isn't it?) TO PLAYY AND WATCH MORE VCDs/DVDs like 'so close'.

8. TO SSMO!: MY DARLING FELLOW SHEPHERD AND DARLING WANDERING SHEEPS, you guys are the best anyone can ask for. all the fun times in the council room, all the gossip sessions, all the times you guys comforted me especially recently. AND THE TIMES WE SPENT IN GIFTS COMM, talking about chicken little/LIME GREEN! I MISS THOSE TIMES LIKE SHIT. ): prefects/council camp 2006 was the first and most memorable council camp that i went for. THANKS LOADS. I'll always remember all the great times and I hope we'll continue to stay in touch! PLEASE BE MY JUNIORS AGAIN. *hint hint* COME TO RJ! :D clare and jess, you guys are the best juniors. seriously. LOVE YOU BOTH. MARIE, thanks for all the phone chats with you on my way home, while i was sad/dejected/excited and BORED. HAHA. NO WORDS CAN DESCRIBE WHAT I FELT/FEEL when I'm with you guys. The appreciation I have for SSMO can't be put down into words. SO maybe a simple thank you would suffice? :D

9. TO MY PRESENT, 08S07B: OMG YOU GUYS ROCK SOCKS. THE BESTEST MOST FUNNEST CLASS EVER. I LOVE YOU GUYS TRUCKLOADS! Ever so encouraging and bonded, WHO COULD ASK FOR A BETTER CLASS! (: really appreciate all the support and fun times in RAFFLES so far! <3333

10. TO STEFFI: THE CHENG THNG OF LOVE! -grins. CONGRATS GIRL, SIX POINTS! :D SO VERY VERY VERY PROUD OF YOU, TOTALLY ECSTATIC THAT WE'RE STAYING IN RJ. You're such a great, fun friend to be with, I wonder what it'll be like if you weren't in S07B! YAY FOR ALL THE BIMBOTIC TIMES,CHEERS AND JOKES WE HAD (:

11. TO GOD: THANKS FOR ANSWERING MY FRANTIC AND PANICKY PRAYERS. (: I know you've already got my entire life planned out, so please help me to do your will and be a good witness of Christ. Help me to repay the kindness of my darling friends aformentioned with compassion, consideration and selflessness. YAY, without you nothing would have been possible. THANK YOU SO MUCH.

Just in case people didn't know, I woke up on friday morning with a complete sense of serenity and a insurmountable confidence. It was all a sign from GOD i'm sure. If i've missed out anyone really important, I apologise. Just know that I'm grateful to anyone out there who has helped me through in one way or another!

OK, UP NEXT. SCHEDULE FOR THE WEEK: IJ INVEST(YAY!), MATH AND ECONS ESSAY TEST (OMG), VALENTINE'S DAY (ERRRR), TAKE 5! ( GO 08S07B FOR STREET SOCCER!), TRAININGS (WHAT'S NEW -.-) THEN IT'S CNY! YAY BREAK!

OMG HAPPY BIRTHDAY STEFFI! I NEARLY FORGOT IT'S YOUR BIRTHDAY. YAY LOVE YOU LOADS YOU BIMBO GIRL.

'I'm not stupid, I'm just shallow.' -steffi.
HUR HUR.

2007-02-07T00:24:00.000+08:00

HEYA! LOL, I know I've not updated in ages! REALLY SORRY. I've been really busy recently, what with the onslaught of HUGE MOUNTAINS OF HOMEWORK -groans AND LOTS OF TRAININGS (MONDAY TO SATURDAY >.<) To tell you frankly, I don't think I'm coping very well. I'm not as hardworking as I planned to be, and even though I planned to, my schedule does not permit me to do so. I'm rather behind in homework and I've not started reading my lecture notes at all since the start of lectures! I AM SOOOO DEAD I TELL YOU.

Anyway, I've decided to run for council! BUT I have to choose between track and netball really soon. As it is, netball takes up all six days of the week and I've not had the chance to attend even ONE track training session. -.- OOH I HOPE I MAKE IT INTO TOP 16 FOR NETBALL AND MAKE IT INTO COUNCIL. IT'LL BE SO DELIGHTFUL! (: If I make it into top 16, I'll get to go to KL with the team! <3 YAY, lots of laughter and games to play.

So far, I've been happy happy happy. I think I'm starting to move on, I'm no longer angry. JUST THAT I feel really really weird around him. LIKE TODAY, since he's Kern's friend they were seated at the same table where I was. I mean I was trying to do my MATH TUTORIAL, but I couldn't progress beyond that one question. lol hilarious but I was just -blank-. Brain was stalling and on strike at completely the wrong time. I was finally in the mood to do my homework and THAT just had to happen. Talk about tough luck.

OH YES, JULIAN FOO ACTUALLY KINDA DIRTIED MY PURSE WITH MARKER INK TODAY, by accident. It was from his arm, lol. ------CUT HERE----- that's what it says. I had it on my wrists too. FUNNNN DAY, though very (what's the word?) frustrating. YEAH. He felt really bad about it though. However it's not entirely his fault, I asked him to hold on to my stuff for me so it's technically my decision resulting in that outcome. OH WELL. I HOPE IT COMES OFF. I LOVE MY DARLING BLUE/WHITE STRIPED ROXY PURSE TO PIECES! BOOOOO.

OMG RESULTS ARE COMING OUT ON FRIDAYYY. ): *panics* I HAVE TO PRAY SO EXTRA HARD THIS WHOLE WEEK. YES PEOPLE, PRAY FOR MELISSA TO GET SIX POINTS AND STAY IN BELOVED RAFFLES. THANK YOU.

SCHEDULE FOR TOMORROW: 5KM LONG RUN, INTERVAL TRAINING 15MIN, WEIGHTS TRAINING *squeals at how fun it all seems* (NOTE SARCASM)

I-MISS-IJ-OH-SO-VERY-MUCH.
I MISS MY DARLING FELLOW SHEPHERD PLUS MY DARLING WANDERING SHEEPS.
I MISS COUNCILLORS.
I MISS THE NETBALLERS!
I MISS MY JUNIORS.
I MISS THE IJ TEACHERS ):
I MISS
I MISS
I MISS

WHY CAN'T I MEET ALL OF THE ABOVE PEOPLE AT ONE GO? HAHA.

I SUPPORT TRIAD! YAY HARDCORE FAN. <3

2007-01-18T22:57:00.000+08:00

It's over. I guess this was what I wanted: a closure to things, so that I could move on. But I wonder, maybe what Uni said is true. After some time you'll think that wanting to remain as friends after was a stupid idea. But then again, we're not even talking now. I see him in school and all I wanna do is run away. I guess I've not exactly come to terms with it? Or I'm just not ready to face him now. I don't know how to react. I don't want to sound like some weakling but yeah we did have some fun times. I can't forget them at the moment but I must say that I've been getting along rather fine these few days ever since tuesday.

Much thanks to JULIAN (MY DA GE) and 08S07B! THE BESTEST MOST FUNNEST CLASS! We've been having so much fun and being with them takes my mind off things. I mean Julian probably doesn't even know what happened, but hanging out with him is just totally fun. I can laugh at his forgetfulness and his state of oblivion on certain occasions, laugh at my class guys who are damn 'gay'! (they actually joined their hands to form a heart while taking class pics, which we do everyday) But it's all in good fun. And they've unknowingly helped me to forget things, preoccupy myself. HAHA 'playing games' with Julian at the library (which is mugging really, just that he doesn't want our class to think we're like MUGGERS), has been so enjoyable. I get work done and have fun at the same time! We help each other, and that's the beauty of this whole system. He's like some math pro, even though he denies it.

Yes he's like my closest friend in school/class now, and my class has started teasing us. WHY AM I NOT SURPRISED. Yi-Lin refers to him as 'MY JULIAN' -.- please la. Hiok Chiou gives us this extremely cheeky face (which I never thought he was capable of, until recently) everytime I talk to Julian. The rest of the class probably thinks that we're together. EVEN the chem relief teacher saw us yesterday and thought we were together. ERR? Julian and I laugh about it telling everyone: HELLO? We can't have feelings for a sibling, it's like....INCEST! HILARIOUS I TELL YOU. We both mug together because we're one of the few non-raffles people, so we've got lots of catching up to do and we motivate each other, not because of anything else!

ANYWAY, I got into track too. PROBLEM NUMBER TWO. NETBALL OR TRACK? Track trainings for sprinters = mon, wed, fri. Netball trainings = tues, thurs, sat. IF BOTH = MON TO SAT. PHYSICALLY IMPOSSIBLE AND TOO TIME CONSUMING. I've got to make a choice. SOON. PRONTO. Only 12+4 out of 22 people can represent school for netball, but I think in track nationals next year I'll stand quite a high chance of representing school? Mr Yeo the coach said that training for this year's nationals is quite too late. Gotta be in the team by May apparently. Netball season ends in the END of MAY. >.< I LIKE SPRINTING PLUS I LOVE NETBALL TOO. IF only I had Hermione's time turner. OOH, so tempting!

OKIE POKIES, MELLIE GOTTA SLEEP SOON. Totally tired out after trainings and all. CIAO! (:

Thanks to all who've been so concerned about me, helping me with this situation: CLARE, JESS, MARIE, SAM, RECA, ANABEL, ELAINE, STEFFI (MY DA JIE!), NICOLEY WOLEY, EUNICE, EVEN HENRY AND EVERYONE ELSE WHO HAVE HELPED IN ONE WAY OR ANOTHER. THE CHAPTER HAS FINALLY ENDED AND IT'S TIME FOR THE NEXT NOVEL YES? THANKS FOR EVERYTHING. I LOVE YOU GUYS TRUCKLOADS!

I ASK FOR THE GRACE TO TRUST MYSELF TOTALLY TO GOD'S LOVE

2007-01-13T23:27:00.000+08:00

I can't sign in to messenger and it's already eleven plus now. I really need to get so many things off my chest, but it's difficult to find someone to tell it all to. I've probably lamented to about almost ten people this week and I don't think I should trouble others further. I mean, everyone has their own problems! SO, once again I'm back to blogging just so that I can complain and ramble.

The more time passes, the more I've come to realise how much things have changed. How hostile you've become, how you've been avoiding certain issues, how you've been avoiding me I guess. I really wonder how things have gotten to this stage. Is it my fault? Or is that just that you've moved on. BUT what I'm most disappointed with, is that you're not telling me anything. Just tell me what you have to, hurt me and leave me alone. At least it won't prolong my suffering any further. You probably think that by not telling me anything I won't realise it. HOW NAIVE CAN YOU GET? I've felt it ever since the beginning and I know thing's aren't right now. It really feels like I'm the only dumb one holding on now. Like I'm the only one involved. You've stopped caring, so stop trying to act like you still do. THERE'S A VERY STARK DIFFERENCE, that even a baby can tell the difference. I'm just glad, glad that I didn't go to RJ for your sake. Glad that I'm happy in RJ and that it has nothing to do with you. Glad that I don't regret going there at all.

The stupid blinking thing now is that, on top of losing someone really special to me, I'm losing my best friend too. The person that I could always tell everything to, without having to worry that you'll judge me. And it's plain dumb that I remember everything single word that you've told me, everything little thing you did that made me smile when instead it makes me cringe inside now when I think about it. And I know that now when everything's over I'll hate it, because I'll still feel like I need to tell you my problems, like I've done for the past year that I've known you. It's so ironic that the person who used to tell me that you want to make me the happiest person in the world, happens to be the one who ruins all my would've been perfect days this whole week.

Josh is right, all I want to do now is to ask you one extremely simple question: WHY. If you told me that you've moved on, I'll accept it understandingly. That I promise. But now that you're not telling me anything, you've got me guessing and everything that comes to mind now isn't exactly the most beautiful thoughts. SO JUST END MY MISERY NOW, before guilt becomes too overpowering for you everytime I tell you that I miss you. I wish that I can take this headstrong, but hurt and anger prevents me from doing so now. Why does it seem like I'm such a dumb fool? Everytime I wanna tell you that I need to talk to you, you just seem so carefree and it makes me soft hearted all over again. I've got to form my resolve.

IF ONLY. IF ONLY, we had remained as friends, if only you hadn't said a thing. IF ONLY...I hadn't gone away. Would that have made a difference? Maybe you should just cheat on me and make things a lot easier for me to hate you, for me to put an end to everything. I'm caught in a dilemma, cause I'm not sure if I'm over reacting. It would then be a waste to end it, yet I'm convinced that you're keeping your lips sealed about this whole thing. Perhaps you're ashamed? What else would I expect from someone who doesn't even talk to me in school and claims to be too busy to talk to me. WHAT A LAME EXCUSE, I SAY. Be brave and admit it like a man. Or it might just seem that you're the one at fault here and that your conscience is bugging you. You told me that you'll never lie to me. I'd just like to know how many times you've lied to me recently, just for the record. Just to tell you for use in the future, don't promise when you're not sure if you can keep it. Stop breaking people's hearts with your sweet words that mean nothing in the end.

2007-01-11T21:31:00.000+08:00

YAY MY CLASS ROCKS! We're probably the most fun class in the level! We had a 08S07B class lunch today at wheelock's FISH AND CO. (: It was delicious but expensive according to my standards. I mean, we pay 15% extra! LOL, lunch cost $301.55 for the 21 of us (since three had TSD auditions and Vinod had scouts thingy to attend) It was great fun! I've seriously never heard of a class that plays murderer during lunch and actually asked a waitress to tap the murderers! -grins. I'm aware that we have a reputation of having all the delinquents and being rowdy, but I hope that we'll be able to do well regardless. PLAYING HARD AND STUDYING HARD is how I like it. Frankly speaking, I've never once been in a class that has a reputation of being one of the naughtiest classes. I shall take it as a new experience and we'll see how it goes!

I spent time in school today until 7+, waiting for my parents at the foyer since it was pouring outside. I rushed back to RJ for training (after yummy lunch) which was at four and had physical training. TSK, not that bad as expected but I'm sure I'll still ache tomorrow. *grumbles* THEN, I STAYED WITH MY CLASS PLAYING GAMES AND TALKING ABOUT NOTHING IN PARTICULAR! It's been such a long time since I've laughed so much. HAHA. I really feel that the class has become closer after today and I've gotten to know so many people better. (: YAY. I REALLY HOPE WE DON'T GET RESHUFFLED! It'll be really tragic, after all our effort in getting to know each other better. EESH, I'm really sleepy so I shall go sleep now, before tomorrow's lectures! ECONS CHEM AND CIVICS (HAHA). I haven't had the time to read through lecture notes yet, I'm gonna be sooo lost tomorrow! >.< wish me luck! HEE.

2007-01-07T22:42:00.000+08:00

I just came back from DAISY TAN NETBALL CARNIVAL (round 1). Ok fine it ended at around 6 and I had dinner (a VERY YUMMY ONE IN FACT) at the SHANGRI-LA's "THE LINE". I totally recommend it by the way. Of course you would financial back-up when you dine there. It's a buffet styled thing that claims to have international cuisines, so go try it one day. Anyway my family went there to celebrate my DAD'S birthday. He turns 51 today. SO HAPPY BIRTHDAY DADDY (:

Ok so I got to Kallang Netball Centre at 12.40 today. I'm super tired out, after all the orientation and training and playing. SO I'll be going to bed immediately after this. To tell the truth I was quite disappointed that I played so few games today. And for the first time in don't-know-how-many years, I had to take score! TO BEGIN, I HAD TO ASK HOW TO DO IT. Shows that I NEVER had to do it before considering that I was always in main seven, unlike today of course. So I was in the shade half the time and I don't think I got much of a tan. (GREAT HUH) Well I wasn't disappointed that I played WD instead of GS since I just enjoy playing anyway. But I did play GA for half a game. I totally understand that SI LEI is a much better shooter and they have really good players. I just really really hope that I'll make it into the team. Yeah we made it into round two, so we'll be playing the five other teams that made it again on the 28th. I must admit that HWA CHONG is good. LIKE DUH. But we didn't really lose by very much. 12-6, could've been much worse really. I mean at least we didn't get thrashed! OH YES, MY STUPID SHOE GAVE WAY TODAY. RIGHT AFTER WARM UP WHEN WE WERE DOING PASSES, JUST BEFORE OUR FIRST GAME. How very unlucky.

TOMORROW, I'll be walking around/playing war games in my spoilt shoe, since I came home too late to get a new shoe. -grumbles. WHICH REMINDS ME, BUCKLE BUCKLEY BETER WIN TOMORROW! Just to continue being the defending champions, and especially to prove a certain someone wrong. *sticks tongue out* BB IS NOT A LOUSY HOUSE OK. I LOVE BB *beams*

I SHALL JUST TALK ABOUT ORIENTATION SO FAR, IN A NUTSHELL. ( A SMALL ONE AGAIN?)
1. I'm in BB05, AKA CH'NOVO. OGLs are WENHAO AND CHAY LING.
2. RJ HAS ABOUT 1000 PEOPLE IN J1. OMG
3.Many people I know are in BB. (: YAY
4. Michelle Teo and I are in the same OG *phew* AND SHE'S MY DANCE PARTNER *laughs hysterically* BY LUCK. BUT I'M THE GUY! *CRIES*
5. MY OG WON THE ZONE CHAMPION FOR RAFFLES BITE RACE, CHINATOWN. DOUBLE YAY.
6. MY CLASS IS 08S07B. TAKING HCME. 25 students. 16 girls, 9 guys. (HAHA) Mostly RI and RG people. WHY AM I NOT SURPRISED?
7. OMG OMG OMG, THE WHOLE PLACE IS SWARMING WITH GENIUS CALIBRED PEOPLE! AND I THOUGHT IT'S DIFFICULT TO STAND OUT IN IJ. RJ WILL BE MUCH MUCH MUCH WORSE.
8. TOMORROW'S THE LAST DAY OF ORIENTATION. O'NIGHT! (:
9. I'm so exhausted, I bet I'm able to sleep at 8 every night until I've recuperated from the 'Post orientation syndrome' LOL
10. LIKE I SAID, I'm exhausted so I can't think about what I wanted to say at point 10. *apologises profusely*

I GUESS IT'S BEDTIME! LOL, TATA! EEYER I'M DEHYDRATED. >.< ANYWAY, OVERALL I'M LIKING RJ. I REALLY REALLY REALLY HOPE I CAN STAY!

It's become so complicated, it's scary. I don't know what to do/say/feel anymore. I need guidance. MAYBE GOD WILL SHOW ME THE WAY? You've changed so much since last year. WHAT DOES THIS ALL MEAN?

2006-12-23T23:12:00.000+08:00

I'M HOME! WHEE. I didn't really like being in MALAYSIA, especially since it was JB (like how much worse can it get?) YOU KNOW, BEING IN MALAYSIA ALWAYS MAKES ME THINK OF ONE PERSON. WHOSE HOMETOWN IS ALOR SETAR. LOL, but I made progress today. I talked to her and guess what she says? "I'M SURE WE'LL HAVE BETTER DAYS AHEAD" COOL EH. (:

OH OK so here's what really happened in JB ( in a nutcase. A REALLY SMALL ONE)

1. I worked but got paid quite a meagre sum. yay me.
2. I met really cool people! I'm serious!
3. I went shopping!
4. I bought ANIME DVDs (THEY'RE REALLY CHEAP AND IT'S ORIGINAL! *GASP*)
5. I worked in A CHURCH LIBRARY. It's boring but the books are interesting. (NO, I'm not GEEKY) I mean they had books like 'how to analyse handwriting' and about heresies and horoscopes!
6. I had two 'bodyguards' with me while I was shopping. After all, JB isn't the safest place. Especially since CITY SQUARE is near a red light district. *shudders*
7. I even went for confession and a carolling practise session during my stay (thanks to Josh and the CIC YOUTHS)
8. I am totally inspired to be a more spiritually driven person.
9. I think I've put on weight. YUCK. I NEED EXERCISE BUT NO ONE ALLOWS ME TO! >.<
10. EE people give me really horny/ah pek stares (even in singapore) HOW SICK!
11. I got bitten by so many mosquitoes, there were bugs/lizards/roaches everywhere! (POOR HYGIENE-FREAK ME)
12. I got sick twice! I even got a fever once (even though I DON'T GET FEVERS)
13. Let's not talk about work and malaysia! I'm totally glad I'm back. THAT says a lot.

I think that's about it! WOW, three weeks' stay in 13 points. My summary skills must be superb! :D Ok so today I went to SUNTEC and I bought some stuff too! I bought a NEW WATCH! <3 OOH my DKNY WATCH IS LOVELY. I actually paid $100, my sis gave $100 and my mum paid $30. AND a really nice necklace! (which my mum paid for) My grandmother bought me three pairs of earrings. I think my room needs a stand for all my earrings and whatnot so i can have them displayed clearly and I won't have to ransack all the rooms searching for what I want.

SINCE CHRISTMAS IS TOMORROW, AM I ALLOWED TO HAVE MY extended WISHLIST HERE? SILENCE MEANS CONSENT ISN'T IT? PLEASE MAKE MELISSA HAPPY THIS CHRISTMAS, THANK YOU. -grin

1. NEW SCHOOL BAG
2. ZARA BOOTS
3. WH jeans skirt with beautiful design ( I hope SG has it! I saw it in JB at 89RINGGIT)
4. iPOD NANO/iPOD
5. A NEW HAIRSTYLE
6. GUESS JEANS (They've got an excellent cut)
7. PRINCE OF TENNIS MOVIE DVD (which only costs 12.90!)
8. BLEACH THE MOVIE
9. GOONG DVD
10. DIESEL HOT SHORTS (OMG I LOVEEEEE)
11. I STILL WANT THE WHOLE OF FUSHIGI YUUGI.
12. SUBSCRIPTION OF ANIMAX or maybe UNLIMITED ANIME ACCESSIBLITY

ARGH I'm supposed to go for 2 masses since it's fourth week of advent plus midnight christmas mass, but my family can't make it for morning mass. They'll be busy cooking. AND TO THINK THAT I JUST WENT FOR CONFESSION FOR MISSING SUNDAY MASSES AND ON DAYS OF OBLIGATION(which is ALWAYS BECAUSE OF THEM) I keep trying to be a holy person and it always turns out like this! I don't wanna go to hell for such a mortal sin! POO.

ANYWAY MERRY CHRISTMAS AND A HAPPY NEW YEAR TO ALL. I'm sure I won't have the time to blog and wish everyone here on christmas day itself, so HAPPY BIRTHDAY JESUS! <3 AND SHARON TOO. I DIDN'T FORGET YOU! (:

2006-11-27T15:30:00.000+08:00

I just looked through stuff from like SEC ONE TO SEC FOUR (which I'm about to discard) and MY GOSH IT BRINGS BACK SO MANY MEMORIES! I can't explain how much I'm grown over the past four years. AND AND AND I just found a present that my ex-best friend (? this isn't for me to decide) gave me like in SEC TWO for VALENTINE'S DAY, expressing how I'm her best pal in school and all. THAT REALLY MADE ME THINK: WHAT THE HELL HAPPENED BETWEEN SEC TWO AND NOW? WHICH DEVIL MADE ME THE 'couldn't-care-less-about- anything-except-studies' KIND OF PERSON?

THEY WERE MY EVERYTHING AND NO ONE ELSE COULD AND CAN MAKE ME AS HAPPY AS THEM, BUT LOOK WHAT HAPPENED. I think I single-handedly ruined whatever we had. Well done Melissa, they've moved on without you. It's all because I never did put enough effort into maintaining the friendship. AND SUCH A HYPOCRITE I AM, WRITING ABOUT HOW I BELIEVE THAT WE will always keep the friendships in IJ even after we've left. YEAH ACTUALLY I BELIEVE WE WILL. EVERYONE EXCEPT ME. It's come to a stage where I'm even AFRAID OF HER. Afraid that everything I do turns out to be something offending to her. This so isn't like me. I'm confident, not insecure! GREAT. It was partly because of her that I HARDLY approached the clique/talked to them. I KNOW DURING RETREAT EVERYTHING WAS FINE, LET BYGONES BE BYGONES RIGHT? SOMEHOW WE FORGAVE EACH OTHER. BUT I CAN'T FORGIVE MYSELF. FOR LETTING SUCH A WONDERFUL FRIENDSHIP BECOME HOW IT IS NOW. EVEN after being your friend for FOUR WONDERFUL years, I've NO PICTURE OF YOU AND ME. That says a lot, really it does. AND I WANT THE ONE WE TOOK AT PROM, NO MATTER HOW BAD/UGLY IT WAS. I know you won't read this, but it's better to let it out isn't it? You've changed so much in all facets it scares me. I like how you are now, really. BUT I never told you that. You've become stronger Evelyn and I'm happy for you.

AND WITH THIS, I dedicate this song to you. IT WAS ONCE OUR SONG and yeah, I miss you. The lyrics are uncanningly apt here *laughs*

HILARY DUFF - COME CLEAN

Let's go back
Back to the beginning
Back to when the earth, the sun, the stars all aligned

'Cause perfect didn't feel so perfect
Trying to fit a square into a circle
Was a lie
I defy

[Chorus:]
Let the rain fall down
And wake my dreams
Let it wash away
My sanity
'Cause I wanna feel the thunder
I wanna scream
Let the rain fall down
I'm coming clean, I'm coming clean

I'm shedding
Shedding every color
Trying to find a pigment of truth
Beneath my skin

'Cause different
Doesn't feel so different
And going out is better
Then always staying in
Feel the wind

I'm coming clean
Let the rain fall
Let the rain fall
I'm coming...

Let's go back
Back to the beginning

YEAH. LET'S GO BACK, BACK TO THE BEGINNING.

SUSHI FESTS WERE THE BEST. CORO NTUC HAD THE BEST SUSHI.

2006-11-25T18:10:00.000+08:00

(: Last night was GARDUATION NIGHT '06 and it was fabulous! I had simply so much fun and laughter to put into words. I just need to say MR CHAN is the funniest/best physics teacher! LOL I just teared so much from all the laughing!

So right, for those who have no idea about what happened yesterday, SIX PEOPLE were made to go upstage. They were supposed to dance according to the different music the DJ played. MR ARMSTRONG, MR CHAN, VICTORIA ANN LAI, ADELE GOH, 5N GIRL AND MICHELLE TEO WERE SABOTAGED TO PARTICPATE IN THIS. SO the participants were blindfolded and throughout the activity, the EMCEE quietly made each participant go back to their respective seats until finally MR CHAN was left on stage. POOR UNAWARE MR CHAN CONTINUED TO DANCE ACCORDING TO THE MUSIC. The best part was how the EMCEE imitated different voices of the other participants just so that MR CHAN wouldn't realise that the other participants weren't on stage any longer. IT WAS HILARIOUS! I'm quite sure MR CHAN knew he was the only one on stage but he just played along. How very sporting isn't it? I have to mention that MR AMSTRONG is an excellent dancer! AND VICTORIA was so very daring! The entire thing was interesting.

Well, the speech that VAL, AL and I made went rather well actually. (: AT least they desired effect of being inspiring was achieved? Some people actually came up to me to congratulate me and told me that anyway. thanks! The food for the night was average but the fish was GOOOD. YUM. As for MS IJ, (thank God Jieying went up instead. I would've died up there) WE LOST TO 4/1! (MAY I ADD AN 'AGAIN'?) Everytime we lose, we lose to 4/1. It's really not surprising anymore. We took many many pictures last night! And I'm very glad that we took a 4/2 pic and most importantly, a 2/1 picture! It was great seeing all my ex-classmates and being together with them again, EVEN IF it was just a few minutes. I must admit that EVERYONE looked fabulous last night. AND I PROUDLY ATTRIBUTE THIS TO THE FACT THAT IJ GIRLS DEFINITELY KNOW HOW TO DRESS UP.

I immensely enjoyed myself and WITHOUT A DOUBT, I'm going to miss IJ LOADS AND LOADS AND LOADS AND...you get the point. But like I said in my speech "DON'T CRY BECAUSE IT IS OVER, SMILE BECAUSE IT HAPPENED" What other way to end these excellent four years except to have a good laugh and enjoy each other's company once again? I am truly thankful that I came (went?) to IJ. I CANNOT FORSEE MYSELF IN ANY OTHER SCHOOL AND HAVING AS MUCH FUN, MEETING SUCH WONDERFUL PEOPLE. TEACHERS, FRIENDS, SENIORS. ONCE AGAIN I SAY, TO IJ! :D

ON A MORE DEPRESSING NOTE, I'M LEAVING FOR MALAYSIA TUESDAY NIGHT. I'M NOT HAPPY ABOUT THIS. WISH ME LUCK. I NEED IT. THREE WEEKS AWAY. PFFT. HOW FUN.

PS. I'm looking forward to COUNCIL'S SEC FOUR FAREWELL and I'm glad that the councillors had so much fun at camp. THAT'S THE WAY IT'S SUPPOSED TO BE. *grin* I'll miss everyone lots. I'll VISIT OFTEN!

2006-11-18T00:42:00.000+08:00

OMG YAY! IT'S EMANCIPATION, LIBERATION, FREEDOM! (: O's are over! (like finally?)

I went to VIVOCITY with SAM, VICTORIA, AUDREY, HUISHIAN AND QIAN QIAN today. Even though I only spent like less than an hour there and I only got to see two shops out of the I-don't-know-how-many shops there are, I'm pretty contented. Firstly, I actually asked my mum if I could go out with them for once, AND SHE AGREED! LIKE HOW SHOCKING IS THAT! Well, no matter how short the day out was, it was good fun. We spent the whole journey there talking about nonsense, and that's how I like it (: WE WENT TO CANDY EMPIRE (which seems rather small for it's majestic name actually. I was kinda expecting a lot more lol.) and we then ate at Kopitiam. Well, everyone else had dinner while all I had was some chicken pao =.= not that I'm on a diet or anything, cos I had dinner at home. Which explains why I had to leave so quickly.

Yeah anyway, I had quite a horrible ride home on the bus today. To begin with, I had to walk the distance of two bus stops before I could catch 963 which will take me directly home. (even though the bus arrived shortly after I reached the bus stop) THE LONG ARDUOUS JOURNEY IN THE CROWDED, STINKY BUS WAS HORRIBLE I TELL YOU! I probably spent the entire journey trying not to cover of nose and mouth. Seriously speaking, the people on board had REALLY BAD BODY ODOUR >.< At least I had a seat, or else I would've just collapsed on the spot I'm sure. I'm pretty sensitive to bad smells. On a certain point in the journey, I suddenly felt something crawling up my leg, I swear. I got such a shock I practically jerked up and started sweeping my legs frantically. Well that was over. THEN CAME THE GUY WHO SAT NEXT TO ME, DOZING OFF TILL HE WAS PRACTICALLY LYING ON MY SHOULDER. One, it was annoying and so very awkward. Two, it was rather hilarious though I was trying really hard not to start grinning to myself on the bus and convince all the passengers onboard that I'm far from being sane.

SOMETHING GOOD THAT HAPPENED DURING THE JOURNEY was that some guy that stood directly opposite me probably saw everything that was happening and kinda signalled me to wake the poor exhausted dude seated next to me. I actually thought he was very sweet! OK, so he most probably saw how annoyed I was through my thousands of expressions and frowns, not to mention my attempt to stifle my laughter everytime the sleeping dude's head edged closer to my shoulder. It really convinced me that Singapore does have nice people! Right, I won't talk about how I actually caught the nice guy staring at me a couple of times even after he alighted from the bus, or how I ACTUALLY SAW A COCKROACH ON THE FLOOR, TO MY UTTER DISMAY. Which totally means that whatever was crawling up my leg, was probably that same brown, disgusting pest that was inching it's way through the bus. After a long 45 minutes that seemed like eons to me, I reached home at 7.20pm. Much later than the time my mum asked me to reach home by, but since she didn't say anything I shan't complain. -grin.

OH YEAH OH YEAH! I bought like two out of four volumes of FULLMETAL ALCHEMIST, THE VCD to watch! YESSSS. ANIME GALORE! I'm not thinking about how I spent $54 on that alone at all, because that makes me feel guilty. But it's all worth it! the dvd costs $40 per volume! I initially assumed that it cost $40 or $50 for the whole set. How very disappointed I was when I realised that I couldn't afford buying $40X3=$120. OMG IS RIGHT. SO I settled for second best, which is nothing less - THE VCD VERSION! :D YAY SO MY BROTHER AND I WATCHED FOUR EPISODES TONIGHT. OK FINE, I'VE WATCHED THE ENTIRE SERIES, BUT NOTHING BEATS OWNING IT. XD

OK MOST DEPRESSING TOPIC OF THE DAY: HISTORY. =.= DID I MENTION HOW WEIRD IT WAS HAVING THREE (instead of four) SOURCES, AND HOW THEY DIDN'T HELP YOU WITH CROSS REFERENCING?! So I had to rely on contextual knowlede, which I highly doubt is enough, considering the fact that I didn't study CHINA UNDER MAO which happily came out for SBQ. I think I misintepreted the sources also! HOWWWW. BYE BYE A1 FOR HISTORY? I HOPE NOT! I NEEEED IT! At least the SEQ wasn't THAT bad. As predicted, CHAPTER ONE CAME OUT! YAYNESS. But they asked WHY THE LEAGUE OF NATIONS WAS FORMED. OMG HELLO, my textbook has only 1 page of information on that? ZZ. SO I totally bullcrapped my way through. How very surprising. (NOTE SARCASM) The essay only ended up being slightly more than ONE PAGE LONG, and my handwriting was humongous (as usual). YAY ME. BUT I LOVEEED PART B! 'THE TREATY OF VERSAILLES WAS A FAILURE. TO WHAT EXTENT IS THIS STATEMENT TRUE?' or something like that. ANYWAY it was a pleasure writing it (: I wrote erm, 2 over pages.

AND WITH THAT, I shall end my excruciatingly long post for today, and hit the sack. It's slightly past one here. (sorry MARIE, I'VE LOST THE BET/CHALLENGE TO SLEEP EARLY ONCE AGAIN) HEY ANYWAY, MARIE TAN XUE LING I WAS DEAD SERIOUS WHEN I SAID I WANTED YOUR BIOLOGY TEXTBOOK. I have a secret interest in BIO. SSHHH. :D I STILL REGRET NOT TAKING IT. (except when I heard that BIO AND GEOG 2 WAS SCHEDULED ON THE SAME DAY FOR O'S. I WAS ACTUALLY RELIEVED I DIDN'T TAKE IT!!)

<3!

2006-11-14T18:11:00.000+08:00

HEY (: I know it's in the midst of O levels and I'm not supposed to be using the computer at all, but I thought my blog was getting rather DEAD. SO HERE I AM! :D

Anyway, O's will be over is just 3 days and I'm psyched about it! Here's the schedul for the next three days, just in case anyone's interested lol (though I highly doubt that?)

WEDNESDAY:-
8-9am Physics paper 1
9.30-11.15am Physics Paper 2
4.30-5.45pm Geography paper 1 (RAHHHH so late!)

Thursday:-
9-11am Amath paper 2
2-3pm Chemistry paper 1
3.30-5.15pm Chemistry paper 2

FRIDAY:-
2.30-4pm HISTORY ELECTIVE. WOOHOO LAST ONE! (:

YEAH, and that'll be it! Amath today was surprisingly all right! HAPPY MELISSA. I hope all the rest of the MATH AND SCIENCE PAPERS will be around that standard? Hee. Ok I've officially got about 5 hours to cram 25 chapters worth of physics stuff and yeah GEOG STUFF FOR PAPER ONE! *tears hair out* Makes everyone wonder what I'm doing here eh? LOL ahh I think I'll be missing GOONG today. Too much to study. I can't wait for next week. Period. It's gonna be fun! -Grin. TOODLE~

2006-11-06T22:00:00.000+08:00

HO HO. MRS LEE-TAN SURE CAN SPOT! (: YES, I won't be seeing things to do with SS for a rather long time now. -grins. It's goodbye to sustaining singapore's development in the 21st century; merger and separation and what-not! SAY HELLO TO RIVERS, COASTS, AGRICULTURE, WEATHER AND CLIMATE, AND NATURAL VEGETATION. AND OH YEAH, ENGLISH VOCABULARY INFILTRATION. I guess my 'SPEAK PROFOUND ENGLISH CAMPAIGN' turned out to be a flop. =.= oh well. JUST GOTTA CRAM MORE VOCAB FOR THE WHOLE OF TOMORROW and hope everything'll be fine and dandy.

I THINK CAMBRIDGE MADE OUR PAPERS MORE DIFFICULT AS COMPARED TO THE PAST YEARS'. *stares at emath paper one* "IS THIS THE SAME PAPER THAT I COULD FINISH IN 1 HOUR AT HOME, WHILE I TOOK 1HOUR30MINUTES FOR O'S??!!" THAT explains pretty much. Better get myself geared up and mentally prepared for a scare for the following papers, especially EMATH PAPER TWO AND AMATH (OMG) I still wanna see many slim figures! (hint: it's a ONE)

DID I MENTION HOW HAPPY I WAS TO SEE MERGER AND SEPARATION FOR SEQ? :D

IT'S GONNA BE OVER IN A JIFFY!(I hope.)

2006-10-29T19:16:00.000+08:00

HELLO! I got this from LAURA'S blog! I think it's funky haha. TA-DA!

[What is the 1st word that comes to your mind when you think of the word word?]
ENGLISH? OMG ONE MORE WEEK! *faints*

[What are your vital statistics?]
LOL, I HAVE NO IDEA!

[Name something interesting about your father.]
HE'S LAME! WORSE THAN ME. He tells me not to eat cookies near the computer for fear of getting cookie viruses. =.=

[Name 3 interesting neighbors.]
HAHA I don't know my neighbours! OK FINE. My 8 year old brother's "GIRLFRIEND" and her dad, the family who lives opposite who has FRATERNAL twins (A GIRL AND A BOY!), 7 year old JORDAN and his family. (realise they all happen to be younger than me and I happen to know them because my brother plays with them)

[What body moisturizer do you use?]
NIVEA

[What's your height?]
166 the last time we measured. PLEASE TELL ME I GREW! 4 CM MORE? *hopes*

[What toothpaste do you use?]
COLGATE

[What printer do you use?]
Epson stylus CX 4500

[Do you know Newton's third law?]
For every action, there's an equal and opposite reaction. yes? OOH, free physics revision.

[Have you ever had a manicure?]
Nope. It'll be cool though.

[What perfume do you use? ]
ESCADA's ROCKIN' RIO. (:

[What sports do you play?]
NETBALL! <333>

[Who is your favorite humanities teacher?]
MR NG WEI KWANG, MS JAC YIP!

[Do you dare kill a cockroach?]
HELL NO.

[Your favorite fruits?]
APPLE AND HONEY DEW AND MANGO AND STRAWBERRIES AND (you get the point)

[Your favorite shoes?]
MY NIKES! (:

[At least how many times do you exercise a week?]
USUALLY, TWICE. NOW? HEH when I feel fat. OR when I feel like I should (which is probably never)

[Stripes or polka-dots?]
STRIPES FOR SURE.

[Can you control your spending?]
RATHER. Unless you bring me to ANIME PARADISE OR LIKE TOPSHOP OR SOMETHING.

[Do you eat a lot?]
I think I do!

[What and how much is the most expensive item in your wardrobe?]
ERM my prom dress? $140. but most prom dresses are expensive. Besides that, it's probably my cocktail dress, $89

[Artificial or au naturel?]
DEFINITELY AU NATUREL.

[Carl's Jr or McDonalds?]
McDonald's.

[More of tan or fair?]
TAN TAN TAN! :D

[Do you have a high metabolism rate?]
YES AND I LOVE IT.

[Which of the 7 sins are you guilty of?]
ANGER PRIDE GREED? I can't remember all seven =.=

[What is the hairstyle you normally sport?]
A ponytail?

YAY IT'S A STRAIGHT LINE FOR PHYSICS PRAC! *PHEW* HOPE I'LL DO WELL THEN! BACK TO MORE WORK! TOODLE NOODLES! -GRIN.

2006-10-26T22:24:00.000+08:00

HA.HA.HA. (sarcastic laughter) I SCREWED UP PHYSICS PRAC. I DIDN'T EVEN FINISH THE WHOLE 'PLAN AN EXPERIMENT' RUBBISH. I KNEW HOW TO DO IT! AND, IT'S WORTH FIVE MARKS. WHO KNOWS WHETHER THE PLOTTED GRAPH IS SUPPOSED TO BE A CURVE OR A STRAIGHT LINE! (Please tell me it's a straight line because that's what I did!) IT'S NOT SUPPOSED TO BE MORE DIFFICULT THAN PRELIMS PRAC! >.<

NOW I'M SO NOT IN A MOOD TO DO REVISION. And yeah thanks, I'm already very far behind considering the fact that O's start VERY VERY SOON. LIKE NEXT NEXT WEEK. DAMN.

I'm not taking things easy. I'm really not. WHY WON'T YOU BELIEVE ME? I'm trying my best to do well! ):

2006-10-19T17:37:00.000+08:00

Here's what happened at school today:

MRS NICKS: HI MS ITCHY! HOW ARE YOU?
ME: HI MRS NICKS! I'M STILL ITCHY. SEE, I got a mosquito bite again.
MRS NICKS: I think you're just sensitive. I call it the 'itchinitis'.
ME: NO, THEY LOVE ME.
MRS NICKS: Look, you've scratched yourself raw.
ME: Well I was ASLEEP. I didn't even know I got bitten till I felt it hurting. -.-
MRS NICKS: Are you studying? *pats me on the shoulder*
ME: Yeah I am. *ahem ahem* (We all know I am huh?)
MRS NICKS: All the best! Take care!
ME: YOU TOO! (: THANKS! *grins*

I TELL YOU, she's the cutest teacher around! :D WHO ELSE CALLS ME MISS ITCHY. (It's a long story as to the reason why she refers to me this way. I shan't elaborate. It's rather embarrassing?) Great to see her back in school though!

*wonders* WHEN'S THE MIKE TEST SUPPOSED TO BE! I want to get it over and done with, so I won't have to worry about it much! But give me a week's notice in advance? I need to make sure my throat is fine by then. *grumbles* STUPID HAZE.

THE WATCHERS OF ANIME ON AXN 'ASSOCIATION' IS THE BEST! :D (it's another one of my weird fettishes) I just found someone else who used to watch anime on AXN! *GASP* WE got all excited just talking and reminiscing about the past! DID YOU KNOW: AXN ACTUALLY SHOWED ABOUT TEN ANIME SERIES? COOL EH. I ACTUALLY LISTED THEM DOWN. YES, YET ANOTHER ANIME FAN. *dances around* BANZAI ANIME & MANGAKAS! ok fine, BANZAI YOUTUBE USERS FOR UPLOADING THEM TOO! (:

WHY WHY WHY DON'T I GET TO GO OVERSEAS AFTER O'S TOO! RAHH.

It's my escapade.

2006-10-14T11:15:00.000+08:00

HELLO! (: I went for RJ's OPEN HOUSE YESTERDAY! haha I saw so many people that I know. LIKE RMUN PEOPLE, HISSOC PEOPLE, PRIMARY SCHOOL PEOPLE CURRENTLY IN RGS and the list goes on. HAHAHA. I really think I know more RI people than RGS people. Seriously. I don't even click with them well enough to know more than Carmen and Leonora, who were my ex-classmates and yeah Gloria too, but I didn't see her at all. I tell you, the whole OPEN HOUSE was OVERFLOWING WITH RAFFLES PEOPLE. *falls into abyss of inferiority complex* HOW AM I GONNA FIT IN! LOL.

OH OH OH, I found out that tryouts for RJ netball takes place next year. Which is bad enough considering the fact that it's been eons since I last trained. AND THAT'S NOT THE WORST PART! THERE ARE THREE PARTS TO THE TRYOUT.

1. PHYSICAL (OMG I HAVE NO STAMINA TO BEGIN WITH, MUCH LESS NEXT YEAR? WHAT STRENGTH? =.=)
2. SKILLS (OMG I CAN'T CATCH/THROW LOB DIEEEE)
3. COURT GAME (YAAAY MY FAV, BUT WHO KNOWS HOW I'LL DO WITHOUT MY TEAM TO SUPPORT ME!)

See what I mean! AHHH PANIC ATTACK! LOL, I CAUGHT SO MANY PEOPLE STARING AT ME YESTERDAY. LIKE, DO I LOOK WEIRD/ALIEN TO YOU? HAHA BUT I GOT HIGGHH YESTERDAY FOR NO REASON. HIGH ON PANIC? MAYBE.

DID I MENTION I JUST GOT FOUR MORE CHEM PAPERS TO DO? (when I'm only at CAT HIGH and I didn't even finish it cos I got fed up?) AND THERE'S MORE PHYSICS TOO. I want amath papers (cos yeah I suck at AMATH) OH NOOOO. *drills quotes on persistence into brain*

ALL RIGHT ALL RIGHT, FOR THE SAKE OK WANDERING SHEEP (AKA JESSICA TEO) I SHALL CHANGE MY LAYOUT AFTER O'S. SINCE SHE KEEPS COMPLAINING I HAVE "SUPER DEE DOOPER SMALL FONTS" But I like this one! *wails* *glares at JESS*

Right, back to TUITION HOMEWORK. DUE AT 5.30 TODAY. *counts* SIX HOURS LEFT, MINUS SHOWER TIME AND LUNCH TIME, FIVE. DIEEEEE.

2006-10-11T14:16:00.000+08:00

It's been SIX DAYS SINCE MY LAST POST. THIS shows HOW BUSY we all are! ALL THE STUPID PAPERS TO DO. ALL THE THINGS WE HAVE TO REVISE! AHHH. ( I complain a lot, but I do my work ok! I know it's good for me! *gives innocent stare*) HEH this reminds me of the M2M song 'it's been nine days, eight hours, forty minutes, ten seconds since you called' IRRELEVANT, but it really reminds me of the song ok!THE HAZE! OMG I HATE IT! HOPEFULLY the PSI will stay at 40+ or whatever. I was out at orchard that night when it was 150+ ok! I SWEAR, it was UNBEARABLE! I felt like puking so much and I HAD A MASSIVE HEADACHE that lasted for so many days! PFFT. stupid slash-and-burners!

OH YAY TWO MORE DAYS! :DDDD
BUT SS MOCK TEST IS TOMORROW and HAHA I APPLAUD MYSELF COS I'VE NOT TOUCHED THE SS TEXTBOOK AT ALL. YAAAY ME.

OK I OWE THIS TO MARIE, JESS AND CLARE. HERE IT IS! (:

Tag me if you wish and:
1. I'll respond with something random about you.
2. I'll challenge you to try something.
3. I'll pick a colour that I associate with you.
4. I'll tell you something I like about you.
5. I'll tell you my first/clearest memory about you.
6. I'll tell you what animal you remind me of.
7. I'll ask you something I've always wanted to ask you.
8. You must post this on yours.

[MARIE]
1. A FELLOW SHEPHERD. HOHO. (WHEN WE'RE JUST AS LOST? IRONIC)
2. STOP acting like a mother! -grin
3. WHITE. don't ask why. it's just this way?
4. I LIKE EVERYTHING ABOUT YOU! (: ok fine i'll choose one. ERM, the way you laugh!
5. HMM THE HARRY POTTER MOVIE/LONG JOHN SILVERS LUNCH. brings back memories aye.
6. TIGER. cos you can be scary, especially when I do something wrong. *cringes*
7. HOW DO YOU MANAGE TO STICK TO YOUR CONVICTIONS SO MUCH!

[JESS]
1. WHERE HAS ALL THE GOOD GRASS GONE TO! (INSIDE JOKE)
2. STOP GOSSIPING SO MUCH! OH WAIT, STOP SPAMMING BOARDS AND CONVERSATIONS, EVERYTHING EVERYTHING.
3. YELLOW. You know why, I know why. That's enough already.
4. I LIKE YOUR HYPER-NESS! LIKE YESTERDAY! (:
5. MY FELLOW COCONUT TREE! THE ORIGINALS ARE THE BEST AYE?
6. HOHO, IT'S PAYBACK FOR CALLING ME A SQUIRREL/MOUSE. YOU=DODO BIRD. It's got nothing to do with you being stupid/fat or extinct. NO OFFENCE YEAH.
7. HOW CAN YOU SLEEP SO EARLY AND STILL FINISH WORK/STUDY!

[CLARE]
1. YOU'RE SERIOUSLY THE MOST WANDERING SHEEP I KNOW. GET BACK TO YOUR SHEPHERD QUICKLY!
2. SORT OUT YOUR PROBLEMS. NOW. SAVE YOURSELF THE TROUBLE. really.
3. PINK. everyone can tell you love pink!
4. I LOVE GOSSIPING WITH YOU! YOUR REACTIONS ARE PRICELESS I TELL YOU.
5. OMG, like how you told me LIME GREEN WASN'T HOT. HMPH.
6. LIKE I SAID, (wandering) sheep. hee.
7. CAN YOU TEACH ME HOW TO DANCEEEE? scratch that. THAT WAS MY EVIL TWIN. SHHH. NO ONE KNOWS THAT.

HAHA I SHALL ADD A LITTLE DISCLAIMER. IF I unintentionally hurt anyone, I'm SORRY! IT's all for the purpose of fun,laughter peace and joy? Don't kill me! *covers face*

2006-10-03T00:08:00.000+08:00

EEE what's wrong with the SJI physics paper! Now I'm throughly convinced that they're out to kill their students! AND HELLO, THEY GET SINGLE DIGITS EVEN THEN! SMART PEOPLE! I told you my six WAS A FLUKE. I'll die in RJ if I ever go there. Oh no oh no. I'll probably spend my entire JC life trying to catch up, while others are zooming ahead (like they always do). I THINK I SHOULD COMPLETELY GET OFF THE COM. BUT IT'S TEMPTING! O's ARE LOOMING REALLY NEAR. SCARYYY, JC IS SCARY. EVERYTHING'S SCARY.

GREAT. I still have AMATH, SS and HISTORY to go. ):

2006-09-29T23:41:00.000+08:00

BY THE WAY, WHO WANTS TO JOIN MY 'SPEAK PROFOUND ENGLISH CAMPAIGN' IN A BID TO IMPROVE OUR ENGLISH MARKS. (WHICH HAPPENS TO BE L1 FOR OUR OH-SO-FAMILIAR L1R5). I PROMISE I'M NOT MOCKING THE GOVERNMENT'S CAMPAIGN. IT'S JUST SOMETHING I THOUGHT OF YESTERDAY, WHILE DAZING MY DAY AWAY.

Using profound words in daily speech has been proven to improve our dwindling english marks tremedously. VOLUNTEERS ANYONE? hee. VOCABULARY SPONSORS ARE WELCOMED WITH OPEN ARMS.

ENROLMENT AS OF 28/9/06 : ONE. (AND IT'S NOT ME!) ^^

WHERE'S MY WALKING DICTIONARY! PFFT.

2006-09-29T23:10:00.000+08:00

It should be a happy day, I should be happy. RIGHT. And yet I'm not exactly feeling my best. No it's got nothing to do with my results, I've got everything I've wanted and more. Perhaps it's indirectly linked to results. It's difficult trying to be humble about it. When people ask for your marks, you can't possibly not answer them, though I would love to and pre-empt all these catastrophes that have inevitably ocurred. When you answer, you try to be humble and say that you didn't really do well and you end up passing off as insensitive. Either that, or you say that you've done well, and you sound as if you're showing off. WHAT THEN AM I SUPPOSED TO DO. It's a lose-lose situation. Perhaps it'll be much easier if all of us kept to ourselves and didn't ask for results in the first place. Maybe we're all being too frank with what we feel about our results, to the extent that it sounds like we're trying to put someone down, when in fact, it was never our intention to do so.

I think I'm just angry at myself for not possessing humility and inner peace to begin with - something that I've always yearned to have. Being secretive about things isn't going to make anything better, yet confrontation when it's the last few months that we're spending together isn't exactly the wisest idea ever. Well at least nothing was thrown at me today. I'm just sick and tired of it. The world is unfair, I know. I probably don't deserve whatever I got, but I did and I can't do anything about it, can I? All we can do at the moment is, comes to terms with it and DO SOMETHING ABOUT IT. Say, how about we GET OVER IT AND START WORKING FOR THE MAIN, MORE IMPORTANT OBJECTIVE? It's not too late to start a clean slate. And I thank Eugene for telling me that too. (: PEACE.

"The higher your authority, the more humble you have to be."
- Eugene, who got this from somewhere which he can't remember exactly. LOL.

2006-09-28T14:53:00.001+08:00

I SUCK AT AMATH. I MADE MYSELF GET MY FIRST B3 ALL BECAUSE OF IT. !@#$% I just want to know what I got for physics practical now, so that I'll know what my L1R5 is exactly. Thank God my chinese isn't that bad, at least I have it as a safety net. I don't know if RJ will take me in, considering all the other better students that are aiming to go there! It's worrying. I know I initially thought that I'll do really badly for prelims because I hardly studied enough and for that I should be satisfied with my results. It is after all human nature to expect more. I know I expected to be taught a lesson for being so complacent about going to do well for prelims. It's not supposed to be this way!! Now I'm going to be much worse! I need to pysche myself that whatever I got was the result of sheer luck, and I can't expect to do as well if I don't work hard. Only then will I be able to motivate myself to do better. Getting these marks was exactly what I've always wanted and now that I've SOMEWHAT attained that, I guess I have to convince myself that I should and must do much better. It all began as if it were a dream, now it's turning around with the TWO SUBJECTS I SUCK AT MOST, being the deciding factor for my L1R5. I just hope I would be able to score well for physics practical. That's the last thing I'm asking for now.

Actually I've wanted to apologise for being insensitive to many many people. I know I'm pretty much unable to control myself when I do well and tend to blurt out nonsense. For that I sincerely apologise. Also like I said, the only way for me to motivate myself is to say that I didn't do as well as I feel I should. If saying that has hurt anyone in any way, I'm terribly sorry. Hopefully, you'll forgive me? I promise I'll make a conscious effort to be more sensitive in the future.

I shall applaud myself for being so damn horrible at doing AMATH. *claps*

QUOTE OF THE DAY: "Remember, how ever well you do, there will always be someone better than you." - HOW VERY TRUE.

2006-09-22T17:59:00.000+08:00

I'm happy happy happy today! Retreat was seriously wonderful. I feel so...PURE AND HOLY. (: AND we asked for forgiveness from so many people that you didn't even feel self conscious or whatsoever anymore. You just went up to them and everything seemed all right after that. We literally let bygones be bygones. It was really an indescribable feeling. I felt uplifted, like I became much lighter, literally of course.

The sharing was great as well! The speaker was so inspirational! I teared, as usual, probably because I just can't stand seeing people cry. I'll really cry too. Not because I can relate to what they're going through, but it just hurts me to see people cry. WEIRD, BUT TRUE. I've seen it happen so many times!

I'm really grateful for this retreat. Who knows, after many years I might still be carrying around this burden all the way from secondary school, thinking that there's something wrong with me because I made so many people angry to the point that the friendship didn't last. HOW SAD THAT WOULD BE! REALLY THANKFUL THAT THE ORGANISERS CAME DOWN AND CONDUCTED IT (: I feel so much happier. Whatever it was that was troubling me yesterday seems not that bad today. Hopefully things will get better!

YESTERDAY
I was so darn worried about getting back emath (which was today), but I'm satisfied! :D I shouldn't have let the news about getting back emath paper ruin my would-be perfect day! I guess I was unusually emotional for some unknown reason. Probably a culmination of events. I seriously felt like breaking down. Maybe the pressure of getting into a good school has just begun rubbing in NOW. I know it's a bit too late though. Had I felt that way earlier I would've been able to be a lot more driven than I was during the prelims. OH WELL, let's just hope and pray we'll do relatively well and the school will moderate moderate moderate. HEE.

We had a career talk yesterday! I must mention that OUR SPEAKER, was and is the best speaker among the rest.(doesn't this sound like some IJ CHEER? *wonders*) NOT ONLY was he good looking (stop laughing Sam!), he was really interesting. NONE OF US FELT BORED. AT ALL. AND AND AND, EX-RI AND RJ STUDENT. AHEM. IN LAW SCHOOL NOW. HELLO? Freaking smart! Sam and even listed out the possible schools he was from, before he told us. SHE WON. !@#$% Actually he really does have the very RI GUY kind of qualitites. OK! sorry rambling off again. YEAH, SO I'M WORRIED BECAUSE I DON'T KNOW WHAT I WANT TO BE NEXT TIME! I've always thought LAW, but recently I've been thinking that I'm not cut out to be one. SO YEAH I'M LOST NOW. =.=

I apologise for the really long post today! Hope I didn't bore everyone? *winces* TOODLES THEN, before you all fall asleep! XD

2006-09-20T12:29:00.000+08:00

PRELIMS ARE OVER, PRELIMS ARE OVERRR *SINGS* YAYYYYY! (: But guess what, we have homework! PLUS PRACTICALS TOMORROW AND FRIDAY. OH WELL. I'd rather have those than exams anyway. So tomorrow, we'll be back to feeling like a part of the school. RecentlyI feel like the sec fours are soooo isolated. lol. like a separate part of the the school, because all we ever do is have exams, study and go home. We don't even stay for recess! THERE IS NO PRACTICALLY NO INTERACTION WITH THE REST OF THE SCHOOL. OMG, we're getting back results next week. From what the teachers have been saying, it doesn't sound good at all. I HOPE IT JUST REFERS TO THE MINORITY. Highly unlikely, but one can hope right? IT'S SO HARD TRYING TO GET A SINGLE DIGIT! I WON'T BE GETTING SIX, I KNOW. I SERIOUSLY DON'T DESERVE THAT ANYWAY. IF I DO GET IT, I'LL BE SOME GENIUS. COS AFTER ALL I PERSONALLY FEEL THAT I DIDN'T DO ENOUGH. HARDLY DID ANYTHING. HAHAHA, I SHALL WATCH BLOOD+! THE SERIES IS ENDING SOON! (:

OH YEAH, SOMETHING REALLY EMBARRASSING HAPPENED THIS MORNING! LIKE THE BUS DRIVER MADE JIANHAO AND I GET DOWN COS WE WENT UP THROUGH THE BACK DOOR. OOPS? We were desperate anyway, we didn't want to be late for our papers. Well, I always thought that something like this would happen. I seriously didn't feel it was right from the beginning, but I never said anything. GOOD THING IS, WE LAUGHED IT OFF. HAHAHA. AND SERIOUSLY, if the people actually moved in, everyone would have made it up the bus. I guess some people are just completely inconsiderate. Maybe schools should have a rule that students being late because of the inefficient and overcrowded buses should and can be excused. It's really not fair. HMPH.

OOH ANYWAY, BLOOD+ has finished loading. TOODLES! (:

2006-09-14T16:03:00.000+08:00

YAYY ANIME IS LOVEEEE. (: I've finished watching FULLMETAL ALCHEMIST and GUNSLINGER GIRL. I'M SUPER HAPPY NOW. It's been so long since I've really watched anime (THANKS TO EXAMS). AND AND AND, BLEACH IS AT EPISODE 96 or something like that. I stopped at episode 81! !#$% PLUS, I tried watching FATE/STAY NIGHT from like where I left off, and I can't remember very much! My computer is seriously running out of space for anime so I ended up watching them off youtube. WHICH TAKES FOREVER TO LOAD BTW. ): BUT IT'S OK. I MAKE GOOD USE OF WAITING TIME, BY STUDYING PHYSICS. SO SMART AYE. -GRIN. YAY I'm so accomplished! I've finished ten chapters of physics plus, TWO ANIME SERIES! I LOVE THIS SO-CALLED ONE WEEK BREAK MORE NOW! :D PHYSICS IS EWWW BUT ANIME IS LOVE! SINCE STUPID FATE/STAY NIGHT DIDN'T WANNA LOAD, I SHALL WATCH BLOOD+ INSTEAD. *skips off to watch more anime* TOODLES!

QUOTE OF THE DAY: 'HE LOOKA LIKE A MAN' -MS BUNNY SWAN <3

2006-09-12T16:08:00.000+08:00

WHYS THERE NO ONE ONLINE NOW! OH WAIT, EVERYONES HAVING STUPID PRELIMS. IM BORED TO TEARS! JUST WHEN I WANNA HAVE SOME FUN, EVERYONES NOT GONNA JOIN IN. *WAILS* AND FRIENDSTER IS SO BORING NOW. WHY? COS EVERYONES BUSY STUDYING. *CURSES* I WANNA WATCH ANIME! LIKE LIKE...OMG. YOUTUBE! -GRINS. MY SAVIOURRRR. *RUNS ALONG*

2006-09-12T12:28:00.000+08:00

I'm back! :D YAY papers for this week are over! SIX DAYS BEFORE THE LAST FOUR PAPERS! *dances* I seriously think I screwed up my physics practical today. There goes my chance of hoping to redeem my physics marks. Guess I just have to work that much harder these few days for AMATH AND PHYSICS. Not my most favourite subjects, but ahh I've gotta put in some effort.

History was all right I guess. SBQ was quite unexpected, IT WAS RUSSIA (AGAIN!) HELLO? WE HAVE HAD LIKE FOUR EXAMS SO FAR AND RUSSIA HAS COME OUT THREE TIMES? THANK GOD I REMEBERED SOME STUFF FROM THAT CHAPTER, WELL THE SOURCES HELPED A LOT TOO. SEQ WAS....NOT TOO BAD I THINK. At least I studied on of the chapters that came out. Didn't have much choice so I did JAPAN anyway, considering the fact that I didn't manage to study WARTIME CONFERENCES and THE ROAD TO WAR. OH WELL. HOPEFULLY I CAN GET A1 for SS/HIST. REALLY REALLY HOPE SO. I'll be really good after that! I PROMISE. Like I'll study and not procrastinate so much anymore! JUST LESS THAN TEN FOR PRELIMS WILL MAKE ME THE HAPPIEST PERSON ALIVE ALREADY. Actually, the end of exams makes me the happiest person alive cos, hey! I survived this! -grin. BUT YEAH, DOING WELL MAKES IT ALL WORTH IT.

EMATH WAS NOT TOO BAD. EXCEPT THAT VECTOR QUESTION! MY GAWD, I spent so much time trying to figure it out! I think I'm gonna die for that question and the transformation question. I was just so confused during the exam. POOR ME. AND AND AND, I BLAME IT ALL ON INSOMNIA! IT TOOK ME TWO HOURS TO FALL ASLEEP! I ended up sleeping at around two instead of twelve, which is already bad enough. Well, I was trying to revise history before bedtime that's why. I VOW NEVER TO DO SIT UPS BEFORE SLEEPING, COS I TRIED IT YESTERDAY AND I COULDN'T SLEEP AGAIN. =.= But maybe it's due to stress or something. HAHA. LET'S GO HAVE FUN FUN FUN. ARGH ANYWAY I WENT TO SCHOOL YESTERDAY FEELING SO SICK AND MY HEAD FELT....EMPTY. I THINK I LEFT MY BRAIN AT HOME THAT'S WHY I COULDN'T DO SIMPLE QUESTIONS LIKE VECTORS. PFFT. IT'S EMATH FOR GOODNESS SAKE! The whole paper is 100 marks and I choose to have insomnia on the night before it. RAH.

BUT in the end it was fun because during the break before history paper, I was feeling super high. I swear laughing is an aphrodisiac. The slightest things made me laugh so hard! Audrey and the rest kept saying that my face was so red. OH WELL! *covers my face* I had this little 'fight' with WANCHING, and my fingers ended up hitting her watch! IT WAS SO PAINFUL I TELL YOU. I pretended I didn't wanna talk to her after that. LOL. THEN AUDREY ASKED US TO SAY SORRY AND MAKE UP. SOUNDS SO PRIMARY SCHOOL CAN. HAHA I'M SO SLEEPY AND HUNGRY NOW. SHALL NAP AND HAVE LUNCH! TOODLES!

Cause I've got you to make me feel stronger
When the days are rough and an hour feels much longer

2006-09-10T17:09:00.000+08:00

RAHHH the holidays are over just like that! its not fun anymore! school starts tomorrow and PRELIMS TOO. Well re-commences anyway.

All these weird thoughts keep flooding my brain:
-what if the chapters i studied dont come out for SEQ?
-WHAT IF THE CHAPTERS I DIDNT STUDY COMES OUT FOR SBQ? (well I pulled it off during mid year, who is to say it will happen again?)
-WHAT IF I CANT REMEMBER WHAT I STUDIED. THAT IS THE ULTIMATE NIGHTMARE FOR ME AYE. *starts to panic*

I LOVE HISTORY. I REALLY DO. ALWAYS HAVE. I JUST DONT LIKE MAO AND CHINA. GORBACHEV ISNT SO BAD ONCE YOUVE READ THE CHAPTER. LOL. GLASNOST AND PERESTROIKA. *dances around* HES QUITE FUNNY ACTUALLY. ENCOURAGE THE RELINQUISHING OF POWER OF THE SOVIET UNION SUBTLY,THROUGH THESE POLICIES. But not subtle enough aye? Cos MELLIE FOUND OUT HIS SECRET! HE DIDNT NEED THE SATELLITE STATES WHO WERE HOGGING RUSSIAS WEALTH AND RESOURCES, SO HE CAME UP WITH A PLAN TO GET RID OF THEM. *EVIL LAUGHTER*

I SO NEED A LIFE. (cant you tell? Ive resorted to deciphering historical leaders and their devious plans!) BUT I NEED A PROPER KEYBOARD NOW. I THINK SOME BUTTONS AINT WORKING. Plus, everytime I type apostrophe, some weird word search thingy appears. Notice Ive not used it at all in my contractions? the arrow buttons arent working too. THIS IS GETTING ANNOYING. haha I should like get back to history: CULTURAL REVOLUTION. GOD SAVE ME.

2006-09-05T14:22:00.000+08:00

HELLO! Really sorry for not updating recently, studying can be so boring. I'm currently at my uncle's house and i'm not supposed to be online/using the computer lol, but I didn't really realise how boring certain chapters of history can be! Anyway, my friend told me that he had a dream about me this morning (cause he slept at three, it's hardly called night anymore is it?) Well, it was funny/weird and I won't go into detail about it. If you're someone close to me, you'd probably already know. If you're close to me but you don't know yet, I probably haven't found the chance to tell you that's all. Don't fret it!

I'm like in the room now, with the air conditioning on, it's so so cold i tell you. haha. and i'm gonna bore everyone talking about exactly what i'm doing at this point of time. =.= OH YES! my uncle brought me out for dinner on sunday night, and he bought me shoes! not really shoes, but like wedgies (or is it called wedges? lol) and pumps! (: yay yay yay. happy happy. Sadly i'm not going out anytime soon (STUPID EXAMS!), so i won't be using them now. I guess they'll be stashed in the corner at the moment! Ok, i can't believe I'm such a procrastinator! I can't even study history properly and it's probably the only subject I can score the best in, or study the most for. I think I should study but WHERE IS THE MOTIVATION WHEN I MOST NEED IT!! *cries* I so wanna do well! ): FINE I shall go study! TOODLE-LOO! -grins.

2006-09-02T21:37:00.000+08:00

These few days have been the best! slack all day long, watch tv like nobody's business, come online and chat chat chat. SO FUN! why can't it be like this everyday? haha. i've not even touched my books until erm last night or something when I needed to rush my tuition hw. Then I realised I had not enough time, so I ended up staying up till two and still didn't complete it. oh well.

Since I have practically nothing to blog about, I shall reply to tags! (: It's been such a long time since I've done that! HAHA. I'm sooo deprived right.

GRACE: hello! It's no problem! (: just don't think about it so much yeah. If you need to talk about anything, just let me know! <3

NICOLE: haha. sorry bout not updating. just been rather lazy and having too much fun to actually sit down and blog. lol. for some strange reason, the posts that you updated on your blog this whole week? I couldn't see them until today. so I had like one whole chunk of stuff to read about. PSST. If anyone buys you "BRING IT ON: all or nothing" MAKE SURE YOU LET ME WATCH TOO!! -grins. so cool so cool! LET'S ELOPE TO AUSTRALIA!! :D btw, you really have WEIRDOS tagging on your tagboard. haha. who cares about them anyway!

LYNETTE: HEY THERE! It's no problem! thanks for offering dear! (: you're so sweet! LOVE YOU TOO! <3

HUISHIAN: XIAOSHIAN!! (: YAY I love going home with you! haha. thanks dearie, so sweet of you to try and comfort me. I forsee myself getting 54points for prelims already. lol. It's no use. too late haha. I, ON THE OTHER HAND, forsee YOU doing WELL! haha. (: study hard all right! Don't worry so much, considering how hardworking you are, it's a given that you'll be doing much better than me. HOHO. <33!

OLGA: YOU CRAZY PRINCIPAL OF ERM, OCS! WATCH OUT FOR ME! COS I'M GONNA TAKE OVER AS PRINCIPAL! OR EVEN BETTER, AS BOARD DIRECTOR! HAHAHA. I'M A BETTER COMEDIAN THAN YOU ANYWAY! HEEHEE. TAKE CARE! I'LL LINK YOU RIGHT AFTER I'M DONE WITH THIS POST! (:

OK, I'M DONE NOW. YAY "LOVE TO KILL" is starting in....35 minutes! RAIN RAIN RAIN! <3 sigh, my heart throb always and forever! sadly he dies. OOPS? not supposed to say that but I think people already know! oh well.

Let's waste time chasing cars and just forget the world.

2006-08-27T16:38:00.000+08:00

ANYWAY, TO MAKE UP FOR MY LAST DEPRESSING POST, I WOULD JUST LIKE TO CONGRATULATE MY DARLING JUNIORS OF IJTPNETBALLCLUB IN ATTAINING SECOND FOR PESTA SUKAN 2006. I'M EXTREMELY PROUD OF ALL OF YOU! (: CONTINUE WORKING HARD AND I KNOW YOU GUYS WILL BE ABLE TO DO VERY VERY WELL. HOPE YOU GUYS LIKED THE CARDS AND ALL. I'M GONNA MISS EVERY SINGLE MEMORY I'VE HAD OF NETBALLCLUB. I'M GONNA MISS EVERY SINGLE ONE OF YOU EVEN MORE. BUT I PROMISE I'LL COME BACK ONE FINE DAY TO TRAIN AND SEE YOU GUYS! -BEAMS- TILL THEN, ALL THE BEST AND TAKE CARE ALL RIGHT! MELLIE LOVES YOU ALL! <3333

2006-08-27T16:29:00.000+08:00

I'm definitely not feeling like the happiest person on earth right now.
1. SS IS TOMORROW AND I'M AT FREAKING CHAPTER ONE. LORD SAVE ME.

2. I FEEL LIKE I'M SUCH A HORRID HORRID PERSON ALL THE TIME AND PEOPLE JUST DISLIKE ME.

3. EMATH. WHAT ABOUT EMATH! IF I'M GONNA BE SPENDING THE NEXT FEW HOURS CRAMMING SS INTO MY PEA-SIZED BRAIN, I'M GONNA BE NEGLECTING EMATH WHICH IS A SUPPOSED SURE A1 SUBBIE.

4. MY SIX POINTS ARE FLYING AWAY...INTO OUTER SPACE. EXCUSE MY VERY STUPID ANALOGY, BUT IT SURE FEELS THAT WAY.

5. SHOULD I JUST TALK AND IRRITATE THE WHOLE WORLD, OR JUST SHUT UP AND LET THEM THINK THAT I FEEL I'M TOO GOOD TO TALK TO ANYONE. EITHER WAY, I END UP PASSING OFF AS A STUCK UP PERSON WHO FEELS LIKE I'M THE BEST IN THE ENTIRE WORLD.

6. I KNOW IT'S TRUE WHAT YOU SAID DEARIE. BUT I JUST DON'T KNOW WHAT TO DO ABOUT IT. CHANGING CAN BE SO SO DIFFICULT. YOU OF ALL PEOPLE SHOULD KNOW THAT. I WISH I DIDN'T CHANGE EITHER. BUT IT'S ALREADY HAPPENED. SHOULD I TURN BACK TIME?

7. LASTLY, I'M SORRY FOR THIS VERY VERY DEPRESSING POST IN WHICH I KNOW I'VE BEEN RANTING AND COMPLAINING THROUGHOUT. I HATE EXAMS. IT MAKES EVERYONE SO IRRITABLE, SERIOUSLY. RAHHH.

2006-08-26T16:40:00.000+08:00

TUITION HOMEWORK KILLLSS! *dies* DOING HOMEWORK FOR AMATH,EMATH,PHYSICS AND CHEM IN JUST ERM ONE DAY IS NEVER A GOOD IDEA. REMIND ME NEVER TO SLACK MY FRIDAYS AWAY AGAIN. It's always the stupid mentality that there's always the weekend that causes me to lose productive (or potentially productive) study time. And it doesn't help that I've not started SS, CHEM AND GEOG AT ALL. How dead am I again? *groans*

STUPID SOMEONE HAS ONLY TWO DAYS OF SCHOOL NEXT WEEK! @#$%^ UNFAIR! I don't wanna have O levels too! ): why couldn't I have been smarter in primary school! Then maybe i could've benefited from IP. TSK. MAYBE THEN, GOING INTO RJ WOULD BE SUCH A BREEZE! Close one eye and end up there. ARGHHH.

On a lighter note, the holidays are coming! well, the so-called holiday where WE have to mug throughout. At least there're no exams during that period, and I can attempt to erm revise history and phyics, do amath and TRY to enjoy the week 'off'. of course all of the above are TENTATIVE. Why do i always sound like i don't study? lol.

2006-08-25T23:06:00.000+08:00

Argh! i don't understand how i can actually get the format for situational essay wrong! it's gonna cost me my A1, no doubt about that. hopefully the teachers are nice and lenient and erm they'll overlook my 'little' slip.

i know it's been eons since i last blogged. things have just been so crazy the whole of this year. taking the O levels drains you in so many ways unconscionable. grr. i still dont see why we should have so much homework BEFORE prelims? when we're supposed to be revising. yes i do agree that it does help to a certain extent but giving us TOO MUCH work is another thing! i can ask people in my level " how many of us feel overwhelmed by the homework?" i can safely say that 90% of the student population would say yes. the other 10% don't do their work. *grins*

I've been thoroughly hooked to blog hopping recently and my love for blogging has once again been rekindled. like how oxygen rekindles a glowing splint. SEE THIS IS WHAT STUDYING DOES TO YOU! i swear it makes you go crazy and so irrelevant at times. After this, i'm so gonna change my blogskin. if i'm not wrong i've had this for...years now. *blushes* i'm so ashamed of myself. too caught up with school work and erm studying (however little of it i do). it's so so so tragic that we won't have free periods in the library anymore! I had so much fun with the different groups of people i sat with and talked trash with. lol. emily, nicole, victoria, lai meng, reca, diana, audrey and the others, thank you! those days were seriously fun. (: haven't had so much fun for quite some time. SOCIAL STUDIES, EMATH1 ON MONDAY, GEOG ON TUES, CHEM ON WED. now how many people are looking at this and going: SHIT i've not studied much of these at all, cramming all these into one weekend is impossible! answer: MANY. >.<

the beating of our hearts is the only sound

2006-05-10T14:33:00.000+08:00

EXAMS ARE OFFICIALLY OVER! well at least for me. words cannot express my immense joy...so i shall not describe it. hee hee. physics was really really bad. haha but i shall not bother about it! We shall all do badly together! lol. worry bout it when we wait for our exam papers. history was all good...except for SBQ where i kinda crapped my way through. hopefully i can get marks. haha. dunno whether i can actually achieve my aim of being first in history? last year just missed by ONE mark. pretty pathetic eh. but there's still SS and that i'm not so confident about. haha. we'll just see when the time comes.
Now that exams are over we'll have to divert our attention to RMUN! presentation is on the 20th and we have not even started. YAY US! haha. we don't even know how we're supposed to go about doing it. stupid LO is not responding. =.= we're supposed to present it to Ms Chow like on monday but we're so not sure of what to even present about. seems like winning RMUN this year isn't such an easy feat after all. haha south korea in the cold war period? =.= what have we got to do with the cold war. lol. And ECOSOC's doing trade barriers and new protectionism? like wth. i'm so not fit for thingies to do with the economy but i'm in ECOSOC anyway. haha.

OK. my standard of english has dropped tremendously. half of what i typed today probably has a thousand grammatical errors and i stupidly don't even notice it. heck. must.do.vocabulary. must read more books. been missing out on a lot of good books recently. i blame it on the other books i have to hit. haha. wonder if anyone ever knows what i'm talking about. ramble ramble ramble.

i'm currently so into fate/stay night but it's taking such a painstaking long long time to come out! and Prince of Tennis OVA too. sigh. they love making us wait in suspense. bleach better come out today. HMPH. alritey i'm getting hungry all of a sudden. haven't had lunch yet. better go whip something up. hee hee. TATA!

2006-05-07T00:36:00.000+08:00

meow meow meow. silly me. what a super long time it's been. school's been a dread. seriously. and exams are....let's not talk bout it, shall we? haha. i still have no idea where i'm plannign to go after this year! i don't even noe what i'm planning to take! i have no ambition. DIE DIE DIE! i shall be nice and just post a really short one today. from today on, i shall try to remember to update my blog...at least once a week. whee. yay me! watch me i'm gonna model for MANGO and ZARA! hahahaha. *inside joke*

still have A MATH on tues and HIST AND PHYSICS on wed! good luck to everyone taking their mids btw! (: wish me luck! i hope my blog will come alive again! *crosses fingers*

2005-08-24T17:54:00.000+08:00

Hee hee! aren't u guys surprised to see my post here? lol. i noe it's not after exams yet but i felt like i needed to pour everything out at the moment. well i'm just freakin stressed. thank god that the CAs are finally over after a whole term of pure torture having five tests in a week, every week. damn mad. it's no wonder i've lost myself amidst all the 'excitement' . =.=" oh yeah wanna congratulate seren, Ali-cia, Germs, Meng Jung, Joan, Nicky and Jocelyn on being the new prefect council. U guys sincerely deserved it! (:

In a matter of what a few weeks the sec fours will be leaving! argh. gonna miss them! thank goodness for msn; and the wonderful invention of phones by Alexander Graham Bell. good for you, dude. haha. guess what ms Shanthi cancelled trng all of a sudden. I've yet to noe of the reason but i will soon. *evil grin* was so peeved cos of it. but wonderful Zee came up with the idea of having fun on our own without coach and the rest of the team. GO ZEE! we had loads of fun! haha.

Argh. everything hasn't really been gg well. I noe i've drifted away and all that, but i dunno i really wanna get back with them but.... i just dunno. i really miss the times that we had, that was just sheer pure fun, always listening to me and even giving me the weird looks. haha. thinking back bout it, it was great but i guess it's time to move on? or not. nowadays i've just really afraid that if i get back with them, someone else will feel that i have left them out. there's this element of fear in me now. I don't wanna lose her as a fren but i wanna get back with them! they probably think that i've forgotten bout them and all that. but i can promise u it's not true. even after everything, they are still my bestest frens that i have/ had (?) sigh. what should i do?

On top of that i've been failing at every damn thing i do. i haven't exactly done well for anything at all so far. I've even lost my knack for shooting (if i ever did have any) argh. i guess it's time to change my position but then again i can't do well in any position, not even when i'm Goal shooter. this second half of the yr has really been trash. like i broke down after stupid A math cos i knew i was gonna fail. again. rahh. and the thing is that my mum doesn't noe bout my marks. so when she does i'll be dead. like really. she doesn't take explaining, it's all lame excuses to her. better prepare my tomb. haiz.

I've been so darn busy i haven't really got the time to sit down and have a talk with them. I have a feeling that they're all facing sth at the moment, or was. and the worst thing is, i'm not there for them! even though we're just a few steps away, it's two different worlds? being in different classes is tough. i thought that it wouldn't really be a problem, but it is. silly me. And i really wanna email gill and Nicole but... if i do, i'll start writing a super long one and it's gonna take me forever to do it. really deprived of my likes at the moment. shucks. i realised for 'fruits basket' i'm 6 volumes behind and for 'love for venus' 2 volumes behind. grr. stupid exams.

but i guess i have to wake up soon.actually now. cos i don't have very much time left. FY is just round the corner. blah. really wanna do well. hope God will at least give me this grace. please?

I miss P&W sessions. in need of major healing here. :(

and hmm. u've been missing in action for quite a bit. getting sick of me, huh? wells, what's new ne way. no surprise. continue with what u're doing, i'll get over it. i'm just a blardy attention seeker ne way. :P

2005-05-13T15:37:00.000+08:00

I'm back! it's been half a yr...oops! sorry ppl. aiyo ne way exams are over! now i am just slacking my ass off. hee hee. i love the feeling of after-exams. it's just so rejuvenating. i have nvr been so happy after exams before. after all this is the first yr that i have not done "night-before exam studying" i can't believe it but this is the first time that i actually started studying earlier than always. even though i didn't start early enough. sigh. i just hope i don't fail ne thing. i just hope that i'll be happy with my marks and so will everyone. sigh. it's so pressurising having to meet expectations. but it's over now i can't do ne thing else but pray.

I've basically been watching tv, sleeping till ten, watching My MVP valentine and eating lots. haha. how surprising. -.-" i think my MVP valentine rocks. haha... i just wanna get the whole set! i wanna watch inuyasha too. i didn't even get my fushigi yuugi OVA yet. and i wanna play netball. thank god for interclass netbal carnival at KNC! though netballers can't play at least during prep time for the carnival i can still do sth associated with netball.like i can help lynette with her shooting though i can't do much cos my shooting's worse than her. and she has nvr trained to be a shooter until last yr's interclass. her shooting's almost perfect. so cool man she.

it's after exams and what's on my mind now?

results(not so much), netball, badminton, getting tanner, swimming, erm watching more TV and VCDs? dunno. mayb i shld get someone to come to my hse to go to the gym with me! i definitely won't go alone ne way. i need company. oh ya..RMUN i guess it's back to prep for conference day. and IJ heartbeat i'm doing duty for prefects. also... the IJ primary camp for prefects too. it's killing me. all these things. that's why i'm convinced that i won't become a counsillor. even if i want to.also i noe that i can't cope with it. look at me now, struggling as it is.

i hope i can go out on monday with the CLIQUE. we rock! then i can spend more time with gill and nicole. *hugs* they're gonna leave soon. sigh. friday's lunch (ahem, brunch) with eve and val was just so fun! i just hope we can stay like this close forever then we won't have to go through the pains of drifting apart. it is the quarells that i have with (ahem) that brings us closer. at least that's what i think. i realise every single one time we quarell just how sensitive she is and how she feels the need to feel impt.and how much faith she puts in the clique. i always feel that the clique means a lot to me..but it means more to her than it does to me. sigh i love ya babe. i'm sorry (for...u noe?) hee hee. i just hope we won't quarell again. it breaks my heart to see that u're not talking to me okies? if u're ever angry with me again..just tell me. or i can figure it out myself.but u hv to tell me the reason...then i'll change. i'll try, seriously.

oopsie. getting tat too long. hee hees. well that's mel for u. i love rhymes! lol.

*the truth is....*

2005-03-07T09:01:00.000+08:00

Sec 3 adventure camp seriously rocked.it's like one of the best camps i've ever been to. besides the ES4E camp that i went to in pri sch. ne ways, the dragon boating was the best mann. 1 up, 2 up! heex! oh well. Dewei if u're reading this, listen up: u helped to make this camp really enjoyable dude! *tuo diao tuo diao* hahahaha! the chicken dance was damn funny also. ne way! u must really be missing us! lol. we were quite mischievious and all that but we were nice don't u think so?? *batters eyelashes* nth beats being an IJ girl! woohoo! we really enjoyed ourselves!

2005-03-01T17:06:00.000+08:00

HELLOS! mellie's here. -.- hee hee. i managed to go for the injection today and came back just in time to do the piggy backs for PE. i guess it wasn't too bad. i wanted to do skipping though.sigh too bad. btw i carried all the lighter ppl like abigail, nerissa and lai meng haha...i am such a cheater.oh well. i missed the chem test so i hv to take it tmr... tmr is wednesday, it's heats day too! groans...guess what i am doing 100m and 200m.like they did not even consult me before they added my name to the list la. and we hv to make our own way to tp stadium and back. GREAT.

my arm hurts so much. owie!the injection was rite at the part of my arm where the muscles are super tense so it hurts real bad. How am i gg to go for adventure camp with this stupid arm hurting? Qian2 said that it would take a week to go off.like thanks a lot. :X grr i dunno what the outcome of the heats tmr will be like. eeks.freaking out here. hate the starting line...esp when they ask u to get ready it's really scary! *tears hair out*

oh ya... 'C' Div lost to St Margarets yesterday...like all the netballers are damn sad la. this is the first time in so many years... and the worst thing is that they actually won raffles already but lost to St margs?? omg...Qian said that the shooting was horrible. they actually every ball down just that they did not shoot it in properly and didn't manage to get the rebound too. IT IS SO SAD! yesterday was the sadest day mann. sigh it's so wasted. bout the netball pics, vicky is pissed off with me. like it is totally not my fault. she did not pay for it and she asked me to pay for it for her? like wth! it's $15 where am i gg to get the money from? so obviously and i din pay for her. i alr told her that it was the last day if not she will not get the pics but did she listen? no! so ms shanthi sent the orders in alr...she is not the only one who has not payed btw. sigh whatever!

haha..like i predicted, i failed the physics retest. let's just say that i could hv done very well if i did not panic during the exam. i got 10 again. oh well. the funny thing was that i got full marks for the MCQ (that's 6 marks alr) and the other questions were basically done horribly and not to mention carelessly. sigh... the thing is that i noe my work and i shldn't hv failed. seriously, i think i really hv to learn to relax.
this is what happened during the exam:
looks at the paper, does the Mcq, thinks that everything's wrong, tries to redo everything again. goes to the next part, gets mixed up with the meaning of section....(i eventually got only 2 marks for this out of 7). mel goes to the nxt pg and looks at the questions, panics, doesn't noe what to do for all the questions (they were rather obvious answers actually) tried to draw the graph, fumbles, gets confused again, starts to get scared and cries(lol.i noe.) left almost the whole page blank. and i eventually got another 2 marks at this page, out of 12) so ya i failed by 2 and a 1/2 marks. hurray for mel! well i thought that i would hv gotten a zero but i actually managed to get 10 marks! even though i failed. -.-

oh well i gtg study geog and chem now! sayonara! to my sis: help me give kissies to bella! (u can hv a few too if u want.) hahahaha.... XD IJ TP NETBALL CLUB rocksmore than CJC netball! :P

2005-02-25T21:23:00.000+08:00

Hello! this whole week has been superr horrible. tests tests ans more tests... i failed e math by half a mark, then got 24/25 for the re-test, then had physics re-test today(u can INFER that i failed that too) which they made even more difficult than the one that i failed. Where's the logic behind that?don't get me started on physics...i hv only 1 thing to say: i din noe that MR chan can be worse than mr cheah.his mood swings are like the pendulum bob with a 90 degree angle. STOOPID idiot. so unfair! every class had two marks added to their paper cos those two qns had errors in them but did we get it? NO. he instead marked according to our answers. grr. My mum and other classmates' mums are gonna complain. i hope he gets fired and thrown out. Heh serves him right.

Dunno what the hell is wrong with the school or MOE. My class is i think the only class which has many cadet teachers... History, Physics Chemistry.Whatever, u noe 3/1 and 3/3 do not have a single cadet teacher. this might be due tothe fact that the teachers think that we will be able to cope with it but the truth is we can't! We are doing badly. What is wrong with them??!! Why us?

Well next week isn't very promising too! i have A math test on monday, chem on tues with chinese, chinese compre on wednesday together with geog. then i have to go for a booster jab on tues. i'll be missing ss and chem? and maybe wll be slightly late for PE. so i gotta take the chem test during recess? dunno la. wed i've got heats for 100m! YIKES! *drops dead* i've got trng on that day too! guess what we are doing for PE? weights n we also have to piggy back our friend up the steps. i made sure that i partnered Nerissa.heex. then i gotta go for heats/trng then thurs we hv to go for the 3D/2N sec 3 adventure camp.i am damn scared..i noe that i will be dead tired next week! i just hope that it's really worth it. i noe that i am not going to Perth ne more.there's no space. no news so far. oh well. I hv to go for heats...dunno if i can run for sports day.guess what beitris is in it too! she's gonna win me! shit with sam boh too! argh! i really don't stand a chance here. hope for the best!

Today was so great! waiting for Eve and going home with her for the first time this yr really topped the day! we had a sushi fest at coro! i really miss her and everyone. we really are drifting apart! that is what i am most afraid of. sigh!we had so much fun! *reminiscences* really wished that uni and val and the rest of them were with us tho. then it would have been one of our serene lunch at macs outing. miss that too. really missed the day that prem n I had lunch at macs alone. and we gossiped (gasp). well i will nvr forget the day that uni's wallet was at the school bus stop and we went all the way to SJI and back using my money.hahaha it was my fault la.i made her get on the bus even though she couldn't find her wallet. *looks away* we waited for 156 for so long that's why i was desperate. i din wanna wait some more. the best thing was that the moment we found her wallet, 156 came. God was with us i am sure! :D

I am so thankful for the rain yesterday! Invest was fun yet tiring. too bad i can't go for the dinner tmr. i've got tuition arnd that time. sigh. hosted ACS (I) and Cat High with Yvelyn and Seren and Al-Olympia and Emily! Did i mention that Al-Olympia's sis is so gorgeous? and they are superr rich i am sure.many cars, big family, lavish clothes and accessories. ah heck!hmph.
lent my umbrella to Marianne Chang which she has still not returned to me. the seniors were teasing us saying that we looked like a scene "from a love story" like whatever! cos we were in the rain and everything. groan

I thought i lost my wallet this week and i panicked like hell and it ended up in the car.thx to those who comforted and assured me that it was in the car! i guess u guys were right! :D then i did something even stupider that same day.i left the netball photos in the hall after i left for home. siti took it and passes it to a netballer whom she did not noe.smart.found out it was shona.i got hell from all the sch team netballers. well i got my retribution. ms shanthi just said it's ok. thank god. tried to collect all the money by today.with some ppl who did not order and/or pay yet.left a note on Ms shanthi's table to ask her to help me to collect the rest after they come back from today's match apparently, she did not even look for them. i hope she doesn't get angry at me for not doing my job well and leaving it to her. sigh. i hate being a leader sometimes. i was so pissed ans angry this week la. they only gave me the photos and order list on tuesday for me to coolect 36 people's orders and money. and the photographer came that day to collect them. of course i couldn't so we got an extension from the photographer. phew! it was not my fault! grr i really need a better life.

2005-02-14T12:16:00.000+08:00

woohoo! like i am so ecstatic! i just came back the check up at alexandra hospital, and the good news is... i can wear shoes! and i can play sports! so this means...i can go for sports day and train and go for PE! yay! finally! i have waited for this day since last year. u all have no idea how out of shape i am now. like everyone else alr started PE and training and everything except me. so while evryone else is speeding off, i am still behind. -.-" haha...that's me! the doc was quite funny, at least he wa much friendlier than the other doc. oh well. he said that my toe looked good (is it cute or good looking?lol) so he said that i'm fine and i don't have to go back for another review! God has answered my prayers! i just hope that i'm not getting false hope like always.

the bad news is... i have three tests tmr. supposed to have e math today but i did not go to sch so i hv to take it tmr, then there's SS source-based test (which i am gg to flunk no doubt bout that) and there's physics SPA prac tmr). these three tests on top of the humongous amt of homework that i have accumulated since last week and not to mention my usual amt of tuition hw for chem, a math, e math and physics...and the usual arrangement for organ which i haven't touched for the last two weeks are the top priority in my head this valentines' day. groan haha...oh well. i'm glad i didn't go to church yesterday *wink wink* (i think.i just hope God doesn't punish my whole family for that) sigh...this wednesday i can finally wear the netabll jersey with zee and start out tanning sessions! hee hee hee. and i can finally start learning to do steps although everyone else learnt it last yr. i am so behind... i just hope that jasper (who always, unfortunately, is the goal keeper) doesn't step on my toe which is still nail-less btw.

ah well! i am just happy, trying not to think bout a lot of stuff but ya...pulling through barely.
i just wish that everything will change for the better after cny. aha! invest is coming soon! and...i am hosting first toa payoh sec. eeks i haven't hosted a sch before! oh ya...and i have to finish the slides for invest by wednesday and i am only getting the details like tmr! they expect to work at the speed of light? wait a minute...i don't even have powerpoint! argh! shit...i forgot! now i gotta msg Sam Lee. groan.

perth trip is STILL unconfirmed. my mum is supposed to give my teacher an answer by tmr.i think she forgot about it. dunno how i am gg to remind her bout it.i hate doing these stuff.she will definitely say that i am pestering her. grrr...and one more thing. I HATE GABY. she is such an idiot dunno what the hell is wrong with her. temperamental, judgemental...everything -mental! seriously think she has some management issues here. don't wish to talk bout it ne more...and i'd better start studying now! bye! i love my gurlfriends to pieces! <3 Prem, Sze, Eve, Gill, Val, Nicole and Uni! u guys rock! Nerissa rocks too. she's sucha sweet girl! haha...

2005-02-07T16:00:00.000+08:00

guess what happened today. like mr cheah happily picked on me again today. tell u the worst thing, mr chan came in and we were like "we are saved! mr chan has come back to teach us!" but a few minutes later, Mr Cheah walked in... wth, we all nearly cried la. lol. i wanted to faint personally. ya, he started the lesson with: "who wants to volunteer to write the answers for qn no. 1 on the board?" obviously none of us wanted to. his face makes me sick. so ya, he said "ok no one wants to volunteer so i shall pick!" like hooray. -.-" and surprise surprise! he said "ok i pick...Melissa." i could have sworn the class kinda groaned with a 'again?' i actually knew he was gonna call me cos he kept staring at me before he started picking. so like i always do,i looked away hoping he won't see me.so unlikely. so i 'happily' went to the board to write out the answers and he said, "aren't u gonna draw a diagram?" my nice supportive classmates said "don't need to draw diagram la! (esp siree i heard her so loudly.) but anyhow he decided that i just had to draw a diagram.so i did that. grr...so humiliating. i hate gg up to the board to be humiliated by the teacher even though the answer is correct. -.-" the last time he picked on me cos i was stoning...i was staring at the chinese new yr board. it was much more interesting than his lesson ne way.and it was in chinese.i got the answer wrong, but that's beside the point. later, someone sent a little 'love letter' down the row that says 'don't sleep or do that, mrs tang is behind and i don't want her to complain about our class again.' like wth,i was not the only one not paying attention la. half the class wasn't! and he had to pick me. grr...

like later on, i din understand/agree with what he said so i kinda started my own little 'try to understand things by urself' session with swathi. he later said "melissa stop talking for a while and listen first." ya ya ya...i get u. ne way i just can't wait for nxt week to come cos...mr chan is starting to teach us nxt week! yipee! *jumps arnd* no more Mr Cheah!! *sings* oh well.mr cheah is a better teacher than mr chan and he's less fierce, but i prefer the non-jerk. ;)

I'm leaving for cameron highlands tmr! hee hee hee.this means missing school tmr and friday. and i'm not coming to sch on monday cos i'm gg to alexandra hospital for appt. groan...which also means, LOADS of homework. lucky me. about the perth trip it is still quite uncertain. my dad wants to let me go, but he's afraid that my mum will kill him or that we can't afford the blardy $1000. but i seriously want to go! like this is the only trip that i can go for. i don't wanna go to yunnan. and almost all my friends are gg! yipee! if i go it's gonna be so cool. since lynette and nerissa alr found a new room mate, i might be able to share with uni and val! woot! :) i just really hope that mrs kunna manages to persuade my mum to let me go. *prays silently*

oh i went for dressing today, my dad sent me there. THANK YOU! haha...my toe still looks sick though it's much better than the last time. It's drying up quite fast! The only downside is that while i am in cameron i have to do the dressing on my own, every other day. oh well if i want it to get well i have to do it. (aww... i don't wanna see my toe up close, it's scary!) lol. i still have to pack! *wails* i hate packing! i always bring too much! haha...now u noe, mel packs extra stuff. oh and btw, (i noe i'm digressing...but), mr cheah pronounces my name in a weird manner. i guess it's because he speaks too much singlish...and i gotta control my voice in class cos what i say bout the teachers they can hear...oops? ya...today has been so tiring cos i slept at 2 am last nite,doing ss. ne way i am still as gay (as in happy! not the other one!) as ever! i can't wait for my toe to heal, then i can do so many normal things...like running arnd and all that.most importantly i can train and go for heats for sports day! 100m rocks! :) yuppers! i gotta go now! see everyone soon!

2005-02-06T11:26:00.000+08:00

Homura is your ideal match!!

grr I've got so much to do and yet i feel like slacking so much. sigh. i guess i am still not used to school starting. i think at the rate that they are gg they are gg to finish two years' syllabus in like one yr. stupid. i think i screwed up all my tests. like i got a freaking 4/12 for my social studies essay. don't even noe what the stupid Mrs Fam talks about during her lessons. although i acknowledge that her geog book was written well. sigh she can't teach ss! what is wrong with the school. and my stupid physics teacher is so egoistic... i was waving to marianne chang that day and he was behind so he thought that i was waving to him and he smiled... like gross, what is wrong with him! major ego problem mann. *shudders at the thought*

sigh ne way i went for the toe surgery on monday, my toe's still hurting though it's much better now. so now my toe is officially missing the nail. haha. it looks really sick. i've seen it up close. eww...haha so well sonn's gone off to adelaide alr. cried OVER the phone. can u imagine if i went to the airport i wouldn't let her leave mann. OH WELL. i guess that's one good reason why i shldn't have gone. ne way i had chem teast the nxt day. which i screwed up nevertheless. can't imagine sending gill and nicole off. it would be so painful. i just hope that that time never comes.which will nvr happen but at least let us have more time with them? i dunno.

Cat class starts on the 20th. i just found out something that's really disturbing. it's just too unbelievable. sigh like i always say...why me?? my head's overloaded with so many things inside...so many things to worry about. i just dunno when i will give up and explode. mayb then i might feel better after letting it all out. *who noes* rite i'd better go! btw, PRINCE OF TENNIS 142 rocks! choutaro and eiji are the best! :) i love them! not forgetting ryoma, fuji and the others. of course i will nvr forget my beloved tama/taka (they're the same person btw) and kyou and night. they rock.

2005-01-28T22:04:00.000+08:00

today has been quite a bad day! sigh... Sonn's leaving on thurs nite and i won't be sending her off cos her flight's at 10 pm and we've got geog and A Math CA the nxt day.Sze, Val, Eve, Uni, and Nirasha happily went off for recess at mikey's and left me alone,together with al and sherry. i couldn't find nicole i think she went there too. hmph.i wld have gone there if it wasn't for the fact that i was super pissed with the whole grp of ill-bred, self-centred ppl who cut queue and then each one of them buy food for ten ppl!

yesterday i was happily queueing (how do u spell it?my brain cells has lessened by 20% due to stress) at mikey's at 10.40 the start of recess. then came this whole hgrp of damn irritating ppl who were cutting queue.what do i do? stand there.was fuming mad. tried to do sth. but the freakin ppl did not want to listen. they think " one prefect will be awfully outnumbered by the many of us so let's just pretend that she's not there" one stoopid idiot girl started arguing with me...stupid retainee. u shld be ashamed of urself and not be so full of urself.go to hell mann. and then there was mabelene and beitris who were cutting queue. i told mae cos she was near to me to get out of the queue and she started complaining that beitris was doing it too, so why did i have to ask her to get out of the queue? i told her that the rest will be asked to get out too and that she can be the first. she of course did not want to move and decided to ignore me. she was prob sceptical of me, thinking "no one will listen ne way so why lose face and listen to her?"shit man! shalom, sheryl tan (Shalene's first love*cough*) , toadd, jill and the rest of their clique was there.there were about ten of them altogether! blardy hell !

i stood there looking like an idiot for half an hour before i finally got my food! and to think that i was there early! i was so angry i started shouting and was making quite a scene but i don't give a damn! after i got my food, i stayed away from crowds. and like the day before i walked out of the queue cos the same ppl were cutting queue. and surprise surprise, i din eat.

ok...back to today.sorry couldn't help but bitch about other ppl. i need to let it all out.oh yea. i am gg for the surgery for my blardy toe in like february? sigh earlier than expected. i hate it. so scared. sigh if i go at that time then i'll miss carnival. can't get my CCA pts then. but i'll get to go to perth with a healed toe at least. oh did i say?? i'm gg to perth for the geog trip! my mum let me go! :) :) that's the only happy thing arnd here. i've gotta do NYAA and lots of other stuff! i am so damn stressed! argh! i have passed the stage of dying and i am now in the decomposing stage. no surprise. i wanted to step on the mercury today so that i could die of mercury poisoning. hey it's a painless way to die! so why not? heaven's such a promising place!(tht is if i am gg there)

did i mention tht i cried today?? seriously i think i am really PMS-ing. al sherry and i were just walking from the canteen today and we were talking bout sonn, then al just had to bring up the fact that after june gill, Nicole and sonn will be gone. i mean it's alr bad anough that prem is in VJC and all. so i dunno why but i just started crying then al was like OMG! sorry mel i shldn't have said that! ok we'll go to the toilet... then after a sec i stopped. strange huh? i suppose it was cos i started thinking bout what school life would be like w/o them and i started getting all lonely.
they are the majorly fun ppl, the ppl that i'm close to and they are leaving! what are the rest of us gg to do? sit there and rot? i noe it's not that val sze and Eve are not fun, but things will be SO different. i gotta treasure my last few mths with them. how sad is that? sigh...i feel so alienated now... and i have got no one to talk to...how can i talk to the others when the keep gg to st mike's while i'm at raphael's and recess is the only time that i can speak to them?

school load has been really heavy...as i said i am decomposing.i have totally no rest at all. i haven't sleep well ever since sch started. sigh...that's why my brain has malfunctioned. and it refuses to work....inertia (sorry that's physics...oh well) ne way u get my point. i am lonely, empty and feeling damn crappy. i just feel like giving up alr. but everyone noes that no matter how i feel like giving up i just won't and i can't...cos i need to carry on,even if it means that i drop dead. oh well i'd better go...got lot's of work to do.sigh. not lookin forward to classes ne more. my happiness has always been the iron mask over my true feelings i just never really do show them. haha and ppl think that i am always happy. yeah rite.

2005-01-26T01:06:00.000+08:00

Gill this is specially for u. i noe u love SUKIYAKI. i love it too!:

It's all because of you, I'm feeling sad and blue
You went away now, My love is just a rainy day
I love you so, how much you'll never know
You've gone away and left me lonely

Unintentional memory Seemed to depart to me
Of love that's true
That one day turned my gray skies blue
But you disappeared
Now my eyes are filled with tears
I wishin you were here with me

Stop this love that I have for you
Now that you're gone I don't know what to do

If only you were here, You'd wash away my tears
The sun would shine and Once again you'd be mine
But in reality, I know it will never be
Cause you took your love away from me.

seems very applicable to the situation that we are facing here...except for the lovey-dovey parts though...eeks :S

2005-01-20T15:35:00.000+08:00

sigh...i'm really sorry for not blogging for so long.haven't had the time to.i haven't gone online for the longest time too! i miss 2/1 so badly...here's a list of what i miss about being in 2/1.

1 i miss gg for PE and playing badminton with Sze, sherry and Pat.
2 i miss having early wednesdays specially for us to crap around, and destress.
3 i miss singing 'that thing u do' with val, al and the others.
4 i miss gg with them for recess every single day.
5 i miss being with all of them!
6 i miss being crazy, my crazy side has been supressed by the seriousness of 3/2.sob.
7 i miss being myself
8 i miss telling everything that happened, to my friends.
9 i miss gg to serene with uni and val and prem.
10 i miss nicole's singing and her advice.
11 i miss prem's jokes!
12 i miss teasing them.
13 i miss ms ratulangi.
14 i miss waiting for them to go home together.
15 i miss gg with them to town.
16 i miss the time when we were painting our classroom
17 i miss sze and her (our) obsession with anime and characters that are the opp of those that i like.
18 i miss val's obsession with kamui.
19 i miss evelyn's blurness and sillyness.
20 i miss sherry's laughing
21 i miss gill's lame jokes.i miss joking with her.
22 i miss all our personalised hi-5s
23 i miss uni's crappyness and her look that's like this. -.-"
24 i miss sitting next to gill during the exam and seeing her laugh during the exam, thinking about Dory.
25 i miss them carolling.which they do everyday except on christmas.
26 i miss walking down the slope with val and uni and eve.
27 i even miss walking with them.even to the canteen.

basically i miss everyone.things aren't the same ne more! i feel alone without them beside me. even lessons are super serious. i think i shall go look for more Prince of tennis pics.they might cheer me up.MIGHT.

2005-01-06T17:08:00.000+08:00

i am so depressed. i am so sure i am gg to fail sec three and retain.like to top it all off, i can't play netball at all until my toeFULLY heals.like by the time that happens, it's the end of the year or sth. i dunno what i am gg to do to cope with this. and yesterday Gill just told us that she is gg to the states in june.the same time that nicole leaves. and that is like my birthday month! she just totally ruined it!thanks gill. -.-

yesterday was netball comm meeting.we have got so much stuff to do. it lasted so long. and today we had GM. it was so super long too.i am now officially a school prefect.i realised that i can't wear court shoes as well until my toe heals. so like what's new. great i just 'LOVE' my toe. ruins EVERYTHING.and now my tuition's on fridays. it is like one of the super bz days ever since MOE stated that there will be no activities on saturdays ne more, everyone decided to make everything on fridays instead.then what about my tuition?? i have four subjects that he is teaching me there.A Math, E Math, Chem and Physics.all the major impt subj. so great.

next week is officially a super bz week. we've got sec one orientation.i gotta help netball with the booth , do the games for prefects.then we've got invest. i have the wonderful backdrop to do. i just noe that i don't have to think about sec four for the time being.i'm nvr gonna make it there. we're missing classes on fri.seren thinks it's a gd thing.but not me! i noe we've got all the double periods on fri, unless they change the time table.which they are definitely gg to do.argh!then i gotta leave early on fri because i've got tuition. the counsillors were quite unhappy. but i can't help thinking about my studies.my feel apprehension.i just noe that i'm retaining.We've got interview for counsillors too. i don't wanna be a counsillor. i just wanna do well in my studies. don't we have a choice?sigh. i need help seriously. whoa like my clique is going to be reduced from 7 ppl to 4 ppl. how sad. i guess i'm just a pathetic girl who loves to complain. OH WELL. ciao!

2004-12-22T15:27:00.000+08:00

I'm back!well actually, I'm Mel. but nvm! i stupidly got a splint in my finger while opening a pair of chop sticks. hmph. it hurts.need someone to kiss my boo boo.The splint can't come out.sniff. it broke while i tried to take it out.now it's stuck inside and it's excruciatingly painful. what do i do??

I went blog surfing today n i realised that i have missed out on a lot of gatherings with my friends. i feel so left out now. i missed out on a lot of fun.lots of stuff has happened ever since i left for brisbane. it's not that i regret going to brisbane, but they din tell me that they were gg out and they did not even ask me along!! i feel that we are drifting apart alr, but prem says that it is only because of the hols. i really hope that what she says is true, cos i nvr want us to drift apart. Nvr. i really like the way we help each other esp during times of need. i nvr want that to change even though we are in different classes now.

What the hell! i just typed this really long post and then now it's gone. and my blogging mood just flew away. damn irritated now.don't feel like repeating what i just wrote so i'll update another time.

2004-12-20T16:38:00.000+08:00

This will probably be my last update before i leave for Penang! So merry Xmas in advance! hope everyone enjoys this very special day! :)

Mrs Tan Aye Leng called on Friday. I was so shocked to hear from her. She told me that there are vacancies in 3/1 and she asked me if i wanted to consider transferrring to 3/1. i told her i will tell her after i talked to my parents.so i called her today and told her that i am not gg. It's a pity really. if it wasn't for the fact that i don't have enough days to have three pracs a week, stay back for Full Geog, have training and also because i will not be taking history (I'll be taking Lit,bleagh!) if i went to 3/1, i would have been more than happy to go. I love Bio to bits! still i will have to wait for two more years before i take Bio in JC (if i really want to).

Everyone is out of SG! this is so irritating! I am so damn bored i think i can cry! thank God for Nicole (who i have talking to for two days!) So gonna miss her! Even my tag board is really dead now. I am like tagging to myself cos all the ppl who tagged are either non-frequent visitors or ppl who tell me that they "are leaving today", ppl like Gill and Sze. -.-" listening to anime soundtracks now. :) i love anime. >.< talking about it, animax is previewing, starting from today! sad thing is i will be leaving on thursday, and the preview ends on the 26th. And i am so positive that my mum is so not gg to let us subscribe to it cos it is under the digital tier, so unless we have digital cable, we can't have it! *hmph* stupid Starhub! ruin my happiness!

If there is one thing i CAN wait for it's school re-opening. in a matter of 13 days school is gonna re-open! grr... I mean i wanna noe my new class and i want trng to start, but with my stupid toe and knee giving me problems, i don't seem to see trng as fun (at least for the time being). u guys probably think that i'm sick, not looking forward to trng, but i think i might have to stop trng for a few weeks.which is bad cos carnival starts soon after sch re-opens. I've been letting the team down. (sorry u guys!) :'( i guess i can't play *wails* i'd better go wallow in self-pity now. *sniffle*

2004-12-14T13:24:00.000+08:00

I'm back home! ah...home sweet home. i watched the grudge at indooropilly (a shopping centre in brisbane) on thurs. oh mann. i spent 95% of the time behind my sister's jacket cos i was so damn scared. freaky mann. the later part of the film, my sis was apologising to me cos she made me watch the film. ahaha... after that i was quite scared but a few days later i was teasing my sister's fren making the scary sound that the spirit in the film made.

came back at 9ish last nite. was so damn hungry cos i nvr do eat the aeroplane food. too afraid that i might puke it all out. so ya i got to eat swenson's teriyaki chicken pasta. mmm... so yummy. even though i slept throughout the whole seven hours of the flight i came home and crashed while the rest of my family besides my brother went to pick my aunt at the airport who was coming at 12.52am.

luckily i took the air sickness tablet or else i would have gotten air sick again. so i guess the flight wasn't too bad. and i got to sit beside two aussie guys (i think they were aussies.not too sure though. they were speaking some strange lang) . they are all caucasians but they had a little sis that was a chinese. i guessed that they adopted her. so their family had 8 people inclu. of the two parents.3 guys and 3 girl kids. whoa. that little girl was so cute and she kept going to her two brothers who were sitting beside me so i got a chance to see her. she is so damn cute. though a bit noisy. the guy sitting beside me was cody ( i found out when the little girl called him cody.) he was nice to me. passed me the head phone thingy saying "here u go" . so nice. ahaha.

i got to watch so many VCDs while i was in brisbane. they have this video rental shop called blockbuster, which my sis and i often went to to borrow anime. ya mann. i watched escaflowne V1. it was nice. though it was only a few episodes. then there was ghost in the shell which i fell asleep while watching.oops. and then there was blood: the last vampire. wasn't too bad. the art was realistic. and gory. just like X the movie.eeks. of course i watched other movies like ghost ship (shudder.gory) the parent trap. very sweet and cute. lindsay lohan is so talented in acting even when she was young. and other movies.if i continue u might fall asleep.

so ne way i am so happy that i am home! i can return to watching anime on thurs and fridays at 11.00 pm to midnight. inuyasha rocks! my sis thinks so too! i've got prefects camp tmr. feli said that SJI is coming! groan... do we have to go?? sigh...not staying over in school on thurs though. it's not very safe. and worst of all, our school isn't exactly 'ghost free' . yikes. *shudders* glad that my mum agreed that i shouldn't stay over. :) i think that this holiday actually gave me some time off from my parents.gave me a break so that i can come back and be a better daughter. i haven't been a very good one.

which reminds me about being good i have to finish my math homework frm school and tuition. I HATE A MATH AND E MATH! stupid. i still have time when i go to penang to do it. oh ya i will be going to penang from 18th i think to after christmas. will tell u guys the exact dates later. rite! toodle-o . missing all my frens can't wait to go back to school.training, netball and my frens will be waiting for me. haha u must think i'm mad.everyone else CAN wait for school to re-open.

2004-12-07T07:00:00.000+08:00

Hey! I'm back again.but still in aussie using my sister's com now.so far the trip as been excellent! aha except for the little tiny detail that i hate to fly.ugh. ne way. we had lots of fun and we bought lots of stuff too!ahaha...i got almost everything on my wishing list, that is out of those that can actually come true. got my wallet, board shorts and believe it or not i got a bikini. *gasps* need it to even out my tan very much.

it's pouring outside here and the temp can go down to 19 degrees celcius when it does. so much for summer and getting a tan! oh ya i forgot to mention that my unvle got me a digital cam! *squeals* and i managed to get even more clothes here.woohoo! gonna have to cook on wed with the help of my sis. last wed i helped her while she cooked. we did pasta and it turned out all right. hope that whatever i am cooking i will not screw it up.

going to town today to get my crumpler bag. i think. did i mention that i have watched lots of movies here and during my stay at my uncle's hse? i watched the incredibles, bride and prejudice in s'pore. and i came here and watched national treasure and we are gg out today to watch some more.wanted to watch the grudge but it;'s rated MA here and i am underage.*sniggers* i didn't really wanna watch it ne way.don't like horror movies. i miss the TV shows in singapore but i love australia! it's just so cool!

we went to byron bay in New South Wales and we forgot that it's a different time zone compared to brisbane.but the worst thing was that we forgot to check the weather forecast! it was 21 degrees celcius there and all the clothes that i brought were beach clothes. none of them had sleeves let alone long sleeves. the wind was so damn chilly. freezed there mann.some how my sis managed to survive without a jacket there. and all her clothes were without sleeves too.lots of ppl surf at byron bay.it's practically their life. wanted to learn how to surf but didn't have the time.sigh.

oh well at least during my stay at my uncle's house i learnt how to wake board. i actually could stand up for a while but forot to turn the board to the side so i fell in. ahaha most of the three hours i spent were in the water or on the boat. lol. ne way i got sun burnt on my face and shoulders cos when i was puttin on my sun screen i was still wearing clothes so i missed some spots and forgot to do a touch up later on. and i forgot to put some on my face. and it was early in the morn so the sun was super strong.so i got burnt. during my stay i actually drank quite a lot of wine.red wine. one night i drank only about half the cup and i became very red and my face felt very hot. ahahaha the wine must have been quite strong or i drank it too fast. my uncle said that in our entire family he is the only one that can drink.lol now we noe.

well my stay here i have drunk A FEW sips but it was white wine. i kinda prefer red wine.don't ask why. i don't noe why either. well i guess that's about it.my typing's so screwed. ahaha must be bcos i have not typed in a long time.ok one last thing...can some one tell me what sze yenn is talking about? What BBQ?? do u guys noe some thing i don't? don't tell me it's the class BBQ cos i am missing the sec four farewell and i may be missing the BBQ cos i'm still in aussie??!! talking bout the farewell will tell u more about the reason why i can't go...stupid.ugh.toodle-o! :)

2004-11-17T13:27:00.000+08:00

mary had a little lamb *sings* haha. u must really think i am mad. Just went for a swim and tan. yipee! i am darker! woohoo! i can see my swim suit tan mark like how it used to be in primary school when i used to train a lot. very prominent. wahahaha.i'm ecstatic! lol.hyperr! but i had to suffer to actually attain this u noe? the sun was so damn hot. i cld feel myself burning. *shudders at the thought of it* i spent like one hour at the pool. i think it rocks!

tried calling uni cos i wanted to talk to her bout sth but then she did not pick up her phone. i wonder if she went to cambodia too. But she's logged on on MSN. unless she practises 'logging on even when u are gg to cambodia'.

argh feeling damn bored now. gg cheero!

2004-11-16T10:50:00.000+08:00

Yesterday's gala dinner was great! i actually got to see Germaine Liu, Gill, Val, Nicxy, Alessa, Sonn and Uni again! It was great seeing them! oh, how miss my class! Doing duty was quite tiring. Stupid court shoes made me have blisters as usual. I also got to see my Primay school teachers! haha they all said that i have grown up. Duh! -_-"' The meal was quite filling. The primary school prefects are so fussy with their food! Lisa and Dorothy( the two pri school prefects), omg, they didn't really eat at all! They thought the food was bad. It was quite ok, not too bad what! sigh. Lisa said that they are not like Sec school ppl who like everything. like as if we like EVERYTHING. nvm! all in all it was quite fun, getting to noe more ppl and all that if you don't think about the duty part! Oh ya! jocelyn and nicky, i think they are MAD as in crazy, insane mad. but they were so funny esp Jocelyn! They really made the night enjoyable. i think the seniors thought we were mad cos we were laughing so hard.lol. like what's new!

Oh Sh*t! i have not packed for Aussie yet! argh!i am leaving in bout a week's time and i have not packed yet! argh! ok ppl. when i am in aussie do not contact me! i mean it! do not call me or msg me or ne thing. i am talking bout from the 26th of Nov to 13th Dec okie?thanks a lot ppl! gtg do my math tuition hw! tutor is coming in the afternoon and i have not done his hw! eeks! cheero!

2004-11-08T11:42:00.000+08:00

Guess what! i got into 3/2 but the thing is that all my frens are not gg to 3/2 they are either gg to 3/3 or 3/4! guess i would have to adapt to a totally new class without any good frens with me. but i do have hope as Vanessa Ng is taking the entrance exams and if she gets in she says she will go to 3/2!!!yay! i believe that she can get in cos she's smart and she says that our school paper so far is easier than her school's. *crosses fingers* good luck girl!

Uni says she doesn't wanna take lit but she says there's no use appealing to 3/2. hmph. fine decide to abandon me. :P lol. ne way Gill tried to drag me to 3/3 but the fact that we will have to take lit for another two whole years is too much for me. haha. i was about to shout guess what i don't have to take lit after we got the results today but i remembered that Ms Shanthi was in class and managed to shut myself up b4 it was too late. rejoice! no more characterisation for me!

i have this very bad feeling that i will not like the new class i am gg to nxt yr. And i also feel that i will not enjoy nxt yr at all. Even gg to church will be a busy thing as we are doing external service projects and all that. also i noe that netball will be busy as well but i don't really mind this. i am willing to sacrifice doing triple science for more netball! haha. but seriously i can't cope with doing three pracs in one week! on top of that i would have to stay back for Geog lessons, not to mention the extra classes that the teachers always have. oh well i guess i am quite happy that I got into 3/2. I hope. :S *peace*

2004-11-07T14:44:00.000+08:00

i forgot sth. tmr is the announcement of which classes we got into! eeks!!! hope i get into 3/2! i don't want to end up in 3/7 or 3/3! pray for me! yes yes i will pray for everyone as well! rite i might as well do a dedication to all my gurlfrens here:

Sze/Zee: hey ya girl! thanks for always lending me all the anime and manga stuff! u promised me to always lend me stuff even if we were in different classes so u betta keep ur promise! enjoy ur company a lot, and always continue being the smart and artistic girl! i really love ur drawings!u takkair and study hard! love ya!

Nicole: hey ya! *sings* ok nvm. you're a really trustworthy girl whom i always confide in. Thanks for being my listening ear all the time. will always remember ur advice and the times we shared through weal and woe. sorry i didn't quite like you in the beginning! but i am very glad that i got to noe u betta and now i think of eitherwise.you're a funky girl who always makes me laugh.i love ur drawings too!

Val: egoqueen! thanks for being my listening ear too! i noe that u study hard and that one day u will do very well in life so do not give up hope and continue to study hard!strive to reach ur goal! ur drawings really rock! continue being the sensible and matured girl u are! :) love ya loads!

Prem: thanks for always being the one to cheer us up when we were down. i will always remember you and we must keep in touch! remember u are rogue, wolverine and cyclops combined in one. in other words you are invincible. lol. continue to be the smart and genuinely funny girl that you are! don't forget us! love ya lots dear!

Eve: my 156 fren!thanks for being there to listen to me rambling on esp when i am mad. even though we have areas where we do not quite understand each other and some times end up in a tiff, i still love ya okie?

Uni!: love la loads! i am still 'angry' that u shifted away from the bukit timah area! hmph. haha ne way thanks for always accompanying me to serene macs or walking me to coro. thanks for the wonderful times we had at orchard! i am so gonna miss ur crap. ;) loved sitting with u in class! u were the best person i ever sat with this yr! we had so much fun fooling round at the back of the class. u must stop 'playing' with money okie? don't let mr teh take the class fund money away! lol.

Gill: hey there queen-of-lame! u and i will always be the two most witty and lame ones! remember it takes wit and brains to be lame! literary skills too actually esp puns.(the pun of it all?) haha. thanks for always making me laugh at ur uber lame jokes. ppl need it to loosen up sometimes. rock on girl! continue being cheerful!

Sherry: hey there sherry dear! haha will always remember the times we went round shooting the video, it was super fun! will always remember u as the smart girl u are. i noe that u have changed for the betta and i love the new sherry! :)

to all the other 2/1 girls: love u guys a lot and remember 2/1 reigns! we totally rock! enjoyed all the fun times that we had. study hard and takkair u guys!

2004-11-07T14:25:00.000+08:00

i decided to do a wish list thingy in advance for CHRISTMAS!! haha. but the chances are that no one will really get them for me. oh well i shall just try my luck.
here goes:
roxy purse*
crumpler sling bag* (which might come true)
new swim suit*
OFFICIAL BALL*!! :D netball rocks mann!
netball shooting pole aka goal post*
new computer/laptop* (this one's crashing soon)
new jeans from levi's*
a digital cam*
backpack* (deuter shld be fine :D)
be a member of netball singapore/team singapore* (lol.this is getting very far-fetched)
have prema stay in IJ* (sniffle. don't go!)
LOTR book set which includes 'the hobbit' and the ending book*
Fushigi yuugi VCD+OVA and Eikoden* :)
FY manga the whole set* (which isn't even out yet.-_-")
5566's new CD*
Jap anime soundtracks (esp FY's)*
now for a really impossible one. have tamahome/taka to marry me.* ( told u it was impossible!)

well that's bout it. cos i spent bout $600 on shopping with my parents alr so most of my clothes i wanted have alr been bought.heex. i'm a shopaholic mann! whoever is my future husband (if i ever get married or someone actually manages to persuade me to change my mindset) will really suffer mann. he has to have a really big income! lol. i'm nvr getting a boyfriend this way! doingg... ;) bye ppl.enjoy ur hols! *peace*

2004-11-04T13:33:00.000+08:00

sigh...*sneeze* i am having a cold. again. i realise that every time i get sick it is always a cold i get. never a fever or ne thing else. the last time i had a fever was like when i was 8/9 can't quite remember but it was quite serious (39 or 40 degrees) after that i nvr had a fever. cool! rite. *sniffle* it's really getting to me. i wanted to go swimming today but because of my blasted cold i can't. sheesh. when i have the will power to wake up and go for a swim i get a cold. great.

went to someone's blog and i realised that that person is really lonely and that might be the problem. the reason why that person is troubled. sigh i wish i could help that person, but it is not my fault that that person doesn't feel comfortable talking to someone 'new'. God tell me what to do. as much as i noe, i think that person needs help fast.

i think i am gg mad or i am growing 'down'. get it? growing up? haha nvm. i crack myself up. lol. rite i think so as i was playing 'rugrats in paris the movie' game just now and i found it fun. i actually finished the whole game in one morning. and i was playing neopets with my brother (for his sake) yesterday like i used to when i was in primary school. see what i mean by growing 'down'? instead of growing up i am gg back in time. uber cool! -_-" ok i think everyone thinks i am mad. maybe i am! :P

ahahaha... i think i will key off here. bye ppl! don't miss me too much. kidding! :P *Peace*

-memoirs-

2004-11-02T13:52:00.000+08:00

sigh i had no idea that i would learn to appreciate my friends so much until i came to secondary school. actually i only started to LOVE my friends this year after i got to really noe my classmates better esp gill,Val, nicole, Eve, Sze, Feli and Prem. of course i got to noe a totally new fren, Uni, you rock too! thank god for them. without them i don't think that i would have survived this yr. thanks you guys. i love my gurlfrens! thanks for being my listening ear all the time. we must keep in touch no matter what. i am so grateful that i have such wonderful frens! i will always rmb the times we had, esp the times we had at town! *grins* or crapping round on wednesdays! oh the pun of it all! lol. 2/1 will remain as 2/1 forever. and the extremely extended family will continue to expand. Sze, Mel, Eve, Nicole, Gill, Prem, Val and Uni will remain friends no matter what.

Ok on to yesterday. rite went to the dentist, went for lunch with Gus and my grandparents. stayed home and watched fushigi yuugi OVA for the umpteenth time. (it really rocks, i LOVE Tama n Taka) oh Nuriko rocks too. enough bout that. went for dinner at great world city then went home. dad wasn't fellin well must have been the aftermath of food poisoning. he felt like puking, didn't eat. so mum drived instead and we were on the way home when we nearly killed someone. i am serious. this Indian man on the motorcycle skidded and fell on the road, luckily we had just started moving and the traffic was slow-moving therefore my mum managed to brake in time if not that man would have been killed. all we heard was this very loud sound underneath our tyres.

my dad got down from the car and started to help the man up. we moved the car to the road shoulder and started to collect his statement and everything to say that he was at fault and that he was fine. slowly lots of indian men on motorcycles started crowding and everything, my dad said that they were all staring at my dad like as if he knocked down that man. scary. mind you this is at the road shoulder so it can get kinda dangerous. so in the end we went home. while we passed by the church i saw it all lighted up and everything and was wondering why the mass had so many ppl and everything. then i realised that we were supposed to go for mass tonight. of course in the end we could not go for mass it was a bit too late by the time we realised it. oops.

went home and prayed to thank god that that man wasn't killed and that we were all fine. and to apologise for not gg for mass. then i remembered that i would be gg for mass tonight as well cos Gus is having his concert tonight and so we would be able to go for mass. sigh gonna have to go home and do penance AGAIN. the kind of sinful life i lead. lol.

i think this is like the longest post ever. so i better stop ranting and raving.haha. cheers ppl. 2/1 rocks!

2004-10-27T20:51:00.000+08:00

hee hee! 2/1 rocks! I love it to the core! We so deserved to win the 1st place for the Lower Sec Netball Carnival! Rock on ppl! Great job! Love you all lots! Still can't believe that i did cheerleading and we did not fall during the stunts and we came in first for cheerleading! lol. :)) feelin damn hyperr! But i am hurt so much la! everywhere hurts (won't elaborate in detail.heex) stupid double PA stands. did them so many times! :P Our hard work paid off though!

My arm is hurting so much. i think i pulled a muscle. the whole arm is like limp. just realised that even though it is the last day of school tmr it is gg to be a sad and happy day. lol. sounds weird but it is true. Prem is leaving! :'( I'll miss you Prem! Love ya lots! gonna miss all ur fooling and joking arnd esp on early days! Ne way good luck for your education life in VJC okie? study hard!

erm... who is Wen Long and how does he noe me?? lol. *wonders*rite i hope i can get into 3/2 i think i can if not too many ppl want to get in. now i wonder if i am kinda waivering a little while deciding which class i really wanna be in. haha. that's me being fickle and indecisive. shall digress a bit. whoever that '...' person is, i somehow think that it is a 'flamer' (according to Nicxy). so ppl don't get too excited. lol. joking. whatever la ok? ne way to all the 2/1 ppl, gonna miss u guys a lot, hope we all stay in touch and i won't forget you all okie? good luck you all! shall seal this post off with a kiss.lol. XXX :D